Love is an Army

Author's note: And here we have another songfic from LeAnn Rimes' Twisted Angel CD.  Here's Bakura's letter to Ryou, done too Love is an Army by LeAnn Rimes.

Disclaimer:  I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh, I don't own the song.  I have a copy of the Twisted Angel CD, but the copy write belongs to someone else.  Got it?  Good. XD

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Bakura's POV:

*Fear is any army
Fighting against me
Fighting a lost cause
If I could only change their uniform
They'd be soldiers of love
Marching on and on*

Two chess pieces, one ivory white, one ebony black.  Black like my heart, knocked askew like my soul.  You showed me this game long ago, before you knew what I was, before I began to destroy you, love you.

*Love is any army
Waiting for me
Waiting for this girl
If I could only stretch my arms around you
I'd suddenly see
There ain't nothin' wrong with me
Hear*

A simple game, a war between friends, that's what this game is, no matter what innocent term's you've told.  A war between friends, ha, isn't that how it is?  But not as you think, for the winner of this game has been determined.  It is the dark piece that has fallen, not the light.  That single carved figure of glistening pure white, pure like your soul, it's that piece that stands firm.

*Words fly out
The roof of my mouth
They found a flaw
In my armor
Heart so still
Your beating will
Heal the wars I remember,
remember*

No, I am the one who has fallen, fallen to my own arrogance, my own deceit, my own hatred.  And it was you who suffered for it. 

It's hopeless now; this war can never be erased.  I can never change what I've done, and though your trusting soul may forgive me, I can never forgive myself.  If only I could tell you, if only I could turn back the gilded hands of cursed time and save you from your pain, save you from me.  

*Blue is the ocean
Calling me in
Calling me near
If I could only learn
To breathe down here
I know I would be
At home under the sea
Yeah*

If only I could tell you the truth.  I don't hate you my innocent little light, I love more than love can express, more than I have the courage to say.  Yes, it's true, I know it now.  You were always the strong one, my hikari.  It was me, this foolish stealer of souls, who was the true failure. 

I remember a day, a few months ago.  You were walking along the beach, staring into the iridescent waves.  They were mesmerizing, the light glinting off blues and greens and grays.  I remember your eyes that day, so sad and full of longing.  I could have drowned in their chocolate depths.  They drew me in like an entrancing snare that had caught a buzzing fly.

*Words fly out
The roof of my mouth
They found a flaw
In my armor
Heart so still
Your beating will
Heal the wars I remember,
remember*

If I could only tell you, my beautiful light.  I have never been emotional, nor gentle, nor kind.  It is not in my nature, I can't survive like that, like you.  Please believe I don't mean what I tell you, the jibes I throw.  Forgive… no, I can't ask that of you, my hikari, I don't deserve it. 

At one time I did hate you.  I loathed you, my innocent, naïve, gentle, weak hikari.  I hated you until I saw the strength of your soul.  A soul that endured no matter what pain I caused it.  And then I began to fear you, to loath you further.  I feared the strength in you, the strength I couldn't understand. 

*I'll bend my sword
Against the world
I'll push on through
In spite of you*

I can't ask you to forgive me, I can't ask you to accept me, and I can't hope for you to love me, but please, my hikari, let me tell you the truth.  Let me resurrect this broken chess piece and start this game again. 

I can't ask you to forgive me, I can endure, I can survive.  But please believe, my hikari, I will always love you, and this, my last letter to you, is my only way to tell.  Goodbye, my light, and be well.  You were never weak, it was me all along.

~ Bakura.

*Love is an army
Waiting for me
Waiting for this girl*

I stood gripping the letter, my eyes closed tight.  My jacket hung on the chair beside me, ready for me to leave.  I sighed, fighting back a tear that had somehow worked it's way into my cruel eyes, and set the letter down on the kitchen counter, where I was sure Ryou would find it.  With one last glance back, I swung my jacket over my shoulder and walked out the door, into the gray cast sky.

"Good bye, my Ryou"

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Author's note: *sniff*  That was sad!!  Anyway, please read and review and tell me if you like it.  If enough people are interested, I am thinking about writing a sequel about when Ryou comes home and finds the letter, tell me if you want one ^_~

-Cat