Ever since Cat bought back CatCo from Lena Luthor, her life had been going great…

She and Kara had been growing closer and closer by the minute, she and Adam had bonded, and CatCo's stocks quadrupled.

There was only one issue… The feelings she ran away from three years before, came back like a gut punch from a sumo wrestler the second Kara welcomed her back, and she was once again, madly in love with a woman twenty years her junior.

She had never planned to buy back CatCo... In fact, she had planned on running for Congress, and then President, but when she saw Kara get pummeled to the ground by that Worldkiller a year ago, her plans changed.

Cat had been continuously following Kara's career. Wherever she went, she always made it a point to check in on Kara's recent articles… And she was quite impressed with the work she was doing, so impressed in fact, that she hadn't been even slightly surprised when the news came out that Kara had replaced as his successor.

She always felt a twinge of guilt for abandoning Kara, had even felt jealousy when she was writing articles about another person (i.e. Lena Luthor), but one thing persisted to bother her over everything else; one thing consumed her wherever she went… longing.

So, when she saw Kara drop thirty stories and not stand up afterward, her longing, mixed with terror, overwhelmed her, and she realized that she belonged in National City… belonged right next to Kara… belonged to Kara… and she came home… hoping that she could keep her feelings at bay.

But she failed…

Kara Danvers was the only person on the planet that could turn cold, steely, no-nonsense Cat Grant into a puddle of lovestruck goo… and she successfully did it daily.

When Vat came back, the first person that greeted her was Kara. They sat, and talked, and it was all Cat could do to stop her heart from pounding out of her chest.

They started bumping into each other at random intervals, and then eventually started having lunch together weekly, then daily. That turned into Kara inviting her to her game nights, and Cat's feelings for Kara only grew stronger by the minute.

She tried to stay away, tried to hide them all, but one look in Kara's beautiful sea blue eyes was enough to get Cat to agree to anything.

It wasn't fair the hold Kara had on her, but Cat loved every minute of it.

XXX

She was in her office writing up her weekly report on the office happenings when there was a familiar knock on her door.

She hated herself for the way her heart skipped a beat as she rose her head and offered Kara a welcoming smile.

Klara offered Cat a smile in return and walked in. "I just wanted to know if we were still on for donuts? I bought a whole dozen!"

Cat fought back a giggle and forced a façade of nonchalance on her face… she may be lovestruck, but she was also Cat Grant. "Of course," She chirped as she placed her glasses on her desk. "Let's sit on the balcony."

Kara nodded with a smile on her face. "I got your favorite!" Kara announced joyfully as she walked towards the balcony doors. "I hope they're still your favorite at least… Raspberry filled?"

Cat smiled, her heart melting at the fact that Kara remembered her favorite donut, and her soul yearning to kiss Kara senselessly. "They're most certainly still my favorite." She replied/

Kara's beaming smile set Cat's body alight with longing to hold the Kryptonian close. But she kept her resolve. She wasn't what Kara wanted. Kara saw her as a mentor, perhaps even as a motherly influence… but not as a romantic interest.

Kara Danvers… Supergirl… Could have anyone she wanted, there was absolutely no doubt in Cat's mind that she herself wasn't even close to being on the list of people Kara would even consider to being with.

She sat down in the chair next to the one that Kara had occupied and reached for the box of donuts, making sure to make it extra obvious that she was reaching for a raspberry filled one.

Kara smiled brightly as she watched Cat take a bite of the doughy treat, and then giggled as she pointed to the corner of her lips. "You have a little…" She wiggled her finger, trying to emphasize her point, which only made Cat flush with embarrassment.

"Oh?" She asked, wiping at the corner of her mouth with her napkin.

Kara giggled adorably once more as she shook her head and brought her thumb up to Cat's mouth. "No. silly." She crooned. "This side." She informed before she took said thumb, and wiped the offending jelly off of Cat's mouth.

Every hair on Cat's body stood on end, her heart fluttered, her stomach filled with butterflies, and her breath hitched at Kara's touch… She had to get out of this mess before she did something incredibly stupid.

She stood up rapidly, so rapidly in fact that she almost lost her balance; causing Kara to catch her in her arms.

"Whoa there, Cat!" Kara chuckled. "What's wrong?"

Cat squirmed out of Kara's arms and faced her with a glare. "You need to go and take your idiotic high-calorie treats with you!" She demanded. "I have a company to run, and I don't need your petulant attempts at sucking up to me, wasting my time any longer."

And oh… the look on Kara's beautiful face as Cat verbally assaulted her tore Cat's heart to shreds.

All she wanted to do was pull Kara into a tight embrace and beg for forgiveness.

Kara shook her head, and laughed sardonically. "You know, I thought that you were better now." She started. "When you bought back CatCo, I thought 'finally! Now we can be friends without her randomly beating me down when we get close!' But I was wrong… because still, every time we get close, you have to lash out at me. You can't keep doing this to me, Cat. Either you want to be my friend, or you don't. Decide soon, Cat… because I swear to god, I can't keep doing this anymore."

Cat was taken aback; she hadn't been expecting an ultimatum, Kara usually just took her mood swings in stride, but this time… this time it seemed that Kara was putting her foot down. Good for her. She thought.

"I…" Cat swallowed, she knew what she needed to do, and even though it killed her to do it; it was what was best for Kara. "I don't have time to be friends with my subordinates."

Kara bit her inner cheek and then nodded. "Yeah…" She said slowly. "Yeah, I figured that's where this was going to go." She shook her head and laughed coolly. "You know, everyone thinks you're this high-and-mighty queen, but if they saw the way you treated people that care about you, they'd be disgusted." She looked at her watch. "I have to go but be expecting my resignation soon… because I'm tired of this shit, and I refuse to work for someone who sees me as less than them."

Cat wanted to reach out, to stop Kara, to apologize profusely, but all she could do was stand and watch as Kara picked up the rest of the donuts and walked out.

What have I done?

XXX

She was panicking as soon as the elevator doors closed in front of Kara… how was she supposed to tell Kara that she did see her as an equal? How was she supposed to explain that she wasn't being mean because she was scared of having friends, but that she just didn't trust herself around Kara anymore? That she was terrified of crossing a line that was unforgivable?

She hated herself for being so weak, hated herself for being a cliché, hated herself for hurting Kara, but she knew one thing for certain…. She couldn't let Kara quit CatCo… not because of her at least.

She immediately grabbed her purse and locked her office as she walked to her elevator. As soon as she was in, the doors closed, and she called her driver making him understand that this was an emergency.

As soon as the elevator reached the lobby, she exited it in a rush and ran to her car. There was no time to lose; she had to apologize to Kara.

XXX

AS soon as the driver pulled up to Kara's apartment building Cat exited the vehicle and ran as fast as she could up the steps.

She had no idea what she was going to say to her. No idea what she was going to do. All she knew is that she wanted to make up for what she'd said, for the pain she caused Kara.

She reached Kara's door, a door she shouldn't know, but was quite familiar with. She knocked three times, and when the door opened, her soul burned with regret and guilt.

Kara was standing there, her face covered in tears, her eyes puffy, her nose running, and all Cat could do was wrap her arms around the younger woman.

"I'm so sorry, Kara," Cat whispered tearfully. "I promise that I will be better. I promise." She avowed. "I will never do that again. I'm not used to being this close to people, I'm used to getting burned, and I'm sorry. Please, don't leave CatCo. Please don't leave me."