I Remember Theta and Koschei

Disclaimer: Doctor who probably doesn't belong to a girl still in school.

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I remember when I was Theta, and you were Koschei, and we would lie back on the red-grassed hills of Gallifrey, and we would point at different planets in the night sky, and make a list of where we would go.

I remember when I was Theta, and you were Koschei, and I looked into the Untempered Schism, and I saw my life, and you weren't in it. And I ran to you, and I cried in your arms as you told me that it would be OK, even though we knew it wasn't.

I remember when I was Theta, and you were Koschei, and we went into the Academy, and we were in the top class, and our parents were so proud of us, and they told us so, and we were smiling for the rest of the week.

I remember when I was Theta, and you were Koschei, and every Friday night, we would sneak out, and lie on the hill we called 'ours', and we made our list, and we would hold each-other as the second sun set.

I remember when I was Theta, and you were Koschei, and we fought over a silly, stupid thing, and you told me you hated me, and ran off, and I spent the next years wondering why.

I remember when we graduated, and I was The Doctor, and you were The Master, and I wanted to be the one to hug you after it was all over, not her. Koschei, why are you so far away?

I remember when you married her, and I was at the wedding, because it was on the same day as mine. I married my best friend because if we didn't, father would disown me. Koschei, what did I do?

I remember when you regenerated for the first time, and I was standing against the wall, watching as she ran over to your side, and when you woke up and kissed her, I walked away. Koschei, what have we done?

I remember when I stole a TARDIS and ran away, and it felt so wrong, because we had planned to do that together, and I went to all the places on our list, but you didn't. Koschei, why aren't you here?

I remember when I saw you at your worst, and you weren't even fully alive anymore, and I wanted to cry. Koschei, what have you done to yourself?

I remember all the other times I saw you, but you were an enemy, and I fought you and you wanted to kill me. Koschei, what has become of us?

I remember when I killed them all, Time-lords and Daleks alike, and me hoping that you weren't burnt in the blaze when I couldn't find you. Then I found you, years later, but you weren't Koschei. Koschei, where have you gone?

I remember when you kept me locked up and tortured me and my friends for a year, and I knew that I would forgive you every time, no matter what. Koschei, what has happened to you?

I remember when you died, and my mind was silent, and I was alone, really and truly, and all I could think about was how my friends must hate me for still loving you after all this time and after all you did. Koschei, where are you?

And, for the first time since I met you, I am well and truly alone. I've lost you.

You win.