BBR. Raven's emotions are swarming in different directions and she doesn't know what to believe anymore, why does it hurt her to think about Beast Boy and why does every part of her mind scream that Terra can not be trusted?
I Love You My Beautiful Broken Angel
That day the sun shone right through the cobwebbed window at the corner of her room, the light reflected off the glass and beamed bleaching strands of light into the dark room where she lay bundled in cozy covers and twisted dreams. Dreams of falling and falling through a torn sky filled with frozen clouds and pieces of the moon. She couldn't quite grasp her breath, her lungs felt like they'd been bleeding for quite some time and she wondered how she could live with a heart that would not beat and a chest drowning in emptiness. The pain sweetly sung its way through her veins, but she couldn't feel the stinging pinch of life in her head, for it was also empty and confused. She felt herself gaining speed and becoming closer to the ground, gravity sucking her fragile body back into its reach, she didn't bother to ask how she could fall without gravity, questions were pointless now. The end was near.
She whispered a single prayer before saying goodbye to the body that harbored her soul. She had already lost her wings a long time ago. But before her body became one with the earth it fell into his arms. The arms of her purple silhouette, the one whom loved her, the one she knew she loved, though she did not know who he was. She couldn't know yet, she wasn't ready for her destiny to unwind. She yelled at him, once more he had saved her, just before her feet could touch the ground just before she knew who she was and what she was going to be. She screamed, asking him why bother trying to save her, why give her his soul? Couldn't He see that she was dieing? But he ignored her pleas and cradled her fragile soul firmly in his arms.
"Love will save you from darkness, darkness is love's shadow, light is love's blindness, we are loves holders...and also its slaves" He said in a blurry gentle voice. And she knew she wanted to be there with him, her purple silhouette, who ever he was. "I will save you, my beautiful broken angel..." they both spoke harmoniously in words of song. Just then every thing was taken into darkness and everything was taken into light, and everything was everything it ever should be, but that wasn't good enough.
The light poured onto her sleeping body and her eyes flew open, she was now in the real world where nothing so wonderful would ever happen to her like it did in her dreams. She darted her eyes to the window, she must have forgotten to close the curtains last night when she was gazing at the moon for hours before she finally fell asleep. She yawned and raised her hand, quietly muttering the magic words, "Azarath, Metrion, Zinthos..." and closed the curtains with her mind. The room was now flooded in darkness and it looked the same when she closed her eyes; it was so easy to confuse the two worlds now. She tried to push herself back into her dream but she couldn't, she was surrounded by darkness no matter how hard she tried to remember.
She gave up and rolled off her bed onto her feet, she would meditate on the roof until morning or until she could place herself back in that dream. She quietly opened and shut her door, silently flying through the hallway trying not to wake the others. Suddenly she ran into something, someone in the hallway and there was a large thump as they both collapsed to the ground. They waited a few seconds to see if any one woke up, but no one did.
"R-Raven, is that you? What are you doing up so late?" A familiar voice asked, Terra. Raven thought.
"What are you talking about this late? Light was pouring from my window when I woke up." Raven said as they both lifted themselves from the floor.
"Um...it's still really dark outside Raven, it's only like, 2:46am"
"What? You're kidding aren't you? How can that be?"
"I think you're just really tired Raven." Terra said as if Raven had suddenly gone mentally insane. Raven sighed and shook it off, maybe that was just apart of her dream or something.
"If it's that late what are you doing up Ms. Princess of daylight?" Raven said sarcastically but in a fun way, the others were right she thought, she had to lighten up sometimes.
"Oh just nothing, nothing at all, just walking you know, it's really good for you." Terra said, she couldn't really manage to contain her nervousness.
"okkk...Well you go do that, I'm going to the roof." Raven said and started to walk away. But Terra did not, she just walked a couple steps and stopped in front of beast boy's room, Raven found that rather odd so she turned around and watched as Terra slowly opened the door and closed it leaving a slight open crack. Raven tiptoed to the door and looked in.
Terra jumped onto the sleeping green boy and hugged him. Raven couldn't help but notice how calm and peaceful he was before that. Kind of cute, all curled up with his mouth shut.
"Hey BB! How's the dream world?!" Terra yelled in his ear, he screamed and jumped up awake to find himself in the blond girl's arms. The sight sickened Raven deeply but it didn't seem to madden beast boy too much.
"Oh, it's just you Terra, you frightened me."
"Aw I'm so sworry BB...I won't do it ever again..." Terra whimpered with puppy dog eyes. Raven widened her eyes and tried to hold her stomach from throwing up. She never saw Terra like THAT before...there were so many things they didn't know about her... Raven still had a gut feeling that there was something terrible about that girl. She saw it in her vision the day Terra came back, she still couldn't forget it. Beast boy sighed and took her in his arms.
