Disclaimers: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho or it's characters. I do own the
song/poetry thing though.
Warnings: Slash and questionable violent flashback like stuff.
Rated: PG-13 for safety
Summary: Hiei goes crazy and falls apart at the seams, but does Kurama have enough sense to figure out why? Very Mild Slash.
Please review!
Shion-san presents:
Broken Glass
The calm. It was dark. The fire demon was wearing a special straight jacket as he rocked back and forth. The moon shone into his cell down in the insane asylum of Reikai (spirit world). He mumbled; his soft lips barely moving. His red eyes were large and wide open as his hair of black stood up on end. He rocked and mumbled all night. Things like "Yukina... gone gone?" and "Kuwama? Where are you?" were often the start of sobbing. "Detective? Carrot top? Human?" He called into the dark. No one ever responded. Most were now even more afraid of the demon. It had been just a year that he had been down in the loony bin. Yukina, his sister, had died before his eyes, along with Kazuma Kuwabara and Yusuke Urameshi. Hiei had only been able to watch as they died under the weight of the floating world Shigaki. Shigaki, land of the Hill Demons had fallen when the spell had been removed. A foolish Hill Demon had removed the stone from the ground, just as Kuwabara and Urameshi were fighting a nasty demon underneath Shigaki; Yukina had been just barely under the floating world, cheering Kuwabara on. It fell, killing all three of them; Kurama had been at his human mother's house, so he simply heard the news. Koenma had taken it a little better than Hiei, watching from the screen in his office. Hiei had been the only one to see it, right in front of him. It had driven him insane.
"Kuwama, where are you?" Hiei mumbled to himself.
"Hiei, Kurama's here to see you." An ogre said as he opened the cell's door. The fox's silhouette came into the doorway and the ogre closed the door. Hiei just rocked back and forth.
"Yukina gone gone?" Hiei asked, he seemed very child-like. Kurama seemed very solemn, sitting next to Hiei and sighing, closing his green eyes and brushing back his red hair with his hand.
"Yes, Yukina is gone." The fox said mournfully.
Hiei's eyes teared, the drops hitting the floor and turning into round gems. "Yukina gone gone!" He hit his head repeatedly against the stonewall until Kurama put his hand in to stop him.
"Hiei, it's not your fault." Kurama assured. Hiei leaned against the fox.
"No tell Carrot-Top he wuv Yukina okay... Not tell Yukina she be sister... No thanks Detective... All sorts of wegwets.." (regrets) Hiei mumbled as more tear gems hit the stone floor with a clink.
"Hiei..." Kurama put an arm around the fire demon. 'He has regrets... Yet, he's not in the right mind, so he doesn't know how to deal with them...' The fox thought. 'Maybe...'
(The dark
A spark
A glass tear hits the floor
A laugh
A cry
Who's questioning why?
The way things are right now is horrible
Like a wedding day with only the groom
Or a baby who has to learn how to push a broom
Life isn't going right
A glass tear hits the floor
This broken glass kills once more)
The next day the red-haired fox went to see the toddler in charge.
"Koenma sir, do you think I could take Hiei to visit the graves? He has regrets and I think it might help him in some way." The fox's green eyes were filled with sorrow. The toddler sucked on his blue binki as he thought.
"I suppose. But make sure he stays with you, I don't want him out on his own." Koenma said finally.
"Thank you sir." The fox let out a breath of relief. Later that morning Hiei was taken from his cell and dressed in his black pants and tank top. Kurama extended a hand to the fire demon, hoping if they held hands Hiei would not run off. Hiei took it, then asked a hard question.
"Where Kuwama going?" He asked as if the fox was leaving alone.
"We're going to see Yukina and Kuwabara and Yusuke." Kurama said, wondering what the reaction would be. The fire demon looked shocked.
"Kuwama going to see famiwy?" The red-eyed one gaped.
"Yes, and so are you." The fox was curios as to when Hiei had decided they were family. Hiei seemed confused, but went with Kurama anyway. They were both silent as they walked. "We have to go to Ningenkai to see them." Kurama said, wondering if Hiei remembered what Ningenkai was. The fire demon said nothing, though. Kurama sighed.
