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LayX

I didn't think I could like (the Puckstar doesn't do love) you more than I already did, because I liked (not loved) you so much, but in a week I proved myself wrong.
A week. That was all it took for me to realise how good things really were. To see that you were perfect in every way. That I couldn't ask for more.

The first time I ever saw you I remember how I felt. You were amazing. You walked past me with your head held high and I knew then and there that I wanted you but, it proved difficult. You weren't exactly popular and I was the stud of the school and reputation is practically currency at McKinley High. I did try you know. I was going to ask you out on that first day but you didn't even bother to look at me; you swooped right past without a glance.

I got kind of annoyed. I knew we couldn't be together and it hurt, it really did. So I started to torture you, throwing slushie after slushie, because I was Puck, the stud of the school, and no girl should be able to have this kind of hold over me. Honestly, I didn't know what I was doing. I needed a way to see you every day and this fitted my reputation, but it didn't feel right. I was hurting you day after day and I couldn't control myself. it was like I needed to do it to prove to myself that I didn't like you. I needed to show that Noah Puckerman could never be in like (I don't do love) with Rachel Berry, I mean seriously, you were the definition of un-cool. And I was the definition of cool. If anyone knew I liked you I would never hear the end of it, because people like us weren't meant to be together.

When Finn joined glee club I mocked him, practically tortured him to try and make him stop. It was completely ruining his rep and dragging him to the bottom of the social scale, and it had taken him, taken me, so long to get to the top. But when I saw that you were there, I needed to get in. I needed my daily Berry fix. And when he was flirting with you, it killed me. You were meant to be my girl, not Finn Hudson's. He had Quinn Fabray, like he always wanted, but you were mine.

So I asked you out after dreaming of you in a white dress (it was not a wedding dress). And by now, you probably know I find it difficult to show my emotions, but that week when we first dated it was like everything was right, that my life was finally how it was meant to be. I bragged about you in front of Finn at every opportunity. I didn't know at the time that that was what you wanted. You could have told me. I would have understood, but to find out that you were just using me to make Finn jealous... it hurt. You may think I didn't feel anything for you, but that's not true. In fact I felt so much for you and you used me. I was crushed.

It's hard for me to say this you know... of course you do. You know me better than anyone on this earth. You know all of my secrets and that's the way I like it.

When we broke up it was hard for me to be in glee club, but I stayed because of you. You made glee club fun. And when you and Finn started dating it was hard; it was the hardest thing I have ever been through. You weren't meant to date that freakishly large awkward boy, you were meant to date me, your fellow Jew. Everyone could see that we were right for each other, we looked good together, unlike you and Finn, who made people want to gouge their eyes out (well, I wanted to gouge my eyes out - same difference). We made a good couple, but you couldn't see that, because Finn was blinding you from the obvious.

I needed you to be there for me. Beth had been taken away from me and my life was a mess .I didn't know what to do. I really hadn't got a clue. I was spiralling out of control and I thought you would see it and try to help. I was relying on you, but you were with him and I was alone to drown in my own sorrows.

I never told anyone how much it hurt. It felt like a piece of me had been ripped out and given to someone else. Beth was supposed to be mine but she was taken from me and given to someone else to love. I can't tell her that she is perfect or that I love her and I won't be able to see her grow up. I won't see her first steps or hear her say her first word. It's never going to happen and when I was getting through that, when I needed you the most, you were in love with someone else.

But it never stopped me from loving you. I tried to move on with Quinn, but she pushed me away further after Beth was born, and that hurt too. I thought she truly liked me and I thought I liked her, but maybe it happened for the wrong reasons, because I never liked her. I slept with her to get back at Finn because he was basically cheating with you. I could tell he liked you, but he should have stayed away. He had Quinn it wasn't fair for him to have you as well.

I expected you to comfort me when Quinn started flirting with Sam, but instead you helped them get together, and while that was happenening my life was such a freaking mess. I had no one. I didn't know where my life was going. I got into trouble, ended up in jail for god's sake and you still weren't there, but yet I had so many excuses for why you were with him. I always protected you, because I still loved you. And in my head you loved me too.

Glee club almost became a chore for me, and when I was in juvi it was almost a relief because I didn't have to see you all so happy. But I didn't get to see you or hear your voice and that was worse than seeing you happy with someone else. I was so used to seeing your face every day that going for two weeks without it was like hell. I don't know what made me fall in love with you, but whatever it was, it was powerful.

The best day of my life was the day we became best friends. When I saw you in the choir room with tears running down your face, it almost broke my heart. I didn't even have to think about it, I knew I needed to be with you to comfort you. That was what I was expected to do: put my arms around you and tell you it would be ok. I didn't even care why you were upset; I just knew you needed someone to be there for you.

And it would always be me, because I like you more than life itself (and I love you, just a little)

When you told me that Finn broke up with you I couldn't help but feel happy. I know how that sounds, but it meant I had a tiny chance and a small bit of hope filled me, but I knew that now just wasn't the time.

Over the next few weeks, I felt like I had gone to a better place. I'd been unhappy for so long, lost for so long, but you became my best friend and although you hadn't been there before, you were there now. I have never had some much fun with a girl, especially one that wasn't putting out. We weren't together, we were just friends because that was how you wanted it.

But I just wanted someone to know that this week has been the best week of my life. I didn't think I could love you more than I did, but I was wrong. Because now I love you more (but I'm still a badass who won't hesitate to throw anyone in a dumpster if they mess with me).