DISCLAIMER(for the whole collection): I do not own Fullmetal Alchemist or any of the songs I will be using, though not every chapter will have a song to go with it.
SONG: I'm Here by Aly and AJ, the second lyrics (at the bottom) is from Silence by Aly and AJ.
NOTE: I will say this once for all the chapters, (much like the disclaimer) I do not use lyrics from the whole song cause I don't write long chapters. I pick out the lyrics that I find best fitting and put them in the beginning. Anyway. That's that.
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THINGS LEFT UNSAID
Because the things left unsaid were, more often than not, the most important things. The things left unsaid, like so many things between them.
CHAPTER ONE
evanescent
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Evanescent
DEFINITION: Liable to vanish like vapour; fleeting; fading away; tending to become imperceptible; scarcely perceptible
No one needs to know how we feel
No one needs to understand
Cause they can't have a hold on us
It's not just any kind of love
I know when something is too sacred to touch
The past can't have a hold on us
For you my heart will give its trust
I don't need as much of you
I just need your love
Why let this go all the way down from here
I'm here
She knew. She knew because she always did, and because that was the way he was. She knew because of the sad smile on his face and because he had visited Maes' grave for the first time since Maes' feneral(his sense of closure). She knew because she always did when it came to matters surrounding Roy.
And he knew that she would know.
Carmine clashes harshly against obsidian, and hers are the ones to flutter away first. Despite their outer behaviour, he always had been the stronger one. There is silence and he quietly revels in the way, for the first time in a long time, no words or feelings or silent messages pass between them. For the first time, it is what it is.
Silence.
"Who will take your place?" she questions, her voice is quiet.
"You would be my first choice." her eyes remain glued to the floor and he sighs, shoving his hands in his pockets and muttering, "But that would be too much to ask of you, wouldn't it?" She nods, mumbling, "This is too much to ask of me." her voice is strained as she gets to the end of the sentence, and he does his best to ignore her pain.
"Havoc will take my place. He will be a fine leader. He's won't be the brightest Fuhrer, but his sense of righteousness is impeccable and Breda will help him. I thought of leaving the position to Armstrong, but I fear what will become of Amestris is I do." he smiles. His joke does not receive any response from her.
He shifts and scuffs his feet against the floor, watching her unmoving feet. It's odd, even in this moment, he in a white dress shirt and black pants, she is still in her military uniform. Her sixth sense, dubbed her 'Roy sense' by Havoc, is invariable.
"Please," he says, "Go, please go, Rize."
She shakes her head stubbornly, still staring at her own feet. His emotions rush and he isn't quite sure what it is he is feeling, but the next moment she is in his arms and his head is spinning as he kisses her. The eternity spent rising to his position at Fuhrer slip by effortlessly, replaced by the infinity within the second he spends kissing her. It's like there's no air in his lungs that his mouth can grasp as they both draw back. He's not sure whether it was he or she that had leaned forward first. He never did, not when their actions were so perfectly sychronized.
Her eyes are still brushing the floor and he reaches forward and yanks up her chin almost angrily, only to falter when he sees her tears.
"You are everything. Why?" she whispers, her breath catching at the end of her sentence as she gulps for air.
He smiles at her, and feels her jaw trembling. "I do not like who I have become. I do not like who I have had to become to get here. That is all."
"Then.. is this what we have been fighting for, all this time?" she asks, and he doesn't answer her. Her fire eyes flicker to his, and he holds her gaze. Once again, she is the one to turn away first. "You were always like that. I always-" her voice chokes off and her body staggers forward, slightly, "-always. You were always so fleeting, no matter how hard I tried to catch onto you, you always managed to slip from my grasp! I could never fully see you, no matter how hard I tried! Why do you-"
"You always had me, you know that." he croons to her.
And she knows there is no changing his mind.
She knows because it has always been that way. He will lead and she will follow, even as the flames whirl around them and sears at them, her hand clutching his jacket. She knows because it is their silent agreement and because she may know his every action, but never understand the reasoning behind those actions. He had always been