Title: Inner Turmoil
Rating: T
Pairing: Jean/Logan
Summary: Jean wonders if the love she has left for Scott is enough to keep her relationship going. Especailly with her feelings for Logan getting expanding everyday.
Status of fic: Work in Progress
Disclaimer: I do not own X-Men or any of its charcters.

Jean sat out in the grounds of the Mansion; it was becoming more difficult to think in the Mansion itself. Her telepathy had been improving and she couldn't think herself anymore for everyone else's thoughts invading her head.

She noticed it was getting harder. Jean had been ignoring her feelings for Logan for months because she didn't want to hurt Scott, and she thought they would eventually go away. Although they didn't, actually the feelings got more intense- every time he looked at her suggestively or their hands grazed each other when doing the washing up in the teachers lounge. The Phoenix wanted him too. That's what was making it stronger. The Phoenix was pure desire and hate, wanting more and more power, and it wanted Logan. But it hated Scott, his Stepford ways and him wanting to be more powerful then Jean annoyed her… she wanted someone like her – like Logan.

Since the incident at Alkali Lake, when Jean had almost sacrificed herself for her loved ones, (she had been saved by Kurt seconds before the wall of water and fallen on her) she could feel the Phoenix's personality merging with hers. She had much more power now, and when she got angry she could destroy entire buildings in the blink of an eye, it was getting hard to control herself.

She needed passion, something she never got from Scott. She had the feeling he was only with her now so Logan couldn't be. The love in the relationship had worn out many years before. They were pretty much friends again, friends who just happened to share the same bed and wear engagement rings.

She knew it was time to make a decision. Either to be with Scott or to be with Logan, she had heard the Phoenix's thought that she could have both of them but she ignored it- she couldn't do that to either of them or herself. She was lost, all she needed was someone to love and now she had two people she wanted. It wasn't fair, but then again it never was.

When she had found out she was a mutant she had become an outcast. The children at school became so cruel; they singled her out and made her feel as if she was a freak. Even her own family did it to her, her older brothers and sisters thinking she was filth and refusing to be in the same room as her, her mother terrified of her daughter and Jean often heard her thinking "where did I go wrong". Her Dad reacted the worst out of all of them, he had called the Professor, he had heard he dealt with this kind of thing. When it became clear to her father on the family's second visit to Jean at the institute that she could not be cured he cut off all links to her. After he had slammed the front door and she heard the car drive away she never heard from her family again. What hurt Jean the most was the way her mother had looked at her- her eyes had been blank there was no longer love for Jean in that family.

She knew she had to make a decision, but that wouldn't be her hard part- she knew who she wanted. The hard part would be the aftermath, everyone's reaction. She had just gained the friendships and respect from every single person around her again… and she just about to throw it all away. Throw it all away for a chance with Logan. The only problem now was whether Logan would want her.

Well, only time will tell.

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