Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter.
* I didn't have anything to do. I tried to continue my other stories but I can't so I just did another one. Hope you like it. *
Author's Note: This is a one-shot fic. But if you want I could put up another chapter to conclude this.
IN MY HEART.
Hermione's POV
Through all those years, you've been in my heart. First time I saw you, I was struck by something. It seems like there was a connection between us. At that very moment, I developed a liking for you but not that strong. I managed to put that aside as I welcome our friendship.
Years had passed and I realized that my liking for was gone. It turned out that I fell in love with you. With you, I grew older. As I grew older, my love for you intensified. You were always the one able to see through me. I loved you not because of your fame, your money and anything else but because you are yourself. You always help people not even thinking what the consequences might be. You cared for everyone even those who you don't know.
I was contented being by your side. I was contented being your friend but that was until you changed. Not mentally, but physically. I manage to ignore the pain whenever I feel jealous of those girls who can express their feelings for you. But everything changed. You've changed into a young man. Many have noticed you. Who wouldn't? With a face appropriate to be an actor in Hollywood, a body to die for, and that boyish grin you wear. Basically, you're perfect. I hid my feelings for you in a shell and placed it in the farthest corner of my heart. I managed though barely but then, she came to you.
We were heading towards the Great Hall for breakfast when somebody tapped your shoulders.
"Hi Harry!" Cho said flirtatiously. It has been a year after Cedric died. Cho changed a lot, from the innocent one, to the seductive type.
"Ummm. Hi." Harry replied. Even though he changed, he still hadn't gone over stuttering when he sees Cho. He still has feelings for her.
"Do you mind if I talk alone to Harry?" Cho asked not so kindly. She was really trying to hint that she didn't want me there.
"O..Ok." I said reluctantly. I didn't want to leave Harry there but I know that he would really be happy if I leave.
I went inside the Great Hall feeling empty. I knew what she wanted with you. She is going to ask you out. For me, I feel like it's a bit extreme for a girl to ask a boy out but like I've said earlier, Cho changed. Harry never went inside the Great Hall. I knew that while I was eating, he was having a snogging session with Cho. My feelings for him are eating me up. I so wanted to tell him how much I love him. Then maybe he'll break up with Cho. Ha! Not a chance. Who would want to break up with such a lovely girl like her and be with a bookworm like me? True. I also changed but not as apparent as Harry did. I just grew a little bit taller and I got a little bit slimmer. I also got rid of my bushy hair by straightening it. But even with my change, I'm still not enough to match Cho.
I tried avoiding you but I didn't succeed.
"Hey, Hermione!" Harry called.
I ignored him and quickened my pace. He still persisted and tried to keep up with me. Eventually, he was able to catch me. He held my hand to stop me from running away from him again. I felt my breathing quicken. You were holding my hand. I felt like I was in heaven but my trance was broken when you spoke sadly.
"Hermione, is there something I did that you didn't like?" Harry asked sadly.
Here he is again. Thinking that he made something wrong. If only you knew how much I love you. If only you knew how much I hate to see you with Cho. But I can't tell him that. It would break our friendship.
I looked him in his face to answer his question but I wasn't able to. His emerald green eyes captivated my attention once more. I wasn't able to speak but the sad glint told me to speak.
"No. Nothing." I told him.
"Then, why are you ignoring me?" he asked wondering if there was something going on.
I gave him a weak smile. "I'm not ignoring you. I'm just having a lot of trouble doing all those stuff in Transfiguration."
Really! Why do I have to say Transfiguration. I really am having a hard time in Transfiguration but I already know what he'll say about that.
"Is there something I can do for you?" He asked.
I knew it! He's so caring. That's one of the things that I love in him. Actually, I love everything in him but, Oh well!
"Umm. no. I can manage." I said.
"Ok. But if ever you need my help, just tell me and I'll be there." He grinned.
Oh my god! Here he is again grinning at me. I knew I had to get out of that place right that instant or else he'll see me glowing bright red from blushing.
"Ok! Gotta go! Bye!" I said hurriedly.
From that day on, I never tried avoiding you again.
I don't really know what more I can do. My feelings for you are so strong that I can't even think right. I was so stressed out by that but something more came.
I was sitting in the Common Room alone when I saw Ron came down the staircase. I gave him a weak smile.
"Can't sleep?" I asked. And to my horror, he blushed. Uh oh! I don't like this.
"Yeah. You?" He asked while blushing.
"Same." I said. When he blushed, a thought already came to my mind. He likes me? In my mind I know that I can't take it anymore. I'm already having my problems with Harry and then Ron comes along telling me he likes me. I wouldn't really appreciate that. I just hope he wouldn't.