"It's ok Terra...I still love you..." He said
"I love you too BB!" Terra giggled and kissed his cheek. Raven watched them, startled, and somehow upset. He loves her...He...loves her...she kept repeating the words in her mind. How did this startle her, hearing those words? They were always flirting, it was obvious he liked her, though she didn't trust Terra that her feelings were pure. But she knew he liked her, so why did it hurt, and why the hell did she care anyway?! Beast Boy deserved her, that little brat, that little...green... 'You don't really feel that way do you?' A voice in Raven's head asked. 'Leave me alone...it's better that way...' Raven replied to the voice and shut it out completely.
Raven watched as Terra's lips met Beast Boy's and she knew she couldn't take it any longer. She ran as fast as she could to the roof, feeling too sick to fly. A couple items fell off the shelves behind her. 'My powers are connected to my emotions, I have to calm down, I have to meditate.' And so she sat on the roof cross-legged and slowly floated above the ground with closed eyes. She gently floated into her mind where she figured she was safe just standing on the rocks trying to collect herself. She looked off into the distance and saw a figure getting closer and closer to her, it stepped out of the fog. It was Beast Boy.
"It's ok Terra, I still love you..." he spoke in a dream world voice that echoed through her head. One of her personalities appeared.
"He Still loves her..." Happiness said, with not hint of happiness
"It's ok Terra...I love you..."
"He loves her..." Timid said as she appeared, and every time he said something, a personality repeated it.
"Terra, I'll love you for always..."
"He will always love her..."
"Terra...you love me don't you?" Terra appeared behind Raven.
"Yes Beast Boy, I love you..."
"She loves him..."
"STOP IT!!!" Raven finally cracked but all the echoes just kept singing lightly in the background repeating and repeating. She went up to Beast Boy. "How did you get here? Why are you in my mind! I said stay out!" And she reached for him but her hand went straight through him, like he was a hologram, she kept trying to touch him but every time she reached for him it was as if he wasn't there, just his reflection. She looked behind her to Terra whom was smiling wickedly but seemed to be standing farther and farther away by the second.
Rage walked behind Terra and wrapped her hands around her neck. "KILL...HER...KILL TERRA!" Rage shouted and suddenly Raven heard screaming, she recognized it as her own voice and she then saw herself lying below Terra with a knife through her back slicing right through her heart.
I Love You My Beautiful Broken Angel
That day the sun shone right through the cobwebbed window at the corner of her room, the light reflected off the glass and beamed bleaching strands of light into the dark room where she lay bundled in cozy covers and twisted dreams. Dreams of falling and falling through a torn sky filled with frozen clouds and pieces of the moon. She couldn't quite grasp her breath, her lungs felt like they'd been bleeding for quite some time and she wondered how she could live with a heart that would not beat and a chest drowning in emptiness. The pain sweetly sung its way through her veins, but she couldn't feel the stinging pinch of life in her head, for it was also empty and confused. She felt herself gaining speed and becoming closer to the ground, gravity sucking her fragile body back into its reach, she didn't bother to ask how she could fall without gravity, questions were pointless now. The end was near.
She whispered a single prayer before saying goodbye to the body that harbored her soul. She had already lost her wings a long time ago. But before her body became one with the earth it fell into his arms. The arms of her purple silhouette, the one whom loved her, the one she knew she loved, though she did not know who he was. She couldn't know yet, she wasn't ready for her destiny to unwind. She yelled at him, once more he had saved her, just before her feet could touch the ground just before she knew who she was and what she was going to be. She screamed, asking him why bother trying to save her, why give her his soul? Couldn't He see that she was dieing? But he ignored her pleas and cradled her fragile soul firmly in his arms.
"Love will save you from darkness, darkness is love's shadow, light is love's blindness, we are loves holders...and also its slaves" He said in a blurry gentle voice. And she knew she wanted to be there with him, her purple silhouette, who ever he was. "I will save you, my beautiful broken angel..." they both spoke harmoniously in words of song. Just then every thing was taken into darkness and everything was taken into light, and everything was everything it ever should be, but that wasn't good enough.
The light poured onto her sleeping body and her eyes flew open, she was now in the real world where nothing so wonderful would ever happen to her like it did in her dreams. She darted her eyes to the window, she must have forgotten to close the curtains last night when she was gazing at the moon for hours before she finally fell asleep. She yawned and raised her hand, quietly muttering the magic words, "Azarath, Metrion, Zinthos..." and closed the curtains with her mind. The room was now flooded in darkness and it looked the same when she closed her eyes; it was so easy to confuse the two worlds now. She tried to push herself back into her dream but she couldn't, she was surrounded by darkness no matter how hard she tried to remember.
