There You'll Be
A Buffy Songfic
When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I''ll be glad 'cause I was blessed
To have you in my life
Spike looked down at her gravestone and shed a silent tear as he lay flowers on the ground beneath it.
This would have been the day, mate. That day that you had so looked forward for.
I killed her. Just as well as did, anyways. I let her down.
How could I do that?
I really am a monster.
When I look back
On these days
I''ll look and see your face
You were right there for me
In my dreams
I still can't really believe that you're gone, Summers.
I mean, you're- I mean, was the Slayer. You weren't supposed to die.
I mean, you think I'm gonna let you off that easy? When I actually thought I had a truce with you? I mean, that was the first time that we actually got along. You knew that I loved you, and you knew that you didn't love me. But we became friends. We both knew that. We had the best friendship/relationship that we had ever had, and then you had to go and bleeding die on me.
Where's the fairness in that, huh Slayer?
I''ll always see your soul
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
You don't want to know about how the others are taking this. I mean, I don't have a "soul" and here I am, sitting at the Slayer's gravestone crying my bleeding eyes out. How do you think the humans are taking it? Especially Platelet. She's not good. But I said that I wouldn't tell you, so I won't.
How can this be, Buffy?
How can you be gone forever?
I mean.........you're a Slayer. You're not supposed to die.....not unless you had a death wish...and Buffy really! You weren't supposed to take me seriously! I was just trying to freak you out, you know? Make that cute little lip tremble? You can't be...No. You're not dead. No.
I''ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you''ll be
Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Buffy....I truly don't know how long or how much I've loved you. All I know is that if it isn't love that's making me sob in anger and frustration that the Slayer is dead, what in the bleeding hell is it?
Maybe I should stop swearing...and smoking....that could help me get into where you are, Buffy.
Well, hope and faith is what humans have that help them get there right?
But I'm not human.
Damn I hate this.
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams
I''ll always see your soul
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
Buffy, please come back.
I need you- we all do.
Actually, don't.
Maybe you'll get your wish...maybe I'll get over this little infatuation.
Or not.
I''ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you''ll be
You're in my dreams every nigh- day. I can't even sleep most of the time, but when I do, I always wake up to the realization that you're gone.
I know that everyone else feels quite the same but.....
I love you.
Still.
I really, truly do, and there's nothing that you or God or any of the Scoobies can do about it.
Oh well, that talk is a real way to win your heart.
Your unbeating heart.
See, if I didn't love you and this was an infatuation, then I would dig you up myself and sire you to be the hottest vampire in this century.
But no.
I have to love you.
'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
See, I don't get that concept.
That I love you so I never get to see you again, and if I didn't then I would be able to bring you back (in a very cold, evil bloodless way but still...)
What I would give to have you back....
Nothing.
As much as I want you back, Buffy....I know you're happy.
Happy in heaven up there with Mum and all the past slayers.
Maybe you'll have tea parties.
For always
In my dreams
I''ll always see your soul
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
He knelt down and kissed the grey tombstone.
"I love you, Buffy Anne Summers. You were the best at everything you did, and you were the most beautiful image my undead eyes have ever seen. Never forget how much everyone loved you, Buffy. Especially me."
Then, the heartbroken vampire lay down the flowers, stood up, blinded by tears and walked out of the graveyard.
I''ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you''ll be