It was noon when they arrived to the graves behind Genkai's temple. The old lady had been surprised to see Hiei, but didn't mind. The two stood in front of the graves. Hiei dropped to his knees and began to cry gems, taking Kurama down with him. He began to talk.
"Cawwot-Top, s'okay to wuv Yukina... Yukina be sister... Detective..." Hiei paused as he gulped and sniffed. "Thanks you fo' eveyfing..." (Everything) Kurama just watched as what was once one of the most to himself creatures told the graves before them everything he had ever thought, ever wanted, ever regretted. The way Hiei was talking was very odd, it seemed third- person, yet he never mentioned himself even once. Things like "Be sorry" and "Wish had" replaced "I'm sorry" and "I wish I had". It was almost two hours later when the fire demon ran out of things to say. His last sentiment was a simple one. "Forgive."
(A dead person
Is not a person
But a grave and a spirit
Not hard to believe,
A trick up the sleeve
Nothing can bring them back
A tear falls from a mother's cheek
Her knees have grown so very weak
She falls down and hugs the ground
She sobs glass tears to her dead daughter
A glass tear hits the floor
This broken glass kills once more)
Kurama was surprised when Hiei stood up and rubbed his eyes from the remaining tears. The fox stood as well, taking back the hand he had let go of so Hiei could use it to mourn. Black gems covered the graves, the most seemed to be on Kuwabara's. The old woman came from the temple to check on the two, she was quite surprised to see all the tear gems.
"You two leaving soon?" She asked.
"Kuwama leave soon" Hiei said in her reply. "Feel better now."
"Hm." Genkai hummed simply, her voice old and crackling.
"Hiei, do you want to go get ice cream?" Kurama asked, remembering it to be his favorite.
"Pwease?" The fire demon asked. His red eyes had become more child-like.
The two had ice cream and walked through the park, then returned to spirit world. Hiei didn't seem at all reluctant when George got out the straight jacket.
"Uhm, sir, can I have Hiei stay with me? In Ningenkai?" The fox asked the toddler. Koenma sucked on his binki again as he thought.
"What do you think Botan?" The toddler asked the grim reaper.
"That might help him recover faster." The blue-haired floating girl pointed out.
"Okay then, you have permission to watch Hiei in Ningenkai. I hope your mother doesn't mind." Koenma sucked on his binki.
"I'm sure she won't." The fox smiled.
(Takes your life,
Bends your mind,
Glass tears breaking
On cold stone floors.
A widow in her rocking chair
Hasn't talked in twenty years
She just sits there,
Eats and cries
Wonders why everyone dies
A glass tear hits the floor.
This Broken glass kills once more.)
A woman with soft eyes and hair walked into her house to find her son and a boy she didn't recognize.
"Who's your friend Shuichi?" She asked, taking off her shoes.
"Oh Mother, this is Hiei. He's lost many basic speech abilities, so I thought I'd let him live in my room with me. Is that okay Mother?" The disguised fox asked.
"Oh, certainly. Hello Hiei, my name is Shiori." The woman bowed. The fire demon stood and bowed as well.
"Kuwama is at home now?" Hiei asked the woman. Shiroi put a hand to her mouth and said "Oh!" in a high tone.
"Who's Kuwama?" Shiori asked her son.
"Oh, it's what he calls me, he can't say Shuichi. It's a nickname of mine." The green-eyed boy quickly explained.
"Oh. Yes dear, Kuwama is home." Shiori smiled to the half ice half fire demon.
"Mother, it's Kurama..." Shuichi corrected bashfully.
"Oh, sorry dear." Shiori pinked slightly.
"Kuwama is home." Hiei nodded, sitting down once more.
(Kills the souls,
Eats the cold,
Takes the pain to second fold.
A baby is put in it's mother's arms
Blue eyes meet brown and tears meet folds
The blood, the tears and all the pain,
Are washed away by one child's face
A glass tear hits the floor.
