AN: I do not own, nor claim to own Torchwood, Owen and Tosh, or any of the other characters. They belong to Russell T Davies, and the writers, and BBC 2. I make no profit from the writing of this story, it is for entertainment only.
Taking A Walk In Your Shoes
Owen Harper growled "I'd bloody just love to see you taking a walk in my shoes for real, Tosh. I'd bloody stand there and piss myself laughing, whilst you made even the most pathetic attempts of being me."
Tosh spat venomously "Oh go get shagged Owen, it's all you seem to be worth these days. First Suzy, then Gwen, and then Diane, who is next, Jack or Ianto, as you've practically serviced the whole of Cardiff's female population?"
She added, sneering in an extremely un-Tosh like fashion. The quite and meek genius had been pushed beyond her patients, and had finally snapped. The kid gloves were now well and truly off and disposed of.
"Maybe you should consider visiting residential homes for the elderly, you never know, some of the female and male patients may help you get off. They'd be so doped up on drugs, and senile to the point of being beyond communication, you wouldn't need to waste your time with your pathetic none existent charm and wit. You could skip the foreplay and straight onto the main event."
Jack, Gwen, and Ianto stood not too far away, listening to and observing the current spat between Owen and Tosh. This was the worst spat that had ever happened between Owen and Tosh. All three looked seriously disturbed.
In the past the spats had been down to something the other had said or done, that had ended up riling or rubbing the other the wrong way. But this had come out of nowhere, and it was a real bad one, the worst yet, and was likely to take more then a week to solve.
The situation between the resident Doctor and computer genius and technician, had gone from a mild friction, to the occasional spat that was forgotten in a week or so. But now the situation had arrived at its ultimate peek, complete and utter melt down.
Things had turned nasty and bitter between Owen and Tosh after Gwen had arrived. He and Gwen had not been discreet as they rightfully should have been, especially around Tosh.
Tosh was beyond hurt, as it seemed Owen was making it his life's mission to sleep his way through his female co-worker, all except for her, that is. To Owen she figured she wasn't even worth his efforts. Sure she had heard his thoughts wondering what she would have been like in bed. But then he had figured she would have been just plain weird.
Then there had been Diane. She had unknowingly crushed Tosh more so then Gwen had. Owen had fallen in love with her, which made it even more painful for Tosh, who was in love with Owen, who barely even acknowledged the fact she was alive.
Then Martha had come on the scene. He had flirted with her. He hadn't been able to make a move, because Martha had a boy friend, and hadn't been interested in Owen like that. And of course she was far too professional, and only interested in doing her job.
Owen suddenly went too far, and said something he wished he could have taken back instantly. "Ha, funny Tosh, real funny, you're just fucking bitter, all because of your stupid crush on me. Yeah I know about that."
He added cruelly "And guess what, I'll never lower my standards, when I could have someone twice as beautiful as you, like Diane or Gwen. Why would I even want to be with someone who is so fucking frigid, she wouldn't know how to act even remotely sexual if it bit her in the arse and winked at her?"
He concluded, smiling cruelly "Your pathetic and meek, Tosh. It would probably be like shagging a corpse, a virgin would probably be more of a turn on then you. Go back to your precious computer, and leave it to those with even the merest shred of sex appeal."
Jack suddenly roared "OWEN!" That snapped Owen out of the sudden cruel red haze that had taken over him. He took one look at Tosh's face, and felt physically ill. He had gone too far, and he knew it.
He thought in horror, and more then a little self disgust and hatred 'Oh my fucking god. You stupid bloody wanker, you evil bastard, what the fuck of have you gone and done? She'll never forgive you for this'
Owen opened his mouth to apologise, get down on his knees and beg and grovel at her feet, asking forgiveness if he had to. But either way, he had to make it right, he just had to.
Before even a single mere sound could escape passed his lips, he closed his mouth, as he watched in more then a little fear at what was happening to Tosh, right in front of him.
Tosh was visibly trembling, but not in fear, but rage, pure seething rage. The heart break of his cruel and malicious words wouldn't set in until later, after she'd had time to calm down.
Jack and the others watched in muted horror, as they saw Tosh was trembling violently. She had gone bright red in the face. Her body language was rigid and screamed murder. She looked homicidal.
They barely recognised the shy and warm hearted genius. In her place was a woman consumed by all of the heartache, anger, and frustration, which she had hidden and suppressed. But no more, Owen had gone too far, and something vital inside of the genius Japanese beauty had well and truly snapped.
As if in slow motion, Tosh raised her hand, swung it backwards, before surging forwards, and bring it down hard and cruelly upon Owen's left cheek, with enough force to send him stumbling backwards a couple of paces.
