I know that it isn't anywheres near V-day anymore but I wasn't able to post it on V-Day. So don't read it if you don't wnat to but I had to put it up. Toeveryone that has read my stories since Igot here thank you it is wonderful to know that not only are you guys great but you all make me feel wonderful. I really hope you know how much it means to me with every review and read because it does show how many reads each one of my stories. And it also shows me that I have fans and that is great to know. So thank you all for making me feel so loved here. That is why I love . Luv Sin!!!

Dark: You are so weak you know that. Maybe you should stop taking those pain pills because they are making you soft.

Chrissie: Leave her alone Dark she is hurting .

Dark: I think that you might need to learn your place here Chrissie. I am queen in Sin's mind and you are my servent and servents are seen and not heard. So do yourself a favor and shut up.

Luv Ya Dark and you have become one of my biggest muses and that is awesome. Luv Sin!!!

I was now pissed. It seems that this year they forgot about an important day and it really hurts. This was the first time I was actually able to have a valentine that meant something to me. After all this was the first time I wasn't single on Valentine's Day. But they ruined that. So I blow out the almost completely melted candles and throw the food to the floor without caring. I felt tears slide down my face and it angered me even more that they made me cry.

So I rushed up to our room and grabbed my suitcase and threw it on the bed. This was the first time and last time I'll let them do this to me. Dark was wrong. They didn't change and I should have known that they wouldn't after all once you let them hurt you and get away with it they keep doing it. Well this is the last time.

I was half way through town when my cell rang. I looked down and saw that it was Mark calling. I tossed it to the other seat and rolled my eyes. Too late assholes. When I made it to Dark's I saw that no one was home and it didn't surprise me. I just too out my key and let myself in. Then I went to the room I used the last time we got into a huge fight. They didn't like what I was doing and I hated that they were trying to make me into what they wanted me to be. It didn't matter now. No they wouldn't like the fact that I was gone but I didn't care. Now I couldn't care.

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Mark

I looked at my cell and then I looked at the guys around me. "I think that she is mad at us."

"Why it's just Saturday?" Glen said to him and we all three looked at him shocked.

"It's Valentine's Day." Jeff said before all four of us were up and moving through the bar.

I knew that it was too late before we even got to the house. But seeing it dark and her car gone just set it for me. She was gone and I didn't know if we would be able to get her back this time. No this was going to be her first real v-day and we were just like everyone else. We forgot about it leaving her home alone all day without wondering what she was doing.

We walked into the front door and spilt up even though we all knew that she wasn't there. When I walked into the dining room and turned on the light my breath caught in my throat when I saw a table full of food on the floor. The candles were almost burnt completely down and I knew she sat there for hours waiting for us to make our appearance. There was no getting her back and I knew that now. "Hey Mark all of Sin's things are gone."

"I know." I said to Glen as he walked in and took in the sight.

"We really messed up big time this time huh?" He asked me and I nodded. I couldn't even tell him how much we messed up on this.

"I bet she went to Dark's place." He said to me and I nodded.

….

Sin

I curled up on the bed and just stared at the wall without anything on. I didn't want to think. I didn't want to hear anything. All I wanted to do was wake up and let this be a dream. But the pain in my heart told me that this wasn't a dream. No it wasn't a dream at all. Everything happened and now I'm all alone once again.

Dark use to blame me for this but I tried really hard to make this work with them. I feel so drained by it all now and it wasn't even worth it. No once again I don't matter and that's how it is. It's always like that. I didn't even want to get in the relationship with them. They shared each other but they all wanted me. I'm not going to lie I wanted them just as much but that didn't mean that I was going to do it you know. But they wouldn't leave it alone. No they wouldn't leave me alone.

I glanced at the alarm clock next to the bed and felt the tears fall. It was after midnight now and no longer Valentine's Day. I should have known that it was that late but I kinda hoped they would come get me before it was over. What hurt the most is I know what they are going to say. I know that they are going to say that they forgot what day it was. I knew that they will try to make me see that they do love me and it had nothing to do with me. But I also know what I'm going to say. I know that I am tired of being hurt because they all seem to forget everything at the same time.

I heard the front door slam closed and Dark's heels rushing up the stairs in a hurry. When she busted into the room and threw the lights on the tears started to fall harder. Before I knew it she was there with her arms wrapped around me as I cried tears from the bottom of my heart. "It's ok sweetie."

"None of them remembered. Not one of them Dark." I sobbed out as she held me.

"I'm going to kill them." She growled and I wanted to laugh because I know that she would just to make me feel better but we both knew that it wouldn't make me feel better.

After I calmed down enough to tell her everything we went down stairs to get some drinks. That was when I saw Justin and I sighed. "I'm so sorry Justin. I didn't mean to ruin your night."

"It's ok Baby Girl I knew with Dark I got you too sometimes so don't worry about it. How about a nice strong jack and coke?" He asked me and I smiled.

"I would love one." I said as we sat down at the table.

"I stood at the stove for five hours cooking them all their favorites from scratch. I lit candles at the table, Put the food there and got changed into what they were having for desert. Then I just sat there and sat there watching the candles get shorter and shorter. They promised me a great Valentine's Day and all I got was the same old thing but worse because they hurt me so much. I hate them so damn much right now that it isn't funny." I said as I sniffled.