This broken glass kills once more)
The fox tucked the black haired demon into his bed and kissed his cheek. The red eyes closed. Kurama turned the room light off and went downstairs to discuss things over with his human mother.
"He seems so young." Shiori said as her son of red locks came into the kitchen.
"Yes, it's as if he's gone back a few years." The green-eyed son assured.
"Well, he can stay with us as long as he needs. Where are his parents anyway?" She asked.
"He's an orphan." The disguised fox lied.
"Oh. Well, if you want he can stay until you move out if he has no where else to live." Shiori smiled. "We could use a little more company.
Kurama walked back into his bedroom again, changing into his pajama top and getting into the bed with the fire demon. Hiei rolled over to rest his head on the fox's chest. Kurama blinked his green eyes, but raised his arm over the smaller body and smiled. He closed his green eyes, his red hair in a braid, and drifted off to sleep.
The next morning Shuichi was off to school early in the morning, taking Hiei with him. At school Shuichi Minamino explained Hiei as a foreign exchange student with a few speech problems. Hiei just followed him all day, scaring the fan girls. The fox rather felt relieved of their burden. At lunch, Hiei didn't eat any of the lunch Shiori had made them.
"Kuwama need eat." He insisted, and to him, the discussion was over.
"Why doesn't Hiei need to eat?" Kurama asked the fire demon, who looked at him with shocked eyes. The fox paused, suddenly realizing something. "Hiei, you do know that you're still alive, don't you?" The demon's red eyes got huge and Hiei slapped Kurama across the cheek before running off. The fox was quick to chase the demon, finally catching him almost two miles from the school. The fox took his chance as he neared the black-haired demon, pouncing onto him and bringing him to a roll. They were in a park now, and they were stopped from rolling by the park's lake. No one was in the park, nor near where they were, deep into the forest-like park. Kurama brought them both up for air, whacking Hiei's back until the stubborn demon took in a breath.
"Hiei, why do you think you're dead?" Kurama asked, holding him up since although Hiei's feet didn't hit bottom, Kurama's could.
"Hiei died with famiwy." The fire demon said bluntly. The fox's green eyes blinked.
"Oh. So who are you then?" The fox asked. There was silence. "Hiei. You're alive. I'm alive. That's a hard concept, I know. But... well, it's true. You can't pretend you're dead anymore Hiei. You just aren't."
"Kurama." Hiei began to cry again as he wrapped his arms around the fox.
(Like a mirror
Like a fist
Broken glass
Hissy fits
What goes up
Must come down
Another glass tear hits the floor.
What exactly are we living for?
Broken glass kills once more
Or does it?
What was it?
He lied to himself
She cried to herself
The clock on the wall has not yet stopped
Though it does slow
Wait for it
The broken glass can be picked up.
But why let the memories go?)
Back at the Minamino residence, Hiei went straight to bed. Shuichi greeted his mother, ate dinner, took a shower, then joined the fire demon. He got under the sheets and lay down, turning off the bedside lamp. He almost closed his eyes, but then sat up again to look at the sleeping fire demon. Something told the fox that they would soon get closer...
He leaned down and kissed the sleeping demon, then lay down. The black- haired demon lay his head on Kurama's chest. Kurama smiled, his braided red hair on his shoulder as he put an arm over him the very much alive half-ice half-fire demon.
"Koenma sir, do you think it's a good idea to let them sleep together like that?" The blue ogre asked.
"Like I care what they do anymore." The toddler shrugged. "George, go get some fresh air, I'll call upon you again later."
"You've been calling me more and more by my name sir, are you feeling okay?" The ogre questioned.
"YES! Now get out of my site!" Koenma waved him away.
"Going sir!"
Osuwari
End Notes: I think this is cute... The poem's actually lyrics to a song I made up the other day. It just seemed like a good fit to this story. I don't know, I just think if Hiei saw Yukina, Kuwabara and Yusuke die, he'd think he had died too. It was hard going through and figuring out how to translate normal words into his speech problem's language. Yeah... I hope you liked it! I might do a second chapter, but probably not. Please review, and if you hated it, don't just write "crap" _* (This has happened to me before.)
