Secret of the Rising Sun

Chapter One - Scroll of the Rising Sun

Loud shouting can be heard even from two rooms away from Pein's office. The leader was most definitely pissed off at whatever that's happening inside the room. A low thud sounded when something dull hit the door, followed by shout of "get out!". The door shot open swiftly and out came the infamous zombie pair of the Akatsuki.

"It's all your fucking fault!" Hidan exclaimed the instant he had shut the door behind him. "Your fucking fault that the scroll is stolen before we got there!" He yelled, poking his finger at the side of the already annoyed Kakuzu.

Kakuzu glared his christmas colored eyes at the Jashinist, but said nothing. From where he was observing the entire ordeal, he wasn't sure and assumed the miser had used all his willpower to control his angry outburst. The two continued on down the hallway and headed back to their room, creating a ruckus while they're at it.

Tobi blinked in confusion, despite being relatively good at eavesdropping, he had only caught bits and pieces of the conversation from his position besides the office door. He leaned back against the wall and crossed his arms, looking things to occupy himself besides waiting for his turn to enter the room of the doom. He and Deidara had been summoned by Konan, saying that Pein needed them at his office as soon as possible. When they had arrived, the door was locked so they waited outside instead.

"Get in." Pein called through the door loudly, waiting patiently -or impatiently, it's always hard to tell when the room is so dark- at his desk with a newly written scroll placed neatly on the middle of his desk. Tobi glanced at Deidara, who had been silent all this time, and entered the room, leaving the door open for the other to enter and close behind. He headed to the desk and stood a few paces in front of it, standing silently and watched the shadowy figure seated behind said desk. He sensed Deidara move and stood besides him, or well, a few paces next to him. The blonde still thinks he was annoying and has yet to trust him fully. Or at least that's what he thinks. He never really asked what Deidara thinks of him honestly, but he's got a pretty good idea. The blonde has been acting strangely though, staying a certain amount of paces away from him, light on his toes and heavy on his guard. It's as if Tobi had offended Deidara in a way and caused this strange isolation, but no matter how hard he thinks and recalls, he had never done anything so serious that caused him to deserve the cold shoulder.

He huffed softly and stole a glance at the blonde. He was focused on whatever Pein was going to say, and his gaze was kept on the red scroll with gold imprinting. Tobi looked at the scroll himself, noticing how royal it is. Gold is only for members of the royal family, and currently, only the Emperor has the right to use such color combinations.

"I want you to read through this scroll." Pein finally said, pushing the scroll and letting it roll across the table and Tobi caught it by instinct. That action must've scared Deidara because the blonde jumped when Tobi leaned forward to stop the scroll from rolling onto the floor. He glanced at the blonde and bowed his head apologetically, standing back up straight while doing so. He lifted up the scroll so he could see it more clearly at the dim lighting. The swirly golden lines formed images of flowers and eventually a dragon. The original kamon had been removed, in it's place is a newly sewed kanji of "shark". The lines weren't gold, but yellow is a close enough replacement. Tobi showed it to Deidara, and they both raised an eyebrow and looked at Pein for an explanation. "It wasn't Kisame. He is on a mission with Itachi at the Mist, which is far away the location of Kakazu and Hidan's mission."

Tobi and Deidara looked at each other, the latter shrugging and motioned for Tobi to open the scroll. The masked nin stared down at the already broken seal and simply slid his finger under the slit, hooking the page and stared to unroll it.

Almost instantly, Tobi and Deidara noticed the neatly written words on the otherwise blank scroll. It read:

"For the members of the Akatsuki that had been ordered to retrieve the scroll of your secrets: your scroll has been stolen upon request of our queen, Tatsumaki-sama. Like we predicted, the scroll is coded and will take a while to decode. Within this time period, our queen had set up a challenge for you. If you can retrieve the scroll before we can decode it, you are welcomed to take it back to your base. However, if you do not, the scroll and all it's secrets will remain with us, and we hold no responsibility to the damages done by spreading all its knowledge.