Dark looked like she was about to go and commit murder and Justin didn't look any better. He was very protective over me and I felt like he was my big brother though he wasn't that much older than me. "They are dead!"

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Jeff

I wanted to wait until she calmed down but Mark, Glen and Phil wouldn't listen to me. No they wanted to fix this now. Even though we all knew that there was no fixing it. No this was a major fuck up if you ask me. But none of them did so I didn't tell them. Let's just hope that Dark and Justin didn't know what happened. That's all we need now. Two guard dogs ready to attack if we even try to get near her. "Look we have to make this right no matter what anyone says we have to make sure that she knows that we love her."

"If we loved her would we have forgotten about how important today was to her?" I asked them and they all looked at me in horror.

I shook my head and looked down at my hands. "Look Hardy if you got something to say then spit it out so we can do what we have to do."

"All we do is hurt her. It seems to me every time something like this comes along all we seem to do is fuck it up. Remember her birthday? Christmas? Or how about New Year? None of them turned out any better than this and we are the ones to blame. Maybe we should just let her go." I said to them and they all took a step towards me.

"Look Jeff you may not love her but we do. I am not about to lose her now. Not after all the hell that we went through to get her. You know the hell that you mostly caused. I will be damned that I will lose her now. I love her and I will be getting her back." Mark shouted at me and I stepped back.

"I never said that I didn't love her. I said maybe we didn't love her enough to not hurt her. There is a difference. And we all know that." I shouted back at him.

"ALL OF YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP GET IN THE CAR AND GET THE FUCK OVER THERE BEFORE WE DON'T HAVE A SHOT TO GET HER BACK!!!!" Phil said and we all looked at him shocked. "Now that I got all of your attention I would like to say something. Sin is the one that holds us together and we all know that. Yes our relationship started before her but she is now the glue that keeps us loving each other and I'm not losing that. I can't lose that. Now get in the car so we can go get our girl."

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Sin

I was on the back porch and Dark and Justin were in their room enjoying what they came home to do. I didn't want to hear it but I was hearing it anyways. Tears were slowly sliding down my cheeks because once again I couldn't find what I was looking for. All together I thought that they made the perfect guy but they all proved me wrong on that one. They all made sure to do that. Mark was the guy that oozed bay boy, Glen was the bad boy with a good heart. Phil was the romantic and Jeff was the man that could make me laugh. They all were what I was looking for. But I didn't find it this time either. I'm beginning to think that it is me that has the problem and not them.

"Roses are Red

I'm so Blue because I lost you

But here is something to sweet

To show I didn't forget." Glen said as he walked around from the front yard.

I looked away from him as the tears started to fall harder. They couldn't just leave me alone. They shouldn't be here but they were and this time it pissed me off. "There once was a girl named Sin and she was someone that could bend. Until that tragic day that we broke her heart. Now we have to pick up the pieces and mend it so we can show her that she is loved. There once were these guys that didn't seem to realize how much they really loved her until that night she left without one word. Now they are here on their knees trying to make her see that they needed her just as much as they loved her."

"Come on Sin look at us." Jeff said softly.

"Leave." I hissed at them.

"Not without you." Mark said to me and I shook my head.

I stood up and walked to the back door to find Glen standing there blocking it. I moved away before he could grab me and hurried around the house on the porch only to get to the back door to see Phil already beat me to it. "We aren't leaving until you listen to us."

"Why so you can say what I already heard before? We're sorry but we forgot Sin. It won't happen again we swear. If this one day had happened nothing that you did before would have. Nothing you caused before would have hurt anymore. But I'm so tired of being hurt. I'm so tired of the lies. And I'm so tired of getting it times four. So no I'm not listening. No I'm not allowing any of you to talk me into coming back. It's over so move on." I shouted at him and pushed him out of the way.

I tried the door but it was locked. I should have known that it would be. I leaned my head on it and started to ball. "None of you get it do you?"

"We would if you tell us." Phil said softly.

"I shouldn't have to tell you!" I cried out as I slid to my knees.

For the first time in years I felt so broken. I haven't felt broken like this since I was a teenager. "I shouldn't have to wonder if you will remember something important to me. I shouldn't have to feel this way at all. Don't you understand me? I should be the happiest woman in the world. Instead I'm so broken. So lost and so in love with four men that don't seem to love me too."

"We do love you. We love you very much." Mark said and I shook my head.

"I cook all of your favorites from scratch tonight and it all ended up cold on the dining room floor. That's not love Mark. That's not caring. If I wanted that I wouldn't have left my ex. There I wouldn't hurt this much. And he beat me." I said as I tried to make myself into a ball on the porch.

I heard him bend down and I felt it as he moved my hair. I stared into his green eyes and saw how much he did love me. But it was too late. I couldn't go back there again. "We need you so much Sin. Can't you see that?"

"I don't need to be needed Mark. I need to be loved because I love all of you and I don't even feel the same from any of you. The only time I'm told I love is after sex or when you all want something from me. I give you everything and I get nothing back from any of you. What more do I need to give to show you all that I love you?" I asked him softly.

"Let us show you that we love you." He said to me.