Heart Flutter
Do you know what it means
When I act this way
Blush at every word you say
Maybe I should give you a clue
I'm hair twirling, lips curling
Heart flutter, words stutter
Head over heels in love with you
Chapter 1: Blushing.
Emily couldn't pinpoint how it happened or even when, but she had fallen for her best friend, Spencer Hastings. At this point she should know better, and she shouldn't be so reckless with her heart.
Her love life had never been ideal. She thought she was into boys, but then Alison had kissed her, and she wasn't sure about it anymore. She had fallen for her best friend back then too, but then Alison had disappeared, and a year later they had found her body. It had scarred Emily.
Her first real romance with a girl had been with Maya, a girl who had moved into Alison's old house. They had been on/off, mostly because Maya was send to True North, but then she came back, and they had rekindled their romance. A bunch of unnecessary things drove them apart again, but in Emily's heart they were still together. It happened again, though. On the night when they discovered who A was, and they had thought they were finally free, a body was found. Maya's.
It shook her up even further, but she found romance again. Her name was Paige McCullers, and once Paige had finally accepted who she was it was great. The only problem was that Paige could be unstable, but Emily kept overlooking that fact because there was no doubt in her heart that Paige loved her. She was there for her, and then for whatever reason Paige had suddenly dumped her.
Emily had had her fair share of bruises when it came to love, and she was scared to love again, but she hadn't been able to help it when it came to Spencer. Spencer was a girl with balls, exactly Emily's type. She was also protective of Emily in a way the swimmer could only adore.
Emily just didn't know how or when it had happened. It had just happened. It always just happened. Whenever Emily fell for someone she never saw it coming, but she was always someone to follow her heart. She could seem nervous and pretty flustered at time, but when it came to following her heart she was very confident. When it came to admitting her feelings, not so much.
Her heart had belonged to Spencer for so long now. She still didn't know when, but she was sure it happened around the time they found out that Toby was on the A team. Since then they hadn't had any new messages from A, thank God. There was only the downfall of it that now Emily would always be friendzoned to Spencer.
Everybody had been there for Spencer when they found out that Toby was A, more so than when they found out it was Mona. Toby had been Spencer's first big love, the guy she lost her virginity to, and now he would always be remembered as the guy Spencer had lost everything to. Emily had been there for her the most, and Spencer was slowly healing now, but that also meant that sooner or later she would be dating again. Emily hated that.
"Emily?" Spencer said, ripping Emily out of her thoughts and back to reality. They were walking home from school alone together. Hanna was with Caleb at rehab, and Aria had gone straight to Ezra's to try and repair the threads of her relationship to him. Spencer had a slightly concerned look on her face, but then Emily smiled, and it disappeared. "Do you want to get some frozen yogurt?"
"Uhm... I d-don't, uhm know." Emily said, and she could feel herself turning red. She always blushed whenever Spencer spoke to her, but because of Emily's character Spencer never seemed to notice.
"I think you want some frozen yogurt!" Spencer smiled at Emily, a smile the svimmer loved so much. Spencer began walking towards the frozen yogurt shop, and a completely blushed out Emily forgot to follow. Spencer turned around, still smiling that gorgeous smile of hers. "What kind of flavor?"
Emily shrugged. Ever since she had realized her true feelings for her fierce best friend she always seemed to lack words, but however always seemed to blush whenever Spencer spoke to her.
"I'll surprise you." Spencer said, and then she turned around and walked into the shop to get the frozen yogurts for them.
It surprised Emily that Spencer hadn't caught on yet. Whenever Spencer said something she blushed, and she acted like she always did whenever she was secretly, madly in love with someone, and Spencer always noticed Emily's signs when she was in love with someone else, but now that Emily was in love with her she noticed nothing.
It was just the same anyways. Spencer was straight and would never love her, she knew that perfectly well. Her heart couldn't help it, though. It fluttered like crazy whenever Spencer was near her, and she always seemed to stutter half her words. She smiled like a goofball whenever Spencer would look at her, even briefly. She also seemed to twirl her hair a lot while tilting her head slightly to the side. She hadn't been twirling her hair in like forever, not since her pre-teens when she would majorly crush on a boy, and it couldn't be that attractive, could it?
It was always those thoughts, but then Spencer came around, and she thought she had to look cute, and on with the hair twirling again. She couldn't help it, and she wished she could just scream to Spencer how she felt, but Spencer would never feel the same. She had been there before with Alison.
A bell rang, and Spencer came out from the shop with a frozen yogurt cup in each hand. She approached Emily and handed her one of them with a smile. Emily told herself that the smile was just for her, but who was she kidding?
