And you had me fooled
By your veil of
trustworthiness
In your deepest eyes I
saw no lie
And in my aging mind I
knew you were true,
I knew it.
My deepest sorrow for
you.
On you I placed my
trust
Like the child that
unconditionally believes
I was fooled
And in my senile
naivety, I cannot deny
I believed.
You betrayed me, yet
It does not hurt me the
way I hurt myself
For no one can be
blamed but me
Me who placed my life
in the hands of someone I deeply loved,
Blindly trusted, and
now truly pity.
I have yet to ask
myself
How many times I looked
at you and smiled on the inside
How many times I asked
you favors and you obliged
Or why while I saw your
potential
I failed to notice you
could fire it back.
I look back and I know
why
I just wished I could
turn you into a father, a brother or a son
I only thought you
could be taught love
And fight for a cause
you would believe right.
And that, Severus, was
my ironclad excuse.