Hello, 'tis my first Harry Potter fic. No, it is not a one shot. This chapter is really an intro that gives you the idea of what the fic's in general is about. To let you know before you search throughout this chapter for a name, you are not supposed to know who she is. Don't bother asking, as the name is currently to be decided. Okay, on with the story.

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter, I only own she (the character, not the word)

Oh, and I think I should say I dedicate this chapter to storyteller92, aka Dizzy. Not only did you help me start this story by saying I should, but you have also helped me a lot with she's name. Not to mention your imitations of this chapter and the plot in general that are attempts to destroy my mind. You are EEEEVIL. EVIL I SAY! EEEEVIL! Anyway, this chapter's dedicated to you.

Now on with the story!

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Thoughts of Peter Pettigrew, 1983

It all started for me in my fifth year.

Of course, in a way, it started when I was sorted into Gryffindor (which was surprising) and became friends with Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, and James Potter. Perhaps if I were sorted into one of the other houses, I wouldn't have made friends with them. I wonder all the time if she had anything to do with it. Is it possible that she influenced the Sorting Hat?

Hell, anything's possible.

Sometimes I wish I just told her to go away when she first showed up. Would things have been better that way?

She tells me it wouldn't, but she's lying for all I know. For all I know, she could have been lying about all of this all along, and I'm actually doing awful things for awful reasons as apposed to awful things for a good reason.

She scolds me when I think that, but I can't help it.

Even if she might be lying, it's too late now. I've done awful stuff that'll forever haunt me, and it can only be even somewhat repaired if I finish what I started. For now, I just have to wait as a pet rat of the Weasley family until she tells me what to do next.

I wish she'd hurry up, though. Just waiting around is boring as hell. The only thing I really have to do to pass time by is sleep, but the dreams I have are nearly unbearable. Most of them are of when I did it, and how awful that horrid day was. Up till then, it wasn't that awful. But that day changed it all.

Sometimes the dreams are too bad for me to stay asleep and I wake up. On those occasions I tend to stay awake. Then I get to be prodded by the Weasleys.

Sure, they're not as bad of a family as I might make them out to be. I'm better off with them then than a lot of other families. Being a pet is such a drag, though. Especially being a rat. All you can do is eat, sleep, and have your owners try to teach you tricks.

Sometimes I wish that I just roughed it out in the wild until it's time to time for my next assignment. She says that it's important for me to be with the Weasleys for several reasons, though.

Sometimes I wonder if she just makes it up as she goes along, and doesn't really have it all planned out like she says. She scolds me for that, too.

I always wonder what the end with be like. If it'll have me explaining it all to Remus and Sirius, and us becoming friends once more. I once thought that was possible, but I doubt it is now.

They'll forever hate me for what I did. And good reason or not, I deserve their hatred. Sirius is in Azkaban because of me. Remus is alone because of me.

James and Lily are dead, and it's all because of me

And even if I'm still alive, I feel like I'm also dead. All because of me.

They'll never believe my story. I've done too many awful things, and it all fits much too well for them to believe that what they think now is false.

She won't tell me if I die in the end. I hope I do.

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Yea, angsty. I like the last line, and when I was lengthening this, I refused to make that not be the last line.

No, "she" is not J.K. Rowling. When rereading it, I realized how it seems like she could be the she. She isn't, though. And the reason isn't to make the Harry Potter books more tragic either.

You'll find out who she is next chapter or the chapter after, but you probably won't find out the name for a while, as it's to be decided and for other reasons you wouldn't get.

If you don't like Peter being good, then I suggest you don't read any further.

Ok, go review or be pelted with forks!