"Here you go." Spencer said as she handed Emily the frozen yogurt. "You look like a blueberry kind of girl."
Emily blushed again. "It's my favorite. How did you know?" Emily asked while thinking to herself; she's your best friend, duh. She still felt flattered, though.
"Are you sure you're okay?" Spencer questioned, licking her spoon for yogurt. So she did notice that Emily was acting differently, but she still didn't have clue. She was a little concerned, surely Emily would tell if something majorly was wrong?
"Y-yeah." Emily reached for her hair and began twirling it again. How could she act so twitchy, and Spencer not notice? "I-I'm just, uhm, uh... yeah."
Spencer chuckled with that adorable laugh of hers, and then she licked her spoon again. "I get it. You haven't gone back to normal Emily-mode after that killer history class, huh?"
Emily reached for a lock of hair and began twirling, blushing yet again while she nodded. Why? Spencer was talking about history class. You shouldn't blush at that, but Emily was just so helplessly head over heels in love with her best friend. She was acting so nervous and twitchy whenever Spencer was around, and she had even forgotten about the frozen yogurt Spencer had gotten for her.
"I get it. Mr. Matthews can be tough." Spencer said, looking sympathetically at Emily. She shoved another spoon of yogurt into her mouth, and it travelled down her hand onto her wrist because it had begun melting. She licked the yogurt off her wrist, and Emily's heart pounded a million beats. Spencer looked at Emily who hadn't touched her melting yogurt yet. "You better start eating that. It's melting."
"Y-yeah!" Emily said, hating herself a little because everything out of her mouth was something lame. She hated what her love for Spencer did to her, and how she couldn't do anything about it.
Emily finally took her spoon out of the cup and began eating her less frozen yogurt. A silence fell upon them while they ate their yogurt, and Emily stole a couple of loving glances at Spencer without the smart girl noticing.
It was a nice afternoon, and Emily loved every second of it even with all the lame things she couldn't get out right. It was just her and Spencer, and she loved that. She loved her other friends too, but she was in love with Spencer and treassured every moment she had alone with her.
Spencer finished her yogurt first and tossed the empty cup in a trashcan, and then she just stood there smiling at her best friend. Emily was careful no matter what she did, and Spencer admired that quality, and she kind of enjoyed being just them. It was quieter and more comfortable, and there were no weird remarks from Hanna. It was nice.
Emily had barely finished her yogurt when an annoying beep sounded. Then it came again and again. What the hell? Spencer dug into her pocket and pulled out a pager, sending Emily an apologetic look.
"I gotta go. Sorry." She said, and the disappointment was so clear in Emily's eyes, and Spencer felt bad, but she really did have to go. "Ever since the Toby thing my parents want me to see a shrink a couple of times a week to make sure I'm okay, and it's been really helpful. I have to go."
Emily nodded, wanting so bad to just blurt out how she felt about her best friend. That would get her to forget about the shrink, and she would have to stay to sort things out, but instead Emily let her go because she did understand.
Spencer walked away, and Emily's heart broke a little when she watched her do it. It had been one more day that she hadn't had the guts to tell her best friend how she felt.
"I'm hair twirling, lips curling, heart flutter, words stutter, head over heels in love with you." Emily said out loud to herself when Spencer was out of sight. She had said it now, just not to Spencer.
She turned around and walked home, feeling half-hearted that her feelings were still secret.
Heart Flutter
Disclaimer; I don't own Pretty Little Liars, although I technically do :b. I have season 1 on dvd, patiently waiting for season 2 to be released in Denmark. I own the song Heart Flutter, though. It was written by me after all.
Ta-dam :) . First chapter of Heart Flutter. It was short, but it was just to introduce it. The other chapters might be longer, it depends. It has to flow. This fic is based on a song I've written called Heart Flutter. It is a Spemily fic (if you haven't already noticed) to honor one of my best friends, who is crazy about Spemily. I like to tease her that it's never gonna happen, but I have to agree with her that if Emily were to fall for anyone of the Liars it would probably be Spencer. Therefore this fic where Emily is hopelessly in love with Spencer, and she will eventually find the courage to admit it to Spencer, and then we take it from there. Spencer's reaction is secretly locked away in my brain ;).
Anyways, I hope you enjoyed the first chapter of Heart Flutter, and if you did I hope you review. Even if you didn't ;) . I want to know exactly what you think, and what you hope to happen. Each chapter will be based on the verses of the song, and it's a song without a real chorus so there should be enough. Again; I hope you enjoyed this, and please review :).
Laters,
AK-tutti :)