"Umm.. Hermione." he stuttered.
Uh oh!
"What is it?" I asked nervously. No! Don't! Don't like me please! I remembered the time in my third year when Ron got mad at me when I was with Viktor in the Yule Ball. Then the other times when he gets mad when I tutor some guys. It really matches. He likes me! But I could be wrong right?
"I like you." He blurted out.
I paled. I know I couldn't let him go without an answer.
I smiled at him sadly.
"I'm sorry." I said and I turned away not wanting to see the sad look in one of my bestfriend's eye.
"Why?" he asked.
Because I love Harry, my mind screamed but I couldn't tell him that so I remained quiet.
"You love Harry, don't you?" He asked me.
I was shocked. How did he knew? I never told him anything.
"How?"
He gave a sad chuckle.
"It's quite obvious. I was always looking for you and many times I can see you staring at him. The others were oblivious to it but we've spent so many times and I knew the look you're giving him was the same look I was giving you." He said sadly.
Now, I really felt sorry for Ron. If only I could control my feelings, I would have told it to just return the feelings to Ron but I know I can't.
"Are you mad?" I asked softly. I don't want our friendship to be ruined by this.
"Mad? Me?" He asked while laughing but I can see that there was a tear that leaked in his eyes. "Nope! Maybe sad, but only a little. So, want me to help you with Harry?" He asked.
It was so kind of him to me that but no, Harry won't be happy with me so I shook my head vigorously.
"Don't bother. Harry won't have a wonderful time with me. Cho makes him happy so let them be." I told him sadly.
"But." he tried to explain but I didn't let him.
"I'll be fine. Really." I gave him a smile to reassure him.
He sighed and said, "Ok. But if ever you want me to help, just tell me and I'll be there."
Those words. Those were the same words Harry told me. I wanted to cry but I don't want Ron to see me.
"I'll go upstairs now. I'm feeling sleepy." I faked a yawn. "Good night." And I ran upstairs.
I just cried myself to sleep. Harry will never be mine.
Up to now, I know that you will never be mine. A part of me is happy cause you are. But a part of me kept on weeping sadly for I didn't have the time to be with you. Luckily, our friendship is still there, as strong as ever. I guess I just have to depend on our friendship, forever.
Author's Note: Well, it's finished. If ever you want a conclusion for this, just ask me. If ever I have enough reviews telling me to do so, then I will post it.
* I didn't have anything to do. I tried to continue my other stories but I can't so I just did another one. Hope you like it. *
Author's Note: This is a one-shot fic. But if you want I could put up another chapter to conclude this.
IN MY HEART.
Hermione's POV
Through all those years, you've been in my heart. First time I saw you, I was struck by something. It seems like there was a connection between us. At that very moment, I developed a liking for you but not that strong. I managed to put that aside as I welcome our friendship.
Years had passed and I realized that my liking for was gone. It turned out that I fell in love with you. With you, I grew older. As I grew older, my love for you intensified. You were always the one able to see through me. I loved you not because of your fame, your money and anything else but because you are yourself. You always help people not even thinking what the consequences might be. You cared for everyone even those who you don't know.
I was contented being by your side. I was contented being your friend but that was until you changed. Not mentally, but physically. I manage to ignore the pain whenever I feel jealous of those girls who can express their feelings for you. But everything changed. You've changed into a young man. Many have noticed you. Who wouldn't? With a face appropriate to be an actor in Hollywood, a body to die for, and that boyish grin you wear. Basically, you're perfect. I hid my feelings for you in a shell and placed it in the farthest corner of my heart. I managed though barely but then, she came to you.
We were heading towards the Great Hall for breakfast when somebody tapped your shoulders.
"Hi Harry!" Cho said flirtatiously. It has been a year after Cedric died. Cho changed a lot, from the innocent one, to the seductive type.
"Ummm. Hi." Harry replied. Even though he changed, he still hadn't gone over stuttering when he sees Cho. He still has feelings for her.
"Do you mind if I talk alone to Harry?" Cho asked not so kindly. She was really trying to hint that she didn't want me there.
"O..Ok." I said reluctantly. I didn't want to leave Harry there but I know that he would really be happy if I leave.
I went inside the Great Hall feeling empty. I knew what she wanted with you. She is going to ask you out. For me, I feel like it's a bit extreme for a girl to ask a boy out but like I've said earlier, Cho changed. Harry never went inside the Great Hall. I knew that while I was eating, he was having a snogging session with Cho. My feelings for him are eating me up. I so wanted to tell him how much I love him. Then maybe he'll break up with Cho. Ha! Not a chance. Who would want to break up with such a lovely girl like her and be with a bookworm like me? True. I also changed but not as apparent as Harry did. I just grew a little bit taller and I got a little bit slimmer. I also got rid of my bushy hair by straightening it. But even with my change, I'm still not enough to match Cho.