-- Shion-san
Warnings: Slash and questionable violent flashback like stuff.
Rated: PG-13 for safety
Summary: Hiei goes crazy and falls apart at the seams, but does Kurama have enough sense to figure out why? Very Mild Slash.
Please review!
Shion-san presents:
Broken Glass
The calm. It was dark. The fire demon was wearing a special straight jacket as he rocked back and forth. The moon shone into his cell down in the insane asylum of Reikai (spirit world). He mumbled; his soft lips barely moving. His red eyes were large and wide open as his hair of black stood up on end. He rocked and mumbled all night. Things like "Yukina... gone gone?" and "Kuwama? Where are you?" were often the start of sobbing. "Detective? Carrot top? Human?" He called into the dark. No one ever responded. Most were now even more afraid of the demon. It had been just a year that he had been down in the loony bin. Yukina, his sister, had died before his eyes, along with Kazuma Kuwabara and Yusuke Urameshi. Hiei had only been able to watch as they died under the weight of the floating world Shigaki. Shigaki, land of the Hill Demons had fallen when the spell had been removed. A foolish Hill Demon had removed the stone from the ground, just as Kuwabara and Urameshi were fighting a nasty demon underneath Shigaki; Yukina had been just barely under the floating world, cheering Kuwabara on. It fell, killing all three of them; Kurama had been at his human mother's house, so he simply heard the news. Koenma had taken it a little better than Hiei, watching from the screen in his office. Hiei had been the only one to see it, right in front of him. It had driven him insane.
"Kuwama, where are you?" Hiei mumbled to himself.
"Hiei, Kurama's here to see you." An ogre said as he opened the cell's door. The fox's silhouette came into the doorway and the ogre closed the door. Hiei just rocked back and forth.
"Yukina gone gone?" Hiei asked, he seemed very child-like. Kurama seemed very solemn, sitting next to Hiei and sighing, closing his green eyes and brushing back his red hair with his hand.
"Yes, Yukina is gone." The fox said mournfully.
Hiei's eyes teared, the drops hitting the floor and turning into round gems. "Yukina gone gone!" He hit his head repeatedly against the stonewall until Kurama put his hand in to stop him.
"Hiei, it's not your fault." Kurama assured. Hiei leaned against the fox.
"No tell Carrot-Top he wuv Yukina okay... Not tell Yukina she be sister... No thanks Detective... All sorts of wegwets.." (regrets) Hiei mumbled as more tear gems hit the stone floor with a clink.
"Hiei..." Kurama put an arm around the fire demon. 'He has regrets... Yet, he's not in the right mind, so he doesn't know how to deal with them...' The fox thought. 'Maybe...'
(The dark
A spark
A glass tear hits the floor
A laugh
A cry
Who's questioning why?
The way things are right now is horrible
Like a wedding day with only the groom
Or a baby who has to learn how to push a broom
Life isn't going right
A glass tear hits the floor
This broken glass kills once more)
The next day the red-haired fox went to see the toddler in charge.
"Koenma sir, do you think I could take Hiei to visit the graves? He has regrets and I think it might help him in some way." The fox's green eyes were filled with sorrow. The toddler sucked on his blue binki as he thought.
"I suppose. But make sure he stays with you, I don't want him out on his own." Koenma said finally.
"Thank you sir." The fox let out a breath of relief. Later that morning Hiei was taken from his cell and dressed in his black pants and tank top. Kurama extended a hand to the fire demon, hoping if they held hands Hiei would not run off. Hiei took it, then asked a hard question.
"Where Kuwama going?" He asked as if the fox was leaving alone.
"We're going to see Yukina and Kuwabara and Yusuke." Kurama said, wondering what the reaction would be. The fire demon looked shocked.
"Kuwama going to see famiwy?" The red-eyed one gaped.
"Yes, and so are you." The fox was curios as to when Hiei had decided they were family. Hiei seemed confused, but went with Kurama anyway. They were both silent as they walked. "We have to go to Ningenkai to see them." Kurama said, wondering if Hiei remembered what Ningenkai was. The fire demon said nothing, though. Kurama sighed.
