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aftermath of season 7

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There's always Aftermath

It had been several days since Detective Robert Goren had stepped foot in 1 Police Plaza. He e-mailed Captain Ross to let him know that he wouldn't be back for several days, he cc'd the e-mail to his Partner, Alexandra Eames. The e-mail was short and somewhat cold, after all, Ross suspected him of killing his own brother and revealed to his fellow officers that his biological father was the serial rapist murderer Mark Ford Brady. In a short period of time, Ross let the big cat out of the bag and tarnished Bobby's mother's memory for eternity.

The relationship between he and his partner had been tested time and time again, however, the past several months had been difficult to say the least. He truly needed his best friend but felt she wasn't emotionally available for him. Her gas tank of emotions for Robert Goren was on empty, he was like a Hummer, manly looking but a gas guzzler. He didn't know how to refill her tank. His brain was too weary to even think about her needs if she even cared to get their relationship back on track, it made him angry thinking about the work he would have to put into it to make it better again. He thought about Dec and the things he had said in the interrogation room, Eames didn't appreciate him either. So he thought.

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An e-mail is hard to read. A person's emotional state at the time is unreadable. If you want to get a point across or the fact that you're pissed, you can increase the font or make it bold use italics, but if you do none of those things and just write a short "this is what I'm going to do," e-mail, than the person reading it is at a loss as to your mental state. For a police officer, this can be very frustrating. A profiler for example, may be able to look at that e-mail and say "this person is a male between 35 and 45, he was an only child and had a very bad child hood." Goren could do that, Ross and Eames can't, especially since the e-mail came from Goren.

Eames knew that most of the coldness or lack of emotion in the e-mail was aimed towards Ross, but she also felt the pangs of guilt within herself for not showing her partner more understanding, more support through the crisis of his losses. She was one of them. She didn't want that, she felt he did. The partners were in crisis and she needed to fix it.

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He was so good at his job. He hated his job, the fact that evil existed in the world and that he knew how to find that evil and lock it away safe from hurting anything or anyone again. He hated that he knew, almost instinctively, how to do that. Humans don't have instincts only animals do. His biological father was an animal, so he must be part animal, he figures that's where he gets his instincts … he hates that. He remembers another conversation, this time with Jo, he could have gone the other way, like she did. He hates that, because he would have been damn good at that too. He hates that he knows that. He wonders if Eames knows that, if she believes that he could be an animal like his biological father. He really doesn't think so. He loves that. What he doesn't love about Eames is just about everything else. He will defend her, step in front of a bullet for her, beat the crap out of anybody that hurts her but like a little sister that gets on your last nerve, she's on his last nerve. He needs this separation from her. Their partnership is in crisis. He really hates that.

His emotional gas tank ran out sometime in 2000 and 6. Running on empty for two years and not having a reserve tank is dangerous to ones health. A man of Goren's size is deceiving, he looks strong and powerful, but mentally he's been hit by a Mack Truck. Mack Truck 1 : Goren 0. That score could be wrong … new Captain, Eames kidnapping, mother, nephew/suspended, forced undercover without partner, fight with partner, biological father, brother, fucked up mentor … rat in drawer. Mack Truck 10 : Goren 0.

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When Alex let her self into his apartment after ringing the doorbell over and over again, she found him lying on the floor in his living room. She came there to try to mend their friendship, she wanted her partner back … the way it was, but with crisis, there's aftermath. With an e-mail, it's hard to know if a person's emotional gas tank is on empty.

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TBC? let me know if I should!? Thanks for reading ... if you do! Judeey ;)