Alone forever?
For as long as I can remember, I've isolated myself from almost all other human beings, just as many of them have all alienated themselves from me. And yet that's never affected me before, I've learned to accept it. So when someone acts kindly to me, I do not know how to react. Just like when he started to become my friend.
It's strange the way Ikari can make me feel. I feel a close bond to Ikari, it's as if there is a need within me to be there to protect him. Protect him from what I do not know, but somehow I feel it's my duty to protect him. And when Ikari is safe, I feel at ease.
I don't understand I've always believed that I need no one. I can take care of myself, but now I begin to question myself. Do I want to be isolated from everyone forever? Can I really be alone forever without the assistance of others? Do I want to be lonely forever?
*Flashback*
I felt my body slid off the stretcher as the roof collapsed down. The pain in my back caused me to gasp and at that very second I thought everything was going to end. But just then I felt a pair of arms wrap themselves around my back and I could feel someone's touch on the wounds on my body. Through the pain I opened my eyes just enough to see a young boy holding me. It was him, the soon to become third child.
*End of Flashback*
I guess not.
But Ikari is the first to really care about me, to treat me as a human being and not a doll like the second child does. I believe that at first he too was afraid of me, of my personality. But he tried to reach out to me like no other. And he is the second person to have changed me.
*Flashback*
Pulling myself up I watched as Ikari sobbed, his head bent down. "I'm very sorry, I don't know what I should feel or do at a time like this." "Why don't you just try smiling?" My head turned in surprise and I stared at the first child, an encouraging smile spread across his lips, yet tears were forming in his eyes at the same time. Before I knew what was happening, my own lips curved upwards and formed a smile.
*End of Flashback*
I've never smiled before I've never had a need to smile in my life before but when Ikari told me to smile, I did and it was like I had developed a new emotion. You smile when you happy am I right? Then was I happy because I was with Ikari?
How is it that being with Ikari can make me feel that way?
I feel confused, yet belonging in this world when I am with him. He is the second person to have ever cared for me. First it was his father and now, it is Ikari himself.
******************* Hey ppls! Another Evangelion fic of mine. It was something that I just wrote up quite quickly so I'd love reviews to let me know how I went. ^^
For as long as I can remember, I've isolated myself from almost all other human beings, just as many of them have all alienated themselves from me. And yet that's never affected me before, I've learned to accept it. So when someone acts kindly to me, I do not know how to react. Just like when he started to become my friend.
It's strange the way Ikari can make me feel. I feel a close bond to Ikari, it's as if there is a need within me to be there to protect him. Protect him from what I do not know, but somehow I feel it's my duty to protect him. And when Ikari is safe, I feel at ease.
I don't understand I've always believed that I need no one. I can take care of myself, but now I begin to question myself. Do I want to be isolated from everyone forever? Can I really be alone forever without the assistance of others? Do I want to be lonely forever?
*Flashback*
I felt my body slid off the stretcher as the roof collapsed down. The pain in my back caused me to gasp and at that very second I thought everything was going to end. But just then I felt a pair of arms wrap themselves around my back and I could feel someone's touch on the wounds on my body. Through the pain I opened my eyes just enough to see a young boy holding me. It was him, the soon to become third child.
*End of Flashback*
I guess not.
But Ikari is the first to really care about me, to treat me as a human being and not a doll like the second child does. I believe that at first he too was afraid of me, of my personality. But he tried to reach out to me like no other. And he is the second person to have changed me.
*Flashback*
Pulling myself up I watched as Ikari sobbed, his head bent down. "I'm very sorry, I don't know what I should feel or do at a time like this." "Why don't you just try smiling?" My head turned in surprise and I stared at the first child, an encouraging smile spread across his lips, yet tears were forming in his eyes at the same time. Before I knew what was happening, my own lips curved upwards and formed a smile.
*End of Flashback*
I've never smiled before I've never had a need to smile in my life before but when Ikari told me to smile, I did and it was like I had developed a new emotion. You smile when you happy am I right? Then was I happy because I was with Ikari?
How is it that being with Ikari can make me feel that way?
I feel confused, yet belonging in this world when I am with him. He is the second person to have ever cared for me. First it was his father and now, it is Ikari himself.
******************* Hey ppls! Another Evangelion fic of mine. It was something that I just wrote up quite quickly so I'd love reviews to let me know how I went. ^^