"Send two of your members to the land of Akane and search for us there. The land is only reachable via sea vessel and any flying objects located above the land will be shot down without hesitation. With best luck, Hosokawa Koketsu and Hosokawa Usagi."

Pein began grumbling, catching the two members' immediate attention. The redhead made a grab at the other scroll and threw it to Tobi, who caught it with his other hand. "Head out now." He roared, sending Tobi and Deidara hurrying out the door. The red scroll flapped behind them, as they had left in too much of a hurry to re-roll it properly. They stopped in front of their room, heading inside and grabbing all the necessary things for their mission. Deidara grabbed his two clay pouches and one small one for spare. Tobi rolled up the scroll and stuffed it inside the pocket of his cloak, alongside with the other scroll Pein had threw at him and double checked his weapons pack. He also picked up their two packs and stuffed them with food and drinks, in case they were in need of a meal during their trip and couldn't find any pitstops for food. He also placed in a spare pair of clothes; he knew Deidara wouldn't change into them, but he still packed it in because Konan might pop out of nowhere and scold them both. Especially the masked nin... They aren't in the best of terms currently... Tobi noticed the two strings of coins resting on his nightstand and grabbed them too, they would need the currency.

Once they were ready, the two headed out the Akatsuki hideout before Pein can catch them and yell at them for not having headed out yet. Konan did indeed pop out of nowhere, and left them with a blessing and a hug for Deidara. Tobi shook his head silently, how embarrassing it must be for the blonde, having to endure the over-motherly affection. Sure, the blonde might not have had a mother figure in his life, but still, the man was nineteen years old. They stepped out of the cave and into the dense forest that the Akatsuki hideout was located at. Tobi glanced to his side when he heard a few birds flutter away, causing the leaves to shiver.

"So... What's the plan?" Tobi tilted his head, looking back at Deidara and poking the blonde's cheek. He felt Deidara tense up and he instantly let his hand fall back at his side, not wanting to get a face full of clay bombs; he didn't want to waste Deidara's clay anyway, the mission seemed like it would take a while.

Deidara gritted his teeth, annoyed that Tobi tried to touch him. He shook it off and dug his hands into his open clay pouch. "We'll fly to the nearest harbour, then go and find a vessel headed for Akane, or near it, hmm." He muttered, not even understanding why he would bother and explain this to the idiot of a partner he had; he'll just ask again 5 minutes later! He grunted and began molding the piece of clay resting in his palm. "When we're near the land, we'll steal a small row boat and row to Akane if the ship isn't heading to Akane."

Tobi nodded, not really sure how Deidara came up with that idea in such a short time. Maybe he shouldn't underestimate the blonde anymore! He waited until the clay bird was fully formed before clambering ungracefully on top of the creation, getting a small snicker from the blonde. How rude.

The trip to the nearest harbour was at least a few hours long, the hideout was located in a forest so dense that no one dared to venture into. And thus, they were far away from civilization. Even a walk to the nearest village took at least three hours. Tobi pulled out some onigiri that he had packed into his pack when he heard Deidara's stomach rumble with hunger. "Here, senpai, you can eat it." He said, nudging the blonde against the shoulder with the back of his hand. He saw Deidara's fist clench, and got ready for a punch, but the blonde accepted the rice sandwich without any violence. Tobi smiled softly behind his mask and tucked his gloved hands into the meeting of his crossed legs, letting the wind blow his hair at all directions.

They landed when they saw the sea near the horizon, the sun was already on top of their heads. They would walk the rest of the way; people would be wary of a giant white bird with lifeless eyes carrying two people land on the wet wooden deck of the harbour. Tobi stood besides Deidara, acting as if he was distracted by a squirrel on a tree branch munching on some nuts. He let his mind wonder on other things, wondering how the information of the Akatsuki got out anyway. He should consult Zetsu about this, being the spy of the organization, he should know about it if some spy activity has been spotted around base. The masked ninja was so into his thoughts he didn't notice Deidara moving on. He had only ever gotten actually distracted for a few times before. Tobi hurried to follow his young senpai and quickly fell back into pace. He kept a few paces behind the blonde, letting him have a little 'upper hand' at things. He knew about how Sasori treated the younger, so maybe he would do some nice things to the blonde for a change. He stretched while he walked, looking around the scenery. He wasn't actually admiring the lovely green environment, he was just looking for some spies or ANBU.

