WARNING: This contains SPOILERS!
Spoilers for Riff's secret, so DON'T read if you don't want to know!
...I told you. Now if you are still here, I assume that you read God Child to the end, or don't care about spoilers.
The references are to: The importance of being Earnest, by Oscar Wilde, my very favourite author.
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The importance of being Riff
It is very important to be Riff. Riff is friendly, calm, composed, and, most of all, he's good. But sometimes, I'm not Riff. Sometimes, I go bunburysing. Sometimes, I loose the name of Riff and am…I don't have a name then. That's the freedom I get from bunburysing.
I walk dark streets and I see black places. Sometimes, I take a little patch of black home with me. I lock it away securely in my heart and forget about it. I'm good again. I'm Riff again.
I fancy to call myself Tower, when I'm bunburysing. I don't know why. It just appeals to me. Tower is not Riff. In fact, he's the exact opposite of Riff. Riff is good. Tower is evil.
I do quite like both of them.
Riff cares for Master Cain. Riff sees his haunting golden eyes and wishes to let them glow and shine. Riff would love to feel them linger on him, take him in. He knows Master Cain sometimes watches him, but he forces himself to look away, to ignore the golden orbs. Because something, something just tells him to. Something tells him that it's wrong. That it must never be. And Riff can't do anything but hide his longing and turns away.
Tower hates Master Cain. Tower sees his haunting golden eyes and wishes to tear them out of his skull and rip them into pieces. Tower would love to feel them linger on him, take him in. He knows Master Cain sometimes watches him, and he hopes Master Cain nourishes the same cold hate for him. Because something with those eyes is wrong. They don't see Tower. They only see Riff. And Tower despises Riff. Because Riff is met with a loving glance. Tower is humiliated with a bored, arrogant look.
Tower wants Master Cain to look at him.
I sometimes want to give in to Tower. I want to claw Master Cain and force my bloody mark onto him.
I sometimes want to give in to Riff. I want to stroke Master Cain and ease my healing mark onto him.
But I can only be near Master Cain when I'm Riff. He does not see Tower. He then only sees his enemy.
It is very important to be Riff. I can't see, I can't feel him when I'm not. But I can't be Riff all the time. Sometimes, I have to free Tower, because he's screaming inside me. If I don't let him out occasionally, Master Cain will one day hear his howls.
But each time I let Tower have his will, he gains more Power. Each black patch I take from Tower makes him stronger. And Riff weakens. I frear the day that Riff will die. Because then, I won't be able to be near Master Cain any more.
I don't care about Riff and Tower. The only thing that is important for me is Master Cain. I want to have him, wether it's Tower or Riff he gives in.
As long as I will have him one day, I will let the two have their way.
Let's see who wins.
I am Tower and I am Riff. It is very important to be Riff. But it is also important to be Tower.
Sometimes, I go bunburysing. Sometimes, I'm not bunburysing. But when am I me?