Owen looked stunned beyond belief, as well as horrified, as he brought up his right hand to gingerly touch his abused cheek. There was no anger, knowing he had more then deserved it, and much much worse. He was just stunned that she had actually done it.
He visibly flinched, as Tosh screamed "FUCK YOU, OWEN! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU, YOU FUCKING EVIL AND DISPICALBLE BASTARD. HOW COULD YOU SAY SUCH A THING TO ME?"
She added, trying to suppress anguished sobs, combined with all of her all consuming rage. "And no, for you information, I don't have a crush on you, I never had. I'm in love with you, always have been from the very first moment I met you."
She sobbed "Fuck you. I've spent the last three and half going on for years, sat there silently watching and enduring you being less then discreet, as you shagged Suzy, then Gwen. Thinking why won't he ever give me the time of day, why? Am I that repulsive and undesirable?"
She went on, almost overwhelmed by her heart broken sobs "I endured you coming in each morning, looking exhausted and well shagged. Watching and having to listen as you bragged about your latest notch on your bed post."
She continued after a brief pause, as she tried to control the force of her sobs. Her voice was dripping with pure hatred and anguish. "I would sit with all the others when we would go out to the pub for drinks after work or during lunch."
She hissed venomously "Watch you as you flirted with practically every female in the whole blasted place, but never me, oh never ever meek and unattractive, sexually suppressed and weirdo Toshiko Soto."
What Owen didn't seem to realise in his stunned and horrified stupor, was that tears were rapidly filling his eyes and drenching his cheeks. But Jack, Gwen, Ianto, and even Tosh had noticed it. Tosh couldn't care less, she was in emotional agony, so why shouldn't he share her pain, the evil bastard.
She continued "But the last and final straw that broke the camels back, it came in the form of a stunning and beautiful female pilot. She ended up Trapped in a time period several years into the future, without a possible way of returning home."
She went on, starting to pace. "But she was different to both Suzy and Gwen. Different in the sense that you fell in love with her, an emotion you had not allowed yourself to feel for another, none since Katie."
She added "You flashed her you're none existent charm and took her to your bed. But unlike the others, you were the one to get your heart broken. She left you. I guess she'd sooner brave wherever the rift decided to spit her out next, then stay will you. She flew away out of your life, leaving you crushed. and heart broken"
She concluded, smiling bitterly, and spoke with a cruel edge to her voice. "So tell me Owen, how did it feel to have your heart broken, instead of being the one breaking all of those fragile hearts? Don't feel to good, does it?"
Owen croaked out, finally aware of his tears. "Tosh, please, stop it." Tosh let out a cruel and cynical laugh, that made all of the others cringe at the horrible and twisted sound of it.
"Stop!" she exclaimed "Fucking stop you say. Why should I, huh, give me one reason, one fucking lousy reason, as to why I shouldn't continue to shred your heart to pieces, and then stomped upon the cold and twisted remains?"
She snarled "Fuck you, you don't have any right or get to ask that of me. Where the fuck was your sense of mercy when you just practically took and tore my heart and fucking carelessly abused it?"
And with that she turned on her heel, before quickly making her way towards her desk, grabbed her leather jacket. She then quickly bolted for the main entrance to the hub, and left.
She left a lingering silence in her wake. But none of them knew, that she was only leaning up against the large and heavy door to the hub, as she silently sobbed.
Jack turned to face Owen. He looked crushed beyond words. He sniffed and rapidly and roughly wiped away the tears stains from his cheeks and eyes.
He spat "Go a head Jack, even you Gwen and Ianto. Tell me what an evil and despicable bastard I am. Because trust me, you won't be telling me anything new, or that I don't deserve to be called."
He added "I lost control and I screwed up. It's as if some kind haze took over me, I saw red, and just fucking completely let loose." He added "I swear I never meant to say half of what I did. I had no idea where it all came from. Because I know more then half of what I said isn't or couldn't ever be true."
He concluded "She'll never forgive me for this, not that I can honestly blame her either. I would have been so forgiving if in her place either." His face crumbled miserably.
He choked out, as more tears started to rapidly fill his eyes "Oh fucking hell Jack, I swear, I swear I would have never said any of that, not if I had known she was in love with me. I honestly thought it was just a crush."
On the other side of the door, Tosh stifled her sobs in her hands, as she listened to Owen on the other side. She could still hear inside of the hub, because the door had not been closed completely. Only to the point that you wouldn't be able to tell it was still open, but could hear what was going on inside.
AN: Tell me, is it worth continuing? I have plans for this, as well as having a certain someone come back through the rift. But this is if you all want me to continue. Let me know.