The walk was very peaceful, nothing attacked them or surprised them. The two passed a nice elderly tea merchant during the small walk, it was very obvious the man was deaf. The elderly man also didn't seem to notice Tobi and Deidara walking by. Tobi sniffed, slipping a gloved hand through his mask and rubbed his nose. He never liked the smell of the sea. Tobi let Deidara lead him, walking around and glancing at the location paper of a ship. Tobi also eavesdropped on other seamen's conversations to know which vessel is set out for Akane or anything near it.

It took a while, but they finally found a good sized ship that was heading near the land of Akane. They made sure the ship had spare row boats before heading to ask the captain if he could give them a ride. The captain, a man in his late 20s with broad shoulders and a square chin, shook his head, pretending to be sorry that he couldn't invite the two members into the ship. He smacked his lips and looked at the blonde suggestively, the look in his eyes told everything to Tobi. It wasn't the first time he had seen people mistake Deidara for female, and he finds them very stupid because Deidara doesn't seem like a female to him. Sure the blonde had long feminine hair, beautiful blue eyes and the skin that had the perfect amount of kisses from the sun; but that doesn't make the artist less male. Tobi cleared his throat to make his presence be known, he felt the captain's angered glare. The masked nin dug his hands into his pack and pulled out a string of coins, he took out six pieces and held them out to the captain. The man raised an eyebrow at the solid golden coins, his chocolate brown eyes shown with greed. It seemed cleared to Tobi that the man wanted both Deidara and the coins. But not if he had anything to say about it. Tobi glared at him with his red gaze and the captain instantly backed down, pocketing the coins and heading back on deck, waving to his crew that there would be two people joining them.

Tobi glanced at Deidara, wondering what he would say after he had just saved him from being raped by the captain. He was disappointed when the blonde only shoved past him and headed up to the ship. He sighed and turned, following the blonde onto the deck. He saw the blonde sitting besides the railing, only now noticing the ship wasn't for any passengers. He moved around the crates of goods and settled down besides the blonde, placing his pack besides him. He looked over at the blonde, noticing how his arms are crossed and his gaze was set upon a random crack on the wet wooden deck. Tobi huffed and reached into his cloak, grabbing at the scroll Pein had thrown at him. He pulled it out and unrolled it, reading the contents. That seemed to catch Deidara's attention because the blonde looked over when he took out the scroll. Maybe the blue eyed teen wants to keep his mind off of the captain.

Tobi got bored quickly when the contents of the scroll just turned out to be details of the mission and the map of the land. He was sure that Pein would've talked about the details instead of writing it neatly on a scroll if he wasn't so pissed off at Kakuzu and Hidan's failure. He handed the scroll over to the blonde, for him to memorize the map or something. He reached into his pack and pulled out a leaf wrapped dango, there wasn't any other way to keep the food separated other than the bamboo container for rice. Tobi looked away and pulled his mask up, eating the stick of sweet dumpling. He sighed contently and placed the stick back into his pack. As a ninja, he knew how to use anything and turn them into a deadly weapon, so a normal stick like that could be life saving sometime.

The masked ninja leaned back against the wooden railing and sighed again, looking up at the darkening sky. The ship creaked and rocked, pulling away from the harbour. He watched as land slowly but surely disappeared into the horizon, the sea and the sky merging to become one dark blue mass. The rocking of the ship was becoming almost sickening for the raven, he had to close his eyes and rest them or else he'd empty his stomach of his pervious meals. He needed to find his sea legs soon, or else he would suffer through out the kami knows long trip. His eyes blinked open when he felt someone lean against him. He tried to look down but was only greeted with a mop of golden hair. Tobi blinked in confusion and he nudged the blonde, thinking he had fallen asleep on him; but the response he got was only a deeper nuzzle, and a jab in between the rib.

