Hey guys, this is my first fanfic so go easy on me... i'll try upload as soon as possible. i hope you enjoy reading

Disclaimer: I OWN Nothing!! SM owns it all... although i wish i did own edward hahahaha oh well

Chapter 1:

BPOV

There he sat in his usual place, all by himself with not a care in the world. Ever since my first day here Edward Cullen always remained a mystery to me. Everyday he would sit in his usual spot under the large oak tree, beside the bike racks.

And as usual I would try and watch with out him noticing... I guess you could call me weird, but he seemed to amaze me. My name is Bella Swan and I am 16 and a half years of age. I don't really have many friends, I guess it could be because I am overly shy and anti social, but I seriously did try and make friends on my first day at Forks High, its just that everyone more or less gave me one look, stuck up they're nose and then kept walking. One of the only girls in the whole school who didn't stick they're nose up at me was my best friend Alice Cullen. She was Edwards's twin sister but…. Surprisingly they didn't really talk that much to each other. I often asked Alice why that was, and she just told me that he's got his own problems and wont let anyone help him, she never really told me anything else. Alice and I sat at our own little table probably around 10 metres away from where Edward sat. Alice didn't really have that many friends either, which was manly because her brother was an insanely gorgeous, anti socialist bad boy that did drugs, smoked and stayed up all night drinking his worries away. Well according to Alice that's what he did, so everyone always thought that, that's probably what she did to. But I can tell you now that, that is not the case!

I watched from a far, as Edward took out a cigarette and lighter from his coat pocket, and took a long drag. Followed by running one of his hands through his long, brownish red hair, that stood out in every direction possible, then ending with a quite sigh. I was brought out of my little moment as I heard Alice asking me if I would like to sleep over her house tonight, to help her prepare for the English test coming up in a few weeks.

"So Bella would you like to stay over mine tonight? Cause I really need help studying, and I thought that you were pretty good at English right? So why not ask for help from you" she smiled at me, basically bouncing out of her seat from excitement.

"Yeah, that sounds great Alice. I'll just need to check with my dad…" I replied

"YAY! I'm positive you will be able to come! I'll take you home after school and you can pack, then we'll go back to mine."

" Ok then, well I'll see you after class" I smiled at her, then grabbed my bag and left to get to history class early.

As I got into history class I was, as usual the first one there. So I took my normal seat up the back, and waited for the rest of the class to come in. After about 5 minutes the rest of the class started to forward in, followed by our teacher, Mrs Clark.

" Alright class, I want you to get out your notebook and pens, and start taking notes on this video. Because after it there will be a pop quiz." Mrs Clark told us.

The whole class groaned and started taking out their books from their bags, but just as was about to get mine out, in strolls Edward Cullen himself.

"Why are you so late Mr Cullen?" asked Mrs Clark, with a scowl on her face.

"I had things to do." He replied

"Well I suggest you head over to the office and get a late slip…… again…." She muttered under her breath.

With that he turned on his heel without a second glance and left the classroom. Mrs Clark looked a little flushed, but then continued to turn out the lights and pop the video cassette in. Although it was hard to see the TV from where I was sitting, it wasn't hard for me to tell that the video was on World War 1, which is what I learnt at my old school in phoenix. So this semester should be synch. During the first 10 minutes of the film Edward strolled back in, with his bag slung over one of his shoulders, and his hair looking messier then ever.

"Hmm, welcome back, Mr Cullen. Take a seat, and get out you note book and pen, because we will be taking notes on the WW1, then we will be taking a pop quiz" Mrs Clark told Edward.

He took his seat, in the middle of the classroom, right beside the window, so I had a perfect view of him. Not meaning to sound like a stalker or anything. After Edward took his seat, I started to think about what would happen at Alice's sleepover, I wonder if I Edward would be home?

I looked over at Edward to see what he was up to, and just as I suspected he was looking out the window, without a care in the world, when basically the rest of the class was hurrying, trying to get the notes down in time.

-RING-

"Alright class, it looks like we have run out of time, next time I see you, we will watch the rest of the video and then take the quiz. Have a lovely weekend!" Mrs Clark told us.

Wow! I can't believe how quick that class went. But at least that meant now I could go over to Alice's and find out what's going on in there home, and maybe get some answers as to why Edward is like this. I picked up my bag from under my seat, and walked by Edward just as he was getting something out of his bag.

"Hey Bella! Ready for our sleepover?" Alice said as she met me out side my classroom door.

"Oh, hey Alice, yeah I sure am!" I smiled at her.

"Ok, well lets get out of here, and over to my place!" she grabbed my hand and dragged me all the way out of the school and to her very flashy yellow Porsche.

"Alice, how does Edward get home?" I asked curious as to why he didn't ride with Alice.

"Oh, I think he usually walks home, its not that far I guess." Alice said, deep in thought.

The subject with her and Edward's relationship was always a very tense one, and she didn't really feel comfortable talking about it, even with me. So instead of questioning her further I slid into the passenger seat, and rejoiced at the comfortable feeling of her newly, polished leather seats.

The car ride to my house was a silent trip, which was very unusual for someone like Alice. Usually she could talk the legs off a chair! But I didn't question her about it, because that probably would have made it a very awkward car ride. So instead of talking I just turned up her radio and looked out the window.

When we finally got to my place, I jumped out of the car and peered through the window.

"I'll be no more then 5 minutes I promise" I said

"Okie dokie" she replied, back to her usual self, which put a smile on my face.

