Realising Your Exception.
Brennan plonks herself on the couch with a glass of wine after solving the murder of the doctor that so resembled herself and her life. She was single, childless, had a high-ranking, well paid job, and, from what Booth and herself had been told from co-workers, never took risks in her personal or professional life. She was even given up by her birth parents, not that she was too, but it is close enough for comparison. Sick of sitting in silence with her thoughts, she turns on the radio, something she would have never done before, and hears the song change.
"Okay, up next we have Paramore with The Only Exception. Enjoy!"
Brennan is intrigued by the song as it starts with a slow guitar. She also finds herself intrigued by the name of the band. Paramore. She knew it meant secret lover, but she would have never guessed that the name of the band and the song playing now would make her really think about her relationship with Booth. Then she hears the lyrics.
"When I was younger I saw my daddy cry and curse at the wind,
It broke his own heart and I watched as he tried to reassemble it.
And my momma swore that she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised I'd never sing of love if it does not exist,
But, darling, you are the only exception."
She remembered her dad telling her about her mother and how it broke his heart to put her life in past tense. She thinks back to the video her mother gave to her father specifically for her. She thinks back to all the times she told everyone, in particular Angela, that emotional ties were empherical and unreliable because it is not a constant. People's feelings change. Much like Booth's feelings towards her. He no longer loved her and she was now more in love with Booth than ever.
"Maybe I know somewhere, deep in my soul, that love never lasts,
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this,
Keeping a comfortable distance,
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness,
Because none of it was ever worth the risk."
She keeps playing back moments they have shared together. All the times he saved her life; taking the bullet for her, taking the explosion for her, saving her from the man who was going to feed her to dogs despite being severely hurt. The distance she had kept from everyone, prepared for when they would eventually leave her. Her distance in relationships; not taking them for what everyone else did, but only to satisfy her biological urges in place of making meaningful connections. The only real meaningful connection she had with a man was with Booth. At the last line, she jumps up and grabs her keys, knowing what she is going to do. She got into her car and drove; she drove until she made it to Booth's. She knew it was irrational, but she had to let him know how she felt. He had, so why couldn't she? She knocked, silently hoping Hannah wouldn't answer. Luckily Booth did.
"Bones! Why are you here?"
"I love you, Booth. I realise that now and I also realise that you are with Hannah, but I just wanted you to know that I won't give up."
Booth is in utter shock and Brennan stands still, worried she has said the wrong thing.
"I should probably go home now."
"Bones-"
Before he can say anything else, Brennan is already gone. What Booth doesn't know is that Hannah had seen the whole thing.
"What was that?"
"Nothing. Bones has been a bit stressed."
"Really? Because to me it sounded like a confession of love. What went on before you met me, Seeley?"
"Nothing, okay? Can we just drop it?"
"Fine. But I know something went on. And I will find out in due course."
Hannah walks off, too leaving Booth with his thoughts. Meanwhile, Brennan is back at her place, tears threatening to spill over.