Tobi saw it almost instantly: the captain was watching from his spot of controlling the ship. Deidara was telling him to continue protecting him, even if it meant to get comfortable with him. The masked nin laughed inwardly, why didn't Deidara just protect himself? He always says that when Tobi tries to protect the blonde from rogues and bandits. "I don't need your protection, hm!" He'd say, "I am old enough to protect myself! I know how to protect myself, maybe you should go and learn how to protect your head before you go and join some organization!"

Tobi frowned a bit at the ending part, even his own mind was being mean to the persona. Granted that Deidara did say that once, during another mission a few weeks back. The blonde seemed to have regretted that the words had escaped his mouth in the first place after he had said it, but it didn't matter, even Tobi hated himself sometimes. Tobi moved to wrap an arm around the blonde, but he was treading on some mighty thin ice when he did. Deidara jabbed him harder between his ribs and Tobi let out a groan, managing a small laugh to shrug it off. The blonde seemed to have viewed the laugh as a challenge since he continued jabbing, with each one harder than the pervious. Tobi let out a small grunt of submission, moving to remove his arm from Deidara's waist. But Deidara only smiled softly and rested back comfortably on Tobi's strong chest, silently breathing in Tobi's scent.

`55

The moon was almost setting when the landmark of Akane showed up through the fog. The captain ordered the crew to rest there and get some sleep before setting out again. They couldn't rest in the middle of a vast ocean in case some current caused them to drift off into the unknown when half the crew members were asleep.

"Lower the sails!" The captain's voice boomed aloud through the silent night, waking Tobi from his slumber. He looked around, too drowsy from sleep to realize what was going on. He yawned and stretched to the best of his ability of a sleeping blonde laying on his chest. Tobi looked up and the torii from high on a nearby mountain caught his eye, he understood what it meant -not it's literal meaning of it's presence signalling a temple- that the land of Akane was near. He sat up, groaning when his back complained. He reached down and grabbed hold of Deidara's shoulders, shaking the blonde. "Wake up, it's time to go." He muttered, watching the crew members scramble around to lower the large canvas to catch the wind. He waited until Deidara stirred from his sleep before standing up, ignoring the groan of disappointment from the blonde.

He stood up and stretched properly, it was too early for him to actually do anything productive or effective. He bent back down and grabbed his pack, placing it over his shoulder and glanced over the crates on the deck. He kneeled down and helped the blonde, who was still dozing off. They had been through nights were they never got any sleep, but when you're allowed to sleep and then rudely awoken to get going again, is the worst. He picked up the blonde's light brown pack and placed it over his shoulder as well, struggling slightly as the combined weight has caught him off guard. How can rice, water and clothes be this heavy?!

Tobi waited slightly and regained his balance before bending down again and picking up the blonde bridal style. He grunted again and sighed, "please wake up soon." He muttered, feeling his sleeping muscles complaining about the added weights. He padded over to the other side of the sea vessel slowly, stopping once and a while when the rock of the ship proved too much to handle. He got to the side of the ship eventually, placing the blonde down against the wooden railing. "Wake up." He grunted, shaking the blonde; he won't be able to pull down a row boat without alerting the crew members, even though it seemed very obvious they seemed very preoccupied with being confused over lowering the sails and helping the captain manoeuvre through the thick fog and to the nearest bank to park.

Tobi received no reaction and response from the blonde, even though he knew Deidara can hear him. "I said wake up." He said again, louder and sterner. Deidara was testing him patience. Tobi stood up straight and grabbed a wet towel nearby. He hovered the towel over Deidara's head and twisted, a spray of cold water dripped from the towel and landed on Deidara's head. The blonde instantly sat up and began shouting at Tobi.