I tried avoiding you but I didn't succeed.
"Hey, Hermione!" Harry called.
I ignored him and quickened my pace. He still persisted and tried to keep up with me. Eventually, he was able to catch me. He held my hand to stop me from running away from him again. I felt my breathing quicken. You were holding my hand. I felt like I was in heaven but my trance was broken when you spoke sadly.
"Hermione, is there something I did that you didn't like?" Harry asked sadly.
Here he is again. Thinking that he made something wrong. If only you knew how much I love you. If only you knew how much I hate to see you with Cho. But I can't tell him that. It would break our friendship.
I looked him in his face to answer his question but I wasn't able to. His emerald green eyes captivated my attention once more. I wasn't able to speak but the sad glint told me to speak.
"No. Nothing." I told him.
"Then, why are you ignoring me?" he asked wondering if there was something going on.
I gave him a weak smile. "I'm not ignoring you. I'm just having a lot of trouble doing all those stuff in Transfiguration."
Really! Why do I have to say Transfiguration. I really am having a hard time in Transfiguration but I already know what he'll say about that.
"Is there something I can do for you?" He asked.
I knew it! He's so caring. That's one of the things that I love in him. Actually, I love everything in him but, Oh well!
"Umm. no. I can manage." I said.
"Ok. But if ever you need my help, just tell me and I'll be there." He grinned.
Oh my god! Here he is again grinning at me. I knew I had to get out of that place right that instant or else he'll see me glowing bright red from blushing.
"Ok! Gotta go! Bye!" I said hurriedly.
From that day on, I never tried avoiding you again.
I don't really know what more I can do. My feelings for you are so strong that I can't even think right. I was so stressed out by that but something more came.
I was sitting in the Common Room alone when I saw Ron came down the staircase. I gave him a weak smile.
"Can't sleep?" I asked. And to my horror, he blushed. Uh oh! I don't like this.
"Yeah. You?" He asked while blushing.
"Same." I said. When he blushed, a thought already came to my mind. He likes me? In my mind I know that I can't take it anymore. I'm already having my problems with Harry and then Ron comes along telling me he likes me. I wouldn't really appreciate that. I just hope he wouldn't.
"Umm.. Hermione." he stuttered.
Uh oh!
"What is it?" I asked nervously. No! Don't! Don't like me please! I remembered the time in my third year when Ron got mad at me when I was with Viktor in the Yule Ball. Then the other times when he gets mad when I tutor some guys. It really matches. He likes me! But I could be wrong right?
"I like you." He blurted out.
I paled. I know I couldn't let him go without an answer.
I smiled at him sadly.
"I'm sorry." I said and I turned away not wanting to see the sad look in one of my bestfriend's eye.
"Why?" he asked.
Because I love Harry, my mind screamed but I couldn't tell him that so I remained quiet.
"You love Harry, don't you?" He asked me.
I was shocked. How did he knew? I never told him anything.
"How?"
He gave a sad chuckle.
"It's quite obvious. I was always looking for you and many times I can see you staring at him. The others were oblivious to it but we've spent so many times and I knew the look you're giving him was the same look I was giving you." He said sadly.
Now, I really felt sorry for Ron. If only I could control my feelings, I would have told it to just return the feelings to Ron but I know I can't.
"Are you mad?" I asked softly. I don't want our friendship to be ruined by this.
"Mad? Me?" He asked while laughing but I can see that there was a tear that leaked in his eyes. "Nope! Maybe sad, but only a little. So, want me to help you with Harry?" He asked.
It was so kind of him to me that but no, Harry won't be happy with me so I shook my head vigorously.
"Don't bother. Harry won't have a wonderful time with me. Cho makes him happy so let them be." I told him sadly.
"But." he tried to explain but I didn't let him.
"I'll be fine. Really." I gave him a smile to reassure him.
He sighed and said, "Ok. But if ever you want me to help, just tell me and I'll be there."
Those words. Those were the same words Harry told me. I wanted to cry but I don't want Ron to see me.
"I'll go upstairs now. I'm feeling sleepy." I faked a yawn. "Good night." And I ran upstairs.
I just cried myself to sleep. Harry will never be mine.
Up to now, I know that you will never be mine. A part of me is happy cause you are. But a part of me kept on weeping sadly for I didn't have the time to be with you. Luckily, our friendship is still there, as strong as ever. I guess I just have to depend on our friendship, forever.
Author's Note: Well, it's finished. If ever you want a conclusion for this, just ask me. If ever I have enough reviews telling me to do so, then I will post it.