It was noon when they arrived to the graves behind Genkai's temple. The old lady had been surprised to see Hiei, but didn't mind. The two stood in front of the graves. Hiei dropped to his knees and began to cry gems, taking Kurama down with him. He began to talk.
"Cawwot-Top, s'okay to wuv Yukina... Yukina be sister... Detective..." Hiei paused as he gulped and sniffed. "Thanks you fo' eveyfing..." (Everything) Kurama just watched as what was once one of the most to himself creatures told the graves before them everything he had ever thought, ever wanted, ever regretted. The way Hiei was talking was very odd, it seemed third- person, yet he never mentioned himself even once. Things like "Be sorry" and "Wish had" replaced "I'm sorry" and "I wish I had". It was almost two hours later when the fire demon ran out of things to say. His last sentiment was a simple one. "Forgive."
(A dead person
Is not a person
But a grave and a spirit
Not hard to believe,
A trick up the sleeve
Nothing can bring them back
A tear falls from a mother's cheek
Her knees have grown so very weak
She falls down and hugs the ground
She sobs glass tears to her dead daughter
A glass tear hits the floor
This broken glass kills once more)
Kurama was surprised when Hiei stood up and rubbed his eyes from the remaining tears. The fox stood as well, taking back the hand he had let go of so Hiei could use it to mourn. Black gems covered the graves, the most seemed to be on Kuwabara's. The old woman came from the temple to check on the two, she was quite surprised to see all the tear gems.
"You two leaving soon?" She asked.
"Kuwama leave soon" Hiei said in her reply. "Feel better now."
"Hm." Genkai hummed simply, her voice old and crackling.
"Hiei, do you want to go get ice cream?" Kurama asked, remembering it to be his favorite.
"Pwease?" The fire demon asked. His red eyes had become more child-like.
The two had ice cream and walked through the park, then returned to spirit world. Hiei didn't seem at all reluctant when George got out the straight jacket.
"Uhm, sir, can I have Hiei stay with me? In Ningenkai?" The fox asked the toddler. Koenma sucked on his binki again as he thought.
"What do you think Botan?" The toddler asked the grim reaper.
"That might help him recover faster." The blue-haired floating girl pointed out.
"Okay then, you have permission to watch Hiei in Ningenkai. I hope your mother doesn't mind." Koenma sucked on his binki.
"I'm sure she won't." The fox smiled.
(Takes your life,
Bends your mind,
Glass tears breaking
On cold stone floors.
A widow in her rocking chair
Hasn't talked in twenty years
She just sits there,
Eats and cries
Wonders why everyone dies
A glass tear hits the floor.
This Broken glass kills once more.)
A woman with soft eyes and hair walked into her house to find her son and a boy she didn't recognize.
"Who's your friend Shuichi?" She asked, taking off her shoes.
"Oh Mother, this is Hiei. He's lost many basic speech abilities, so I thought I'd let him live in my room with me. Is that okay Mother?" The disguised fox asked.
"Oh, certainly. Hello Hiei, my name is Shiori." The woman bowed. The fire demon stood and bowed as well.
"Kuwama is at home now?" Hiei asked the woman. Shiroi put a hand to her mouth and said "Oh!" in a high tone.
"Who's Kuwama?" Shiori asked her son.
"Oh, it's what he calls me, he can't say Shuichi. It's a nickname of mine." The green-eyed boy quickly explained.
"Oh. Yes dear, Kuwama is home." Shiori smiled to the half ice half fire demon.
"Mother, it's Kurama..." Shuichi corrected bashfully.
"Oh, sorry dear." Shiori pinked slightly.
"Kuwama is home." Hiei nodded, sitting down once more.
(Kills the souls,
Eats the cold,
Takes the pain to second fold.
A baby is put in it's mother's arms
Blue eyes meet brown and tears meet folds
The blood, the tears and all the pain,
Are washed away by one child's face
A glass tear hits the floor.