"What the actual fuck?!" He shouted, reaching up and running a head through his now-wet hair. "You knew I could hear you, hm! Why didn't you gave me five more fucking seconds?!" Deidara continued to yell, slapping Tobi's gloved hands away. Even with his loud yelling, non of the crew members seem to notice. Tobi blinked at the swearing, Deidara doesn't usually swear, even if he's throughly pissed off. Maybe he didn't like it when someone messes with his gorgeous hair.

"The boat will be resting near a bank soon, we need to get off now." Tobi replied, tossing the half dried towel away somewhere. He handed Deidara his pack.

"We could've waited until the ship is at rest near the bank, un." Deidara retorted, snatching the bag away from Tobi and flung it over his shoulders.

"They would take turns in patrolling the deck. They'd notice us." Tobi tried to reason with him, he didn't want to drag this any longer, one of the crew members will soon realize what they are doing and stop them.

Deidara looked around the busy deck of half sleeping, half awake seamen. "You think they'd actually keep up their word to the captain and patrol the deck when they could get some precious sleep, yeah? The sleep that I can't have, hm?" He replied, standing up and crossing his arms. Tobi knew the blonde was trying his best at looking down on him, but the height advantage said otherwise.

"It's a risk I'm not willing to take, senpai. Please, just get on the row boat and then you can scold me all you want." Tobi replied, already undoing the ropes that tied the row boat to the main vessel. He held the rope so the row boat won't drop down straight to the sea. "Get in please." He muttered softly, the weight of the boat began straining his sore muscles.

Deidara glanced at him, something flooded beneath his beautiful blue eyes, but Tobi was too busy keeping an eye on the crew members and also straining his sleeping muscles to keep the boat level with the railing, to notice what it really was. He gritted his teeth in effort when Deidara climbed in, adding to the weight. He let out a hiss through his teeth and stepped forward, pulling the rope and wrapping it around the railing. He tugged at it to make sure it'll hold and tied a not. Tobi only let go when he was sure the not was tight enough to hold after he got into the row boat with Deidara. The masked nin let out a huff and hopped over the railing after rebalancing the pack over his shoulder, landing onto the boat. He winced when the boat creaked and the rope gave out a low screech, but he sat down quickly and pulled out a kunai. "Get ready." He muttered to Deidara and sliced through the rope with the knife in one swift motion.

The boat plummeted down to the dark sea below, emitted a loud smack and Tobi noticed that the impact knocked the air out of Deidara's lungs. He held back a chuckle and picked up both paddles, placing them on the water and began paddling towards Akane, away from the ship.

`55

Dawn has already broken by the time hey arrived to the harbour. Tobi rested the boat in a cavern behind the deck, hidden from view and steadied the boat for Deidara to climb up. He waited until Deidara was sure no one noticed them before climbing up with ease, as if he had done it a thousand times. He looked around and was suprised at how populated the land was. It was an entire city! He scanned around and noticed there was a lot of mountains; Akane was just simply a clot of little islands.

"Okay." Tobi cleared his throat, catching Deidara's attention. He was tired; his arms ached and his eyes feel like they're on fire. He was sure Deidara felt sore because he fell asleep on a rocky, hard and uncomfortable row boat, which knocks the blonde's head against hard oak wood each time a wave passes through. "Should we get some rest first? To fill our stomachs and read the mission details?" He suggested, his throat hurt from using the high pitched Tobi voice. His throat feel a bit perched too; he didn't get to stop his arms during the row boat trip to get a drink.

Deidara nodded in agreement and began heading into the city to find an inn. Tobi followed him silently and rubbed the sore muscles of his arm. He looked up as he walked, noticing the tall buildings and rope bridges connecting them to each one. He watched as the bridges creak but still remain intact as people walked on them to get to the other side. Scratching his head, he hurried his footsteps to catch up to Deidara, since he had lagged behind from being distracted with the city's builds.

He had never went to places this crowded; the hidden villages pale in comparison to this city. Everywhere he looked was filled with people. Tobi noticed an inn at the corner of his eye, he grabbed Deidara's shoulder, receiving a few insults and death threats as he guided the blonde to the inn.