She gave up and rolled off her bed onto her feet, she would meditate on the roof until morning or until she could place herself back in that dream. She quietly opened and shut her door, silently flying through the hallway trying not to wake the others. Suddenly she ran into something, someone in the hallway and there was a large thump as they both collapsed to the ground. They waited a few seconds to see if any one woke up, but no one did.
"R-Raven, is that you? What are you doing up so late?" A familiar voice asked, Terra. Raven thought.
"What are you talking about this late? Light was pouring from my window when I woke up." Raven said as they both lifted themselves from the floor.
"Um...it's still really dark outside Raven, it's only like, 2:46am"
"What? You're kidding aren't you? How can that be?"
"I think you're just really tired Raven." Terra said as if Raven had suddenly gone mentally insane. Raven sighed and shook it off, maybe that was just apart of her dream or something.
"If it's that late what are you doing up Ms. Princess of daylight?" Raven said sarcastically but in a fun way, the others were right she thought, she had to lighten up sometimes.
"Oh just nothing, nothing at all, just walking you know, it's really good for you." Terra said, she couldn't really manage to contain her nervousness.
"okkk...Well you go do that, I'm going to the roof." Raven said and started to walk away. But Terra did not, she just walked a couple steps and stopped in front of beast boy's room, Raven found that rather odd so she turned around and watched as Terra slowly opened the door and closed it leaving a slight open crack. Raven tiptoed to the door and looked in.
Terra jumped onto the sleeping green boy and hugged him. Raven couldn't help but notice how calm and peaceful he was before that. Kind of cute, all curled up with his mouth shut.
"Hey BB! How's the dream world?!" Terra yelled in his ear, he screamed and jumped up awake to find himself in the blond girl's arms. The sight sickened Raven deeply but it didn't seem to madden beast boy too much.
"Oh, it's just you Terra, you frightened me."
"Aw I'm so sworry BB...I won't do it ever again..." Terra whimpered with puppy dog eyes. Raven widened her eyes and tried to hold her stomach from throwing up. She never saw Terra like THAT before...there were so many things they didn't know about her... Raven still had a gut feeling that there was something terrible about that girl. She saw it in her vision the day Terra came back, she still couldn't forget it. Beast boy sighed and took her in his arms.
"It's ok Terra...I still love you..." He said
"I love you too BB!" Terra giggled and kissed his cheek. Raven watched them, startled, and somehow upset. He loves her...He...loves her...she kept repeating the words in her mind. How did this startle her, hearing those words? They were always flirting, it was obvious he liked her, though she didn't trust Terra that her feelings were pure. But she knew he liked her, so why did it hurt, and why the hell did she care anyway?! Beast Boy deserved her, that little brat, that little...green... 'You don't really feel that way do you?' A voice in Raven's head asked. 'Leave me alone...it's better that way...' Raven replied to the voice and shut it out completely.
Raven watched as Terra's lips met Beast Boy's and she knew she couldn't take it any longer. She ran as fast as she could to the roof, feeling too sick to fly. A couple items fell off the shelves behind her. 'My powers are connected to my emotions, I have to calm down, I have to meditate.' And so she sat on the roof cross-legged and slowly floated above the ground with closed eyes. She gently floated into her mind where she figured she was safe just standing on the rocks trying to collect herself. She looked off into the distance and saw a figure getting closer and closer to her, it stepped out of the fog. It was Beast Boy.
"It's ok Terra, I still love you..." he spoke in a dream world voice that echoed through her head. One of her personalities appeared.
"He Still loves her..." Happiness said, with not hint of happiness
"It's ok Terra...I love you..."
"He loves her..." Timid said as she appeared, and every time he said something, a personality repeated it.
"Terra, I'll love you for always..."
"He will always love her..."
"Terra...you love me don't you?" Terra appeared behind Raven.
"Yes Beast Boy, I love you..."
"She loves him..."
"STOP IT!!!" Raven finally cracked but all the echoes just kept singing lightly in the background repeating and repeating. She went up to Beast Boy. "How did you get here? Why are you in my mind! I said stay out!" And she reached for him but her hand went straight through him, like he was a hologram, she kept trying to touch him but every time she reached for him it was as if he wasn't there, just his reflection. She looked behind her to Terra whom was smiling wickedly but seemed to be standing farther and farther away by the second.
Rage walked behind Terra and wrapped her hands around her neck. "KILL...HER...KILL TERRA!" Rage shouted and suddenly Raven heard screaming, she recognized it as her own voice and she then saw herself lying below Terra with a knife through her back slicing right through her heart.