So I ran into the house, luckily dad wasn't home, so I didn't have to explain to him where I was going. I raced up the stairs, and grabbed a duffle bag out from my wardrobe and threw in a pink tank top, baby blue pyjama shorts for tonight, and also my black skinny jeans, and Patrick and SpongeBob shirt for tomorrow, along with the necessary toiletries, and a pillow and sleeping bag. After all that was done I grabbed everything and made my way down the stairs, and into the kitchen. I grabbed a note book that was beside the phone and wrote a message for dad.

Hey dad,

Bella here. Just letting you know that im staying over Alice's tonight, she needs help studying for English, and I'm gonna try help her. There's some left over spaghetti in the fridge for dinner.

Feel free to ring me when you get home

Love Bella.

I put the note on the table, grabbed my stuff and walked out the door, making sure it was locked before I left. Other wise my chief of police father would be very unhappy.

"Ok, I'm already and packed" I said to Alice as she took off, out of my driveway.

"Oh this is going to be so much fun! We can stay up late, tell stories, watch movies and I sooo have to give you a make over!" Alice beamed with excitement.

"I'm fine with everything but the makeover"

"But Bellaaaaa…. Please… it will be fun!" She said, while using her puppy dog pout at me.

"No! That pout will not work on me missy! If you want help studying, you will not be giving me a makeover!"

"Ok, fine! I'll just have to settle with painting your nails then." She said.

"Fine by me"

By the time our bickering had finished, we had arrived at her house. I had never been to her house, so this was the first time I ever saw it. It was a nice, 2 story, wooden house. You could tell that it was quite old, but it did look very homey and sweet. It looked like it needed a little bit of maintenance, but who was I to judge.

I must have been staring for a while because I was brought out of my haze as Alice asked me a question.

"Not what you expected was it? Most people think that Edward and I live in a 3 story house, just because our father is a well known doctor. But…..This is it." Alice said, not looking too proud.

"Well… it's not what I expected, but it is very homey and cute…..I like it." I smiled at her.

As we walked through the front door, the house looked clean, but it also looked like nobody lived in it. The stair case was in front of the main entrance and you could see that there were a few photographs hung up along the wall. But other then that the house looked very dull, a lot of the furniture looked very old, but you could tell it was antique.

"My dad doesn't really like much colour in the house, don't ask me why, that's just his way." Alice told me

"Oh, ok then" I replied trying not to sound to mean.

"Come, I shall give you a tour of the house" she giggled

Alice dragged me, by hand through the first floor of the house. It all looked very nice, but like I said before, there was only necessary furniture or supplies in the house, you could tell Mr & Mrs Cullen hated Clutter of any sort.

As we made our way up stairs I looked at the photos hanging on the wall. The first was one of the whole family, probably when Alice was around 5 or 6. Mr and Mrs Cullen were holding hands sitting on the sand at the beach smiling at each other, and Edward and Alice were building a sand castle laughing their heads off. The next one was Edward and Alice when they were around the age of 10 I think. It was snowing and Edward was making a snowman, while Alice was on the ground making a snow angle. You could tell that there was a photo missing after that because there was an empty space where it should have been.

"Alice where's the photo that went here?" I asked out of curiosity

"Oh, my dad took that one down. It was one of him and my mum about 5 years ago, she died a little after it was taken, and he hated always looking at it, so he threw it in the bin. But don't worry I took it out if the bin and put it in my room" she gave me a sad smile.

"Oh Alice! Im sooo sorry, you never told me she passed away" I went up to her and gave her a hug.

"Well you never really asked, but don't worry it was ages ago. Come on lets go." And she continued walking up the stairs.

When I got to the last photo on the wall, I realised that it was obviously a recent one of the kids at a barbeque, Alice was sitting on a bench smiling the biggest smile I have ever seen, she had her arm around Edward, but Edward looked very unhappy, you could see he had a cigarette in his left hand and he had is usual scowl on his face, you could see in the background other kids and family members.

"That one was taken only a few weeks ago at out family BBQ" Alice must have noticed me staring at it, because she came up to me and started talking about the photo.

"My Aunty wanted a photo of all her nieces and nephews, so she got Edward and I together and took a photo. I was only so happy because she said a really funny joke before it, so I was practically laughing my head off, but as you can see, Edward wasn't that happy. Next family barbeque I'll have to invite you along, we usually have a lot of fun." She beamed at me

"I wouldn't want to impose on your family though" I said

"Nonsense! you wouldn't be imposing…. Now anyway come along, I haven't finished the tour yet!" she said grabbing my hand again, giggling along the way.

We turned left at the top of the stairs and she showed me her dads room, then next was the bathroom, then the next door she opened was Edwards bedroom. I was a little shocked to see that he actually had a bookshelf full of books, even some of my favourites, he even had an old looking guitar, but other then that all you could see were empty cigarette packets and empty beer or whisky bottles.

"Its quite sad really, Edward used to be a really good kid with good grades and he would always play his guitar and show me all the songs he had come up with. But I haven't seen him touch it in years" Alice told me looking at the guitar in the corner.

"Do you know why he stopped?" I asked

"Well…. Ever since my mum died, I guess he stopped playing it. And once he stopped playing it, things started to get weird."

"What do you mean by weird" I asked

"Let's go into my room, and I'll explain everything." She said grabbing my arm, and closing the door.

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