"Mugetsu City Inn"

Tobi glanced at the inn name, taking note that the city they were in was called Mugetsu. He headed inside and was greeted by the fresh scent of rice, wine and wood. Deidara broke away from Tobi's grip and headed to sit down with his legs crossed on one of the empty tables, leaning on it with his elbows as he sighed, the cushion giving great pleasure to his sore legs. The worn table let out a creak, but it didn't collapse. Tobi glanced at the blonde in annoyance, but remembered that he couldn't see his face. He shook his head and headed to the inn owner, each one of his footsteps causing a loud creak on the old and worn wooden flooring. "Excuse me," He said, getting the attention of the old man behind the counter. The man blinked in surprise and smiled at him, quickly stowing away the precious china bowl he was polishing and headed over to the masked nin.

"How may I be of service?" He asked, bowing lightly. The man stole a few glances at the newcomer, confused at his horrible fashion. Who wears a black cloak with red clouds?

Tobi cleared his throat, using his normal voice instead of his Tobi one. Deidara was far enough away to not hear him. "I want two bowls of ramen, please. Also... Do you have any bamboo containers of rice and jugs of water? That would be extremely helpful." He said, reaching into his pocket to pull out one of his strings of gold coins.

The inn owner was about to protest about the order until his eyes caught the familiar gleam of golden coins. He smiled and hid the greed from his eyes. "Of course! We'll have them delivered to your table. The sencha is on the house." He grinned, standing up straight and rubbing his small mustache with his fingers.

Tobi nodded, taking out a couple gold coins and placed them on the counter. The innkeeper greedily took the coins, motioning for a young girl, who Tobi assumed was his daughter, to take them. "Also, do you have two rooms to rent for the night?" He asked.

The innkeeper shook his head, "my greatest apologizes. All of our rooms are all taken."

Tobi tch'd inwardly, taking out another few gold coins of his string and placed them on the counter. No matter where he goes, the world still values money.

The innkeeper's eyes lit up again. "Oh! I just remembered one of our customers gave up his room. You can use that one. It's one of our finest."

"Do you have two rooms?" Tobi asked again, his hand resting on the counter as his patience for this greedy old man begins to dwindle by the second.

"Really sorry, but we are fully booked up and I can only juice out one room for you. I'm pretty sure you can share a room with your lovely lady." The innkeeper said, eyes motioning towards Deidara and scooped up the coins on his counter. "Now would you excuse me, I'll go tell my chefs to prepare your food."

Tobi sighed, knowing he couldn't 'reason' with the old innkeeper anymore. He headed back towards the table and stuffed the coins back into his cloak pocket, glancing at the blonde and deciding he would hold his tongue from the blonde about the female remark once again. He knew Deidara has gotten used to it by now, but something told him if he told Deidara about him being remarked about being 'his lovely lady', he would flip out and destroy the entire city.

They waited for a while in a suffocating silence between them. Tobi had been too busy distracting himself with the inn's noisy conversations from other customers to notice Deidara staring at him. He only looked up when their ramen had arrived at their table, as well as four bamboo containers of rice and two jugs of water, as the innkeeper had promised. He took the food and pocketed them into his pack. He also picked up the key to their room.

Tobi picked up his chopsticks and turned away from the blonde. He pushed his mask to the side and began eating the noodles and his stomach felt grateful of the warm food. It wasn't like he needed to eat, but it would be strange not to when Deidara was starving. The blonde would only assume Tobi felt the same.

After they had finished their meal, and Tobi's mask moved back into the correct place on his face. Tobi looked at the blonde as he finished his tea. "So, senpai." He said, using his squeaky voice. His throat felt better, but it still stung when he used the childish voice. "The innkeeper said there was only one room... So I hope you wouldn't mind sharing." He said, his voice getting softer near the end. He didn't want Deidara to throw bombs at him.

Deidara was obviously displeased by the news, but he shrugged it off. "Fine, hm. Just this night. If the ones we go to in the future have the same problem, then you're sleeping on the streets, un." He grunted, feeling guilty of saying the last part. He stood up and dusted himself off, even though he knew there was no way any dirt has gotten onto his cloak during the meal.

