I stay awake at night staring, staring at her. Yes, I realize I sound a tad bit freaky but I can't help it. She has ruined everything.
I watch as she slumbers peacefully. If I wasn't so god damn proud I would shake her awake and beg. Beg her not to steal the boy….man…I love, the man I am certain I'm meant to be with. But I don't and I will never sink as low as to beg a preppy blonde bimbo to give up her…my…man!
Ok that was unfair, Lavender isn't that bad…I suppose. Although she was a bitch last year when she doubted Harry but that's all over now. I don't know if she knows what torture she puts me through everyday, she comes up to me with tones of questions about Won-Won , whether or not he'd like her perfect hair styled a certain way, what's his favourite perfume, whether he prefers red lipstick or pink etc etc.
I swear she knows. Her face is always contorted into an innocent façade but her light blue eyes betray the cruel amusement. Every single time I swear I see the corners of her mouth creep up in a smug smile.
Ok….Lavender IS that bad!
She knows!! She knows I liked him. I'm pretty sure the whole school knows I liked him and it was obvious he liked me….or so I thought. I would never ever date Seamus, I know how much that'd hurt Lavender. We may not be close friends but we've known each other for six years that should count for something. Shouldn't it?
But Noooooo, Lav-Lav had to be a selfish little cow, she had to take the one person I cherished more than my parents or Harry.
Well, two can play at that game.
I've always liked Seamus…as a friend of course. He always had a funny one-liner and a witty remark for me. He would hurt Ron the most I figured, they were mates and dorm buddies after all. I should just go downstairs tomorrow and ask Seamus to accompany me to Professor Slughorn's Christmas party. See how Ron likes them apples!
Even as the vicious pleasure ran through me as I thought of Ron's reaction, I couldn't help the twinge of guilt I felt. I don't want to hurt him….but he has hurt me beyond comparison.
Seamus seems like the perfect pay back. I know for a fact that Seamus had been Lavender's first love. Ever since the Yule ball she's been head over heels for him, I should know I had to endure countless hours of gossiping. Parvati would swoon over Dean and Lavender would declare her love for Seamus. I, I would sit on my bed quietly reading as always.
Well tomorrow, tomorrow I would show Ron I'm so over him (cough cough) and show Lavender what a mistake it was to double cross a Granger.
I woke up in a better mood than usual. Having spent my past few nights crying myself to sleep and waking up with a headache, the calm and peaceful sleep last night was welcomed with open arms.
I sit up in my bed; everyone else is still sleeping, and tiptoe downstairs into the common room. I sit on my favourite armchair and pull out a piece of parchment.
To Do List:
Finish Snape's essay on the properties of Dynosopiaweed.
Write to mom and dad
must remember to ask for new toothbrush.
3. Cause Ron and Lavender…especially Lavender…as much emotional pain as possible.
"Wow….that's quite a list" I hear a soft mutter from behind my left shoulder. I jump at least six feet into the air.
"Seamus!" I exclaim breathlessly "this…uhh this is nothing". I hastily scrunch up the paper and throw it into the fire.
He just stares at me, his hazel eyes full of understanding. "Do you want to talk?"
"About what? There's nothing to talk about…everything is fine and dandy" I put on the best smile I could muster but I can tell I didn't convince him.
I deflate and flop into the chair in defeat, he followed suit. "What are you doing up so early?" I inquire.
"Same reason as you" he gives me a crooked smile and stares into the fire.
Being in his presence made me feel at ease, there was a calming air about him and before I knew it I was spilling my heart out to him. "I love him…"I whisper "and it hurts to see him with another girl…surely you can relate?"
Seamus lets out a shaky breath and sighs "Yeah, I can. You know, if I wasn't such a coward I would've asked Lavender out already and we would be together and you and Ron would be together."
"Go to Slughorn's party with me" it came out without my permission, word vomit.
"Hermione" he begins softly "Ron is my mate and I L...Love Lavender. I know you don't like me in that way and I see you as a sister. Let's not cause any more trouble; it only spells more pain for the both of us".
I stand up, so does he. We stare at each other awkwardly for a moment until he pulls me into an embrace. "Thank you" I whisper in his ear.
"Anytime" he murmurs back "Oh and Hermione, I would go with McLaggen If I were you, He'd really get Ron riled up"