Oh dear…:D
Hurray for fanfics ne?
This one popped into my head while I was listening to music and refused to leave me be, so here it is.
Title
I sat motionless and starred at the clock as it went-
Tick tick
-and tried to imagine that every clicking of the hands was your heart beating in a steady pace. You lay your head upon my knee; your black hair splayed across my lap as your tears burned my leg.
-tick tick
I hot flash of anger hits me. It clawed its way into my mind and boiled me alive from the inside. And suddenly, I cant even stand you. I want to hurt you as you have hurt me. The water in the glass shook like my hands did. The glass was cool against my rapidly heating body
Tick tick.
Why the hell are you so calm? You heart goes tick tick. It's not a fast and rapid beat like that of a distressed and sad person. (which is what you are acting like right now.)
Tick tick.
Why do you look so surprised? All I did was throw my cup at the wall. Perhaps it was because of the scream that pierced its way out of my raw throat? Or maybe because I'm flailing around?
Tick tick.
You've hurt me.
You turn your panicked eyes upon mine. You're speaking, saying something. But I don't want to hear it. (for the first time, I really couldn't give a shit about what the hell you wanted to say)
For years all you have ever said has only served to hurt me. All you've ever done was hurt me.
And now.
You've destroyed me.
You cry out my name in desperation. But wait.
Shouldn't I be the one screaming for you? I take a step back and you follow.
Shouldn't I be doing that?
Isn't that my job?
Tick tick
Nurses are trying to hold me down. As you stay back and watch in pain.
You fucker.
It's me that's in pain. Pain that you've caused. The scars on my wrist were no accident. And I'm happy that every time you look at them you fucking know.
Tick tick.
It's driving me fucking crazy!
You're driving me crazy! You were always a master at masks. You can hide anything with those fuckers. This is one of them isn't it? You pretend to be scared, hurt, worried. But there's one thing that you can't hide from me.
Tick tick.
Your heart sings a steady song while mine slams against my bones. !
But yours. Yours barely even beats.
Tick tick.
There are flashes of colors now. I see yellow and amber first. There's a sharp pain and my vision swims. After that I see pink and green. But then it always has to return to that.
Black black black.
Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick
You've killed me
O-o wow to tell the truth, this was different from what I originally wanted. So I'm battleing with myself if I want to redo this or if I want to make a second part.
… I think I will do a second part. If I'm encouraged enough. HINT HINT. hahahaha