Tobi nodded, "okay, senpai." He muttered, stifling a yawn and stretched. He stood up as well and began heading towards the stairs, where the inn rooms are located at. It was a good thing this was a traditional Japanese inn, or else they might be forced to share a bed.

They arrived at their room and unlocked the door. The innkeeper wasn't joking when he said that this room was one of their finest. The room was decorated in washi paper walls, inked on them were designs of dragons and tigers, as well as flowers and trees. On the closet was a drawing of a crane, matching perfectly to the room. Both of them headed inside of the room and set down their packs at the corner of the room, they took off their shoes as well. The luggage space was matted with a lovely white sheet, soft and cool to the touch, probably made from silk. They treaded on the tatami matted floor and Deidara headed to the bathroom, while Tobi stayed in the main room to continue to admire the decorations.

There was a desk at the side, the chair was red with golden linings. Must be very expensive, Tobi shook his head, the royal coloring wasn't supposed to be used by any of the common people. He ignored the chair and headed towards the closet, sliding it open and noticing the two extra kimonos with no kamon. They could use that, if the organization they're supposed to track down already knew the Akatsuki's trademark cloak looked like. They don't seem to know which member was which, though Tobi wasn't going to take any chances. Maybe they had the bingo book, then Deidara would need to be extra careful. Tobi doesn't need to worry about that though, he wasn't on the bingo book, and he hoped it'll stay that way. It has, still has and will continue to save him from trouble of bounty hunters.

Tobi sighed, kneeling down and pulled out two futons, there was a long day ahead of them.

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End of Chapter One
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Hey guys, Red here!

Aha, this story was meant to be finished and posted up on February 10th, the fifth year anniversary of me shipping TobiDei as an OTP. When I missed it, I thought to myself that I would finish it and post it up on February 14th, for Valentines Day; then write at the end that it was for the anniversary as well.

When both of those dates passed, I decided to be an lazy ass and took my sweet ass time with finishing it and ended up going past 5000 words. I'm pretty shocked, though it wouldn't surprised me since I had went and dragged out the ending. So here you go, my fifth anniversary of shipping TobiDei and Valentines Day fic. Yay!

Sorry I haven't posted anything for my fifth year anniversary and Valentines Day. I was going through this weird phase where I started hating at whatever I wrote and thought it wasn't good enough. I felt pathetic and stopped reading and writing all together, not wanting to disappoint myself again and again.

I'm still in this phase, and I really don't want to read through my horrible writing to check for any spelling mistakes, extra words, missing words, awkward sentences so on and so forth. Right now, I really want to smash my computer and delete the entire thing. What is wrong with me? I really want to end this self hate thing, because I have no tolerance with other things in my life.

Also, I got my report card on the 28th, it wasn't as bad as I expected, but it wasn't as good either. More self hatred on that. My mother wouldn't sign the reply slip if I don't say anything about it. What should I say if she doesn't ask me a question? "I'm sorry I didn't get good grades?" Wow, guess how many times I said that? Oh, I don't know. 4 times? I'm not going to say the 5th time, since saying that won't do anything to improve my grades.

Also also, I'm hungry. Parents are out to grab our pizza but I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT. I'M SO HUNGRY UGH.

Also also also, I am writing the second chapter right now.

Also also also also, I have not promised to upload the second chapter of Resurrection anytime soon, though I have started it.

Japanese glossary (alphabetical order):

dango - Japanese dumpling and sweet
futon - traditional Japanese bedding
kami - god
kamon - family crest; usually placed on kimonos.
kimono - traditional Japanese garment
kunai - small dagger; typically used by ninja
onigiri- rice formed into triangular or oval shapes and often wrapped in seaweed.
ramen - noodle soup dish
sencha - green tea
tatami - floor matting
torii- traditional Japanese gate most commonly found at the entrance of or within a Shinto shrine
washi - style of paper from Japan