Disclaimer I do not own any of these characters I just like to play in Stephanie Meyers world. I thank her for giving me a playground.

Edward had asked me to go with him to talk with Carlisle today. We were on our way to the hospital and Edward was being quite and a little jumpy it was odd. Our wedding was 2 months away on August 13 a cloudy but not rainy day 5 weeks before my wedding according to Alice. There was something in his light amber eyes that told me something was wrong. I had to find out what was haunting him.

" Edward what is wrong"

"I need to tell you something before the wedding and I am scared of how you will react. "

" After everything I am not sure what could possible make me run away now? I love you; I need you to get that through your think head. It is a little weird that jasper has a better handle on how much I love you then you sometimes seem to understand. Just tell me."

"I love you too far more then I can possible show. I can't tell you until we are with Carlisle. I am sorry."

" It is fine. I am sure I can wait another what 5 min with how crazy you are driving and it wont change the news any. So what else are we doing today?"

It all depends on your reaction logically you will run but if it goes as I hope we will probably be talking all day here and at home."

He parked the car and opened my door. The second I got out he pulled me into a tight hug. We walked towards Carlisle office and the tension in his shoulders seen to increase with every step. It was odd watching marble get even harder as it walked. Once outside the door he held me.

" Remember that I love you."

Ok Edward calm down. I will listen it won't be as bad as what you are thinking."

We opened the door and Carlisle got up to greet us.

" Edward Bella thank you for meeting me at the hospital, lunch hour can get extremely boring without the need to eat."

He gave me a hug and kissed my forehead a tradition that seemed to have started after Edward and I got engaged. Carlisle then went to hug Edward who seem to relax a very little. Their hug lasted longer then normal, I couldn't put my finger on it but it didn't seem exactly like a father son hug.

" Why don't we sit? Edward did you explain anything yet."

" No just that we need to talk to her before the wedding."

"Ok do you want or need me to tell her?"

"No I want to tell her, I am just a little worried."

" Guys I think all the subtle talking is scaring me more then if you just told me. Please try to remember that I haven't run away yet."

" Ok sorry just know that if you do run I will completely understand. Do you remember when we got back from Italy at the family meeting you called."

"Yes to say you were mad would be an understatement."

"I was mad yes but most of my anger was at Alice for saying she would change you. I wasn't happy with the vote but even if I was in denial but I knew you would have to be changed if you wanted to stay with me forever. I was realizing what you already knew that your human life would never be enough however I didn't want to take anything from you."

" So why were you mad at Alice? You are not still mad at Alice right?"

" No I am not still mad at Alice. She wasn't thinking through all the ramifications of her offer part of which is do to the fact that she doesn't remember her human life so she embraces this life better then most of us."

" Ok for a guy who is normally great with words I still have no idea what you are talking about."

"Sorry this is hard. I was mad at Alice because the only person besides myself I would be alright with changing you would be Carlisle. The reason for that is not for me to be controlling it is because there is a strong unbreakable bond that forms between the sire and a newborn, and I don't think I could deal with you having that bond with anyone but Carlisle or myself."

"Well seeing as I already see Alice as my sister i can't see the problem with having a stronger connection to her for my first year as a newborn."

" No Bella AHhhhh. Sorry the connection is forever if the sire cares about your well being at all."

" Ok I am still missing something what is this connection?"

"Bella the connection is sexual in nature."

"So Carlisle has a sexual connection with you. Esme, Rose and Emmit?"

" Yes Bella I do."

"So you lied when you said you were a virgin."

" Yes No Kinda." With that Edward got up and went to stare out the window.

" What Edward is failing at explaining he is a virgin in the sense that you asked the question? I have never asked him to sleep with a women and he has never chosen to own his own accord. He always wanted to wait for his mate... you.

"Wait. What do you mean asked him to no never mind back to that later he has slept with you correct?"

"Yes after he was turned we didn't understand the pulling desire it made no sense to either one of us. You see this is a known phenomenon but not one that is openly discussed. So I never learned of it before I turned Edward. I also didn't experience it because my sire was destroyed the same night I was turned."

"So you didn't know when you turned him."

"No I had no idea. The beginning was very confusing since neither of use were inclined towards our own sex in our human lives."

" Edward come sit down. I have 8 thousand questions floating around my head and you standing by the window isn't helping. I am not running, I am confused and need information."

" Bella why don't you and Edwards go to the house, that Bella can sort through her thoughts. You can ask questions or wait and I will meet you both there in an hour and a half when my shift ends."

A/N: Thanks for reading my story. I am not a writer and this is my first story so any feedback and ideas would be greatly appreciated. Tell me what you want to see. Thanks again