Almost Doesn't Count, a dark angel fanfic

Author- Girle*cherry/Madison

Rating- G

Summary- My view of Max's thoughts at the end of the 12th episode, airing in February, titled Borrowed Time.

Spoilers-MAJOR HUGE ones for the episode, Borrowed Time

Disclaimer- IF THEY WERE MINE I WOULDN'T NEED TO WRITE THIS FIC

The Song "I Try" belongs to Macy Gray

Authors notes- I saw the summary for Borrowed Time at darkangelfan.com and I just couldn't resist reading the spoilers (I try to avoid them) and when I was done, I was so upset that I had to get this out of my system. I apologize if this isn't very good but I am upset. This isn't beta'd because everyone who could get this back to me before May wants to be spoiler free.

*song lyrics* character

Almost Doesn't Count

Max

*Games, changes and fears, when will they go from here. When will they stop*

I kept trying not to get my hopes up. I really did. But I thought that this time I could. We got so close, just to have it taken away.

*I believe that fate has brought us here. And we should be together, but we're not*

Another 20 grand down the drain. And we didn't even get enough time. If it wasn't for me and mine we could have just spent what little time we had left together. Instead we had 30 seconds in a car kissing like there was no tomorrow. But there wasn't.

*I play it off but I'm dreaming of you. I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin. I try to say good bye and I choke. I try to walk away and I stumble. Though I try to hide it, it's clear. My world crumbles when you are not near*

So many times I have tried to do the right thing and just leave so that you could go on with your life. But it is too hard. Even though we can't touch, I still wake up just to see your sexy little smile or to hear your voice. I don't know what I would do if you were gone.

*I may appear to be free, but I'm just a prisoner of your love. I may seem alright and smile when you leave. But my smiles are just a front, just a front.*

I know that you must think that it is easier for me because I "never get tied down to one person or place" but you of all people should have seen how hard I fought to stay in Seattle. To stay near you.

I am afaid of losing you again. Was what we felt in that car real? Or was it just some cruel trick to drag us throght this hell all over again? Will we ever know? I know that I can't go on without you, although I would be the last person to admit thatweakness.

*Here is my confession, may I be your possession. Boy I need your touch, your love, kisses and such. With all might might I try, but this I can't deny.*

Are we just cursed? Maybe you were wrong. Every time we find away to be together it is taken away from us. Maybe "happily ever after" doesn't exist for me and mine.

*I play it off but I'm dreaming of you. I'll keep my cool, but I'm fienden. I try to say goodbye and I choke. I try to walk away and I stumble. Though I try to hide it, it's clear. My world crumbles when you are not near*

Maybe we can never get rid of this virus. After all, almost doesn't coun't. But I will keep trying. Because, I will never surrender to Manticore. Never.