This broken glass kills once more)
The fox tucked the black haired demon into his bed and kissed his cheek. The red eyes closed. Kurama turned the room light off and went downstairs to discuss things over with his human mother.
"He seems so young." Shiori said as her son of red locks came into the kitchen.
"Yes, it's as if he's gone back a few years." The green-eyed son assured.
"Well, he can stay with us as long as he needs. Where are his parents anyway?" She asked.
"He's an orphan." The disguised fox lied.
"Oh. Well, if you want he can stay until you move out if he has no where else to live." Shiori smiled. "We could use a little more company.
Kurama walked back into his bedroom again, changing into his pajama top and getting into the bed with the fire demon. Hiei rolled over to rest his head on the fox's chest. Kurama blinked his green eyes, but raised his arm over the smaller body and smiled. He closed his green eyes, his red hair in a braid, and drifted off to sleep.
The next morning Shuichi was off to school early in the morning, taking Hiei with him. At school Shuichi Minamino explained Hiei as a foreign exchange student with a few speech problems. Hiei just followed him all day, scaring the fan girls. The fox rather felt relieved of their burden. At lunch, Hiei didn't eat any of the lunch Shiori had made them.
"Kuwama need eat." He insisted, and to him, the discussion was over.
"Why doesn't Hiei need to eat?" Kurama asked the fire demon, who looked at him with shocked eyes. The fox paused, suddenly realizing something. "Hiei, you do know that you're still alive, don't you?" The demon's red eyes got huge and Hiei slapped Kurama across the cheek before running off. The fox was quick to chase the demon, finally catching him almost two miles from the school. The fox took his chance as he neared the black-haired demon, pouncing onto him and bringing him to a roll. They were in a park now, and they were stopped from rolling by the park's lake. No one was in the park, nor near where they were, deep into the forest-like park. Kurama brought them both up for air, whacking Hiei's back until the stubborn demon took in a breath.
"Hiei, why do you think you're dead?" Kurama asked, holding him up since although Hiei's feet didn't hit bottom, Kurama's could.
"Hiei died with famiwy." The fire demon said bluntly. The fox's green eyes blinked.
"Oh. So who are you then?" The fox asked. There was silence. "Hiei. You're alive. I'm alive. That's a hard concept, I know. But... well, it's true. You can't pretend you're dead anymore Hiei. You just aren't."
"Kurama." Hiei began to cry again as he wrapped his arms around the fox.
(Like a mirror
Like a fist
Broken glass
Hissy fits
What goes up
Must come down
Another glass tear hits the floor.
What exactly are we living for?
Broken glass kills once more
Or does it?
What was it?
He lied to himself
She cried to herself
The clock on the wall has not yet stopped
Though it does slow
Wait for it
The broken glass can be picked up.
But why let the memories go?)
Back at the Minamino residence, Hiei went straight to bed. Shuichi greeted his mother, ate dinner, took a shower, then joined the fire demon. He got under the sheets and lay down, turning off the bedside lamp. He almost closed his eyes, but then sat up again to look at the sleeping fire demon. Something told the fox that they would soon get closer...
He leaned down and kissed the sleeping demon, then lay down. The black- haired demon lay his head on Kurama's chest. Kurama smiled, his braided red hair on his shoulder as he put an arm over him the very much alive half-ice half-fire demon.
"Koenma sir, do you think it's a good idea to let them sleep together like that?" The blue ogre asked.
"Like I care what they do anymore." The toddler shrugged. "George, go get some fresh air, I'll call upon you again later."
"You've been calling me more and more by my name sir, are you feeling okay?" The ogre questioned.
"YES! Now get out of my site!" Koenma waved him away.
"Going sir!"
Osuwari
End Notes: I think this is cute... The poem's actually lyrics to a song I made up the other day. It just seemed like a good fit to this story. I don't know, I just think if Hiei saw Yukina, Kuwabara and Yusuke die, he'd think he had died too. It was hard going through and figuring out how to translate normal words into his speech problem's language. Yeah... I hope you liked it! I might do a second chapter, but probably not. Please review, and if you hated it, don't just write "crap" _* (This has happened to me before.)
-- Shion-san