Heart Rate

"Bella you know that I love you, and I thought that you agreed that, that was enough for now?" I said lying on Bella's bed, with her in my arms.

"I did, I did, but graduation is only 2 weeks away, no one is going to notice if I miss 3 days, and by then I'll still make it to all of the graduation ceremonies. So, really, what's the difference?" Bella asked me for the fifth time that day.

"Because Bella, I promised that I would change you the night of your graduation, and I refuse to change you any sooner. Besides, now you have something to look forward at. And, finals start tomorrow, so there is no way that you're gonna miss those; at least not your first year of high school."

Bella escaped from my hold on her and sat up. At first she just sat there, with a look on her face as if she was concentrating on something very hard, and then she finally spoke up. "Edward, you said you were over 100 years old, so how many times have you actually gone to high school?"

"Oh, my silly Bella, I've totally lost count on how many times I've graduated. Just wait, my love, soon you will also be loosing count."

"Yes, I suppose I will, but for right now I just wish I could fast forward time," she said lying back down. I put my arm around my waist, and pulled her a little bit closer to me.

"Bella….since you are graduating in 2 weeks and by then you'll be changed, would you like to farther our boundary the slightest further?" By the time I had finished my question; her face was completely lit up.

"Edward, you know I would, but what are you going to do?" She had barely finished saying what she had started before I had my hands on either side of her face. First, I made a trail of kisses from her forehead, down her cheek, on her ear, I gave her a slight peck on the nose, and then I hit her lips. I kissed her with so much passion and love, and I could easily tell that it was returned quickly. Her heart rate was beginning to fasten just a little bit, but that was nothing as to what I knew would happen if I were to do what I planned to do next. I slightly parted my lips, and teased her with my tongue. Her heart rate skyrocketed, and then it slowly began to slow down, I mean way down. I broke our kiss to see Bella's eyes start to flutter.

"Bella, are you alright?" I asked her, carefully laying her head back down on the pillow.

"What, Edward, wow. You should have at least warned my on what you were going to do," she began to blush.

"Well, I shouldn't have been surprised. I mean you seriously did faint when I just kissed your lips," saying this only made her blush harder. "I really am going to miss that you know."

"Miss what? Me fainting, I highly doubt that one."

"Yeah, I'll miss that, but I love it when you blush, once you're changed I'll never get to see that again."

"Ha ha Edward. Just to let you know, I don't like blushing."

"Anyway, are you willing to try that again? Cause I certainly know that I am willing too."

"Yea, I think. And I'll try not to almost faint this time."

I placed my thumb under her chin, and lifted her face the rest of the way up to mine. Our tongues collided, and it took all of me not to bite her right there. Our tongues began to dance, but Bella's heartbeat had so far stayed normal. It all started out as one of our normal kisses, I could tell Bella was going to take this way to far. She wrapped one of her hands around my neck, and put the other one in my hair. So far, all things were still under control, but when I stuck my tongue into Bella's mouth, her heartbeat once again sped up. I slowly pulled my tongue back, and let go of Bella.

"Bella, damn it, you really need to control yourself. How do you expect me to keep a safe boundary if you just fling yourself at me like that? If for one second I loose control, Bella I could have bit you!" I slyly jumped off the bed, and was over standing next to her window. I wanted to yell, but was too afraid that I might wake Charlie up. God only knows what he would do to me, if he found out that I spent the night here almost every night.

"I'm sorry," tears were starting to fill her eyes.

"No, no, no, no. Bella, don't cry, I'm sorry; I shouldn't have went off on you like that," I slowly walked back over to her bed, and sat her up next to me. The tears in her eyes had multiplied and were now beginning to run down her cheeks. I hated seeing her like this, especially when I knew that I was the one that had caused the tears to fall. I wrapped my arms around her, and hugged her tightly.

"I love you, my Bella," I carefully whispered in her ear, I wiped the tears away from her cheeks, and laid my head against her chest. These were my two favorite sounds, calling Bella 'My Bella', and her heartbeat. I was sure to miss that one after her changing. I laid there for a few minutes, just thinking, when Bella slowly lifted my head back up to her level.

"I love you too," she yawned.

"I think that you've had enough excitement for one night. You need to sleep." She lay back down, but soon began to shiver. I got up just for a second, so I could pull the covers up over her. I quickly got back on the bed, and lay on top of the covers. I started to hum her lullaby, and Bella shortly fell asleep. I laid there for a few minutes thinking about what was really going to happen in two weeks. Bella was only thinking about the good things. Like how she would finally is one of my family, how she getting to spend eternity with me and my family, and a lot of talking was about how we could finally share ourselves with each other. She never talked about the worst part. Bella would have to suffer for three whole days before the transformation would be complete. She never thought about how we would have to move with us, because of what Jacob and his pack had warned us about. But, the worst part about it all would be her having to leave Charlie and Renee.

I had it all planned out, actually Alice and I had thought it up. Bella and I would leave for "college", we would go somewhere far away, Bella would have to attend for at least a week and then we would just say we were somewhere where either Charlie or Renee wouldn't bother about visiting, and then we would have to report Bella missing. She would never turn up, because she would move with my family and I. Alice and I had gone over the plan with the rest of my family, all of them agreeing that it would be the best thing to do. Even Rosalie, had began to realize that there was no way that I could ever leave Bella again, and she was slowly beginning to even like the idea of Bella being in our family. I would have to tell Bella about this tomorrow, it was Saturday, and we would go to the meadow so we could be at peace.

I got up off her bed, and jumped out of the window, landing swiftly on my feet. I ran home, to change into different clothes. I ran quickly, and was home in a few minutes. I was greeted my Esme as I walked over to the stairs.

"So, Edward did you tell her tonight, about your plan?" she looked at me lovingly only wishing that I would tell her soon.

"No, Esme, I intend on taking her to the meadow tomorrow, and telling her," Esme was the only one I had ever told about the meadow to. I could tell Carlisle, but I figured a mother would understand it somewhat better.

"It sounds like a very good idea, Edward. Just make sure she agrees with it completely before we rush into things."

"Yeah I plan to," I turned toward the stairs, and I quickly remember something. "Esme, I also plan on giving her this tomorrow." I pulled a red velvet box out of my pocket and handed it to her.

She gasped, which could only be a good sign. "Edward, it's beautiful, does her father know of this yet?"

"No, I want to see what she says about it first," I said as she handed me the box back, with a big smile on my face.

"Good luck my dear," she kissed my on the cheek.

"Thanks," I turned back around and ran up the stairs. I opened the door to my room, grabbed a clean pair of clothes, and headed across the hall to the bathroom. I turned the shower on, and quickly got rid of my clothes, and stepped in. I was more eager than ever to get back to Bella, only knowing that the sooner I was back, the sooner I would see her face again. I stood there, letting the hot water hit my cold body, but it hardly seemed to warm me up. I quickly got out, dried off, put my clothes on, and was out the door in a heartbeat, if I were to have one. I ran all the back to Bella's, jumped through her window, and laid back down where I had been before.

"Tomorrow, my Bella, we will began I new chapter of our lives together. You have no idea how much I wish that you would say 'yes" to my proposal," I softly whispered in her ear, and kissed her on the cheek.

Time passed by as I lay there until another morning came. Charlie's alarm clock went of at six o'clock; I nudged Bella awake.
"What do you want?" she said, her voice a little grungy.

"I'm gonna go ahead and leave, at least until Charlie is gone. Don't worry, I'll be back soon." As I got up, I made sure that the ring was still in my pocket, and before jumping out of her window, I waved good-bye.