Disclaimer: I do not own and do not claim to own any of these characters; they are all from Stephenie Meyer's twilight series books, which are incredible by the way. :)

A.N:this is my very first fan fiction and it's given me something to do whilst I'm waiting patiently for 2008 to come when it will bring me breaking dawn lol twilight fans will know what I'm talking about. I don't really have anything planned for it, when I did this first chapter I was really just thinking about showing things that happened in new moon that we heard about but never got to read, but now, on the 3rd chapter I'm thinking maybe I should have a plan and make this story actually go somewhere so that's what I'm planning on doing . I know some of the facts in this might not be 100 accurate , like the fact that the fight with Bella and her parents probably wasn't exactly 1 month after Edward left, but I didn't know for sure and I haven't got my copy of new moon at the moment so I just kind of made it up, sorry if that's annoyed anyone. I'd really love reviews I think they would motivate me a whole lot to keep going I was so surprised to have received one the day after I posted the first 2 chapters of this story, it really meant heaps to me, so more would be muchly appreciated. I'm sorry this is a way too long authors note so I'm going to rap it up. I just wanted a chance to properly explain my story and my intentions for the future. Anyone that reads this story, thank you. Oh and, any suggestions for the title would be very much appreciated because I've got nothing!

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Chapter 1: Repetition

I woke once again with the feeling of wanting to fall back into my dreams, fighting off reality as best I could, hesitating to open my eyes, preparing myself for a repeat of the last 27 days... and then with the forcing myself to let go of the memories I kept locked away, the ones I only let out when I was deeply unconscious, forcing myself to open my eyes and see nothing but my bedroom wall, not allowing myself to expect his arms around me, his eyes staring back at me. No. not allowed.

Finally I opened my eyes- nothing, no one.

I got myself up and showered, I didn't bother with my hair, and I picked up my bag and went downstairs to find a note- Charlie.

Bella,

Off to work early today, sorry Bells.

Don't worry about making me dinner tonight

Just make sure you eat something.

I love you.

Dad.

He had recently started writing notes when I was home and he wasn't, I guessed it was to remind me that he would come home, even if they weren't.

My chest started to ache, the pain wasn't unfamiliar these days, id let my mind slip the tiniest bit and my heart was reminding me of this danger zone.

I ignored the pain and got to my truck. I got in and glanced down at the empty space where my stereo had been, and then reversed out of my driveway and made my way to school. My first class was chemistry, I went to the seat id been sitting in since my first class, except now... I sat alone.

"Bella?" I hadn't even realized Mike Newton take the seat next to mine, I didn't bother to turn to him.

"Bella? Look at me" Mike whined.

I turned to him, seeing in his eyes what Id feared I would, pity. The same look he'd given me ever since they'd left. For a brief second I remembered what he'd said when Id came back to school the day after Sam Uley had found me in the forest...

"Bella, is it true?" Mike had asked

"Is it true he left you?" I didn't answer.

"Is it true the Cullen's are gone?" he rephrased.

Numb to any words any one had to say all I'd managed was a whispered "yes."

"Bella, come to the movies this Friday with the whole group, we're worried about you" he said bringing me back to reality

"I don't think so" I turned away and heard the chair squeak as Mike walked away

"I tried" I heard him whisper behind her.

The rest of the day was nothing new; everyday had been the same since the Cullen's had left, since he'd left. I wrote notes and completed my work, I drove home and when I got there, there was a familiar car in the driveway. My heart skipped a beat...