Pairing: Rose/Nine
Summary: Rose thinks about the events of 'POTW' and the regeneration of the Ninth Doctor.
Setting: Set some time after 'POTW'.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters.
My First Doctor
He wanted me safe, that's all he ever wanted.
But he tricked me! I didn't want to leave him. So he tricked me. If he thought I was going to stand by and do nothing then he thought very wrong. I couldn't leave him, not when I knew there were Daleks swarming the place. I couldn't stand the thought of him being killed by those bastards. I really couldn't. I had given up my life on earth for him. I had left my mother to go travelling with him.. and sweet Mickey, my boyfriend.. and I never regretted that decision.
Next thing I knew I was back on the TARDIS and on my way to Satellite Five, to the Doctor and Jack, despite what my mother and Mickey thought. I had to help them. No matter what the consequences would be. Then I did something.. The Doctor would have never let me, but he wasn't there to stop me.. Oh no he wasn't.. Maybe a foolish thing but I didn't care.. You see, I looked into the heart of the TARDIS. I couldn't remember much after that. It was like a dream.. but more amazing than any other dream I have ever experienced.
When I woke up I was back inside the TARDIS.. And the Doctor was there. He was safe! Thank God he was alright! I have never felt so relieved in my entire life. It felt so good to see him unharmed. Unfortunately everything quickly changed into a nightmare. When I asked him what had happened, he said that he had sang a song and the Daleks ran away. I didn't believe him.. There was something about him that just didn't seem.. right. He told me that we were going to Barcelona. Not the city, but the planet. It sounded wonderful. Any other time I would've loved to go there but not now.
He was saying goodbye. What? When and mostly why?! I desperately tried to understand what he was saying.. Time vortex? Wasn't supposed to do that? He said that he was going to change. He told me I would never see that daft old face again. But I loved that face.. I loved everything about him. What was going on?!
"Have a fantastic life, Rose."
I never felt so scared. I have fought Gelth, Cybermen and Daleks but the idea of losing my Doctor was far more frightening. I just kept asking myself why was he saying all these things? We were safe weren't we? It wasn't fair! He couldn't go away! How dare he just leave me! After everything we had been through together. Didn't that count for anything? He was just going to up and leave?!
"You were fantastic Rose.. Absolutely fantastic.
And you know what? .. So was I!"
I tried to understand but I just couldn't figure it out. He looked fine to me. And then.. Then it happened, right in front of me. It looked as if he was going to explode.. Some sort of strange fireworks.. I have never seen anything like it. I couldn't believe my eyes. Before me was standing a complete stranger, one who claimed to be the Doctor. For a moment I thought I was dreaming, too bad I wasn't. He was everything to me.. and the next moment he was gone! There was nothing familiar about him anymore.. well, except for the leather jacket and jumper that he always wore.
Everytime I tried to say something, I fell silent again. What could I say? I was shocked. This was very hard believe. If we die, we die.. and we don't go changing into other people! That moment I wished I was back on Earth, with my mother and Mickey. Why hadn't he told me sooner? No.. No, he had to wait until the very last moment! Even then he wasn't very explicit about the whole thing. Maybe he got scared. Afraid of my reaction. Now, it didn't matter anymore.
"Hello! Where were we?
Ah..yes.. Barcelona!"
That smile of his. So familiar yet so foreign. Back then, I hadn't known that Time Lords could regenerate to cheat death. I couldn't do anything, but accept it. The New Doctor.. I did need some time adjust to the 'new' him but after awhile I managed. He very much stayed the same and he kept telling me over and over again that he was still the same doctor, just with a new face and body. He was right.
I came to like him, even love him. There wasn't anything I wouldn't do for him. But there were times that I still missed the other Doctor. You know, the one with the big ears, the goofy grin and that old leather jacket. The one who grabbed my hand that day and saved me from those crazy plastic dolls. He was my First Doctor. And maybe.. just maybe.. my only one too.. I knew for sure that he would always have a very special place in my heart. Always.
Yes Doctor, we were Fantastic.
This is one of my first fics ever. I personally don't think it's that good, I uploaded it anyway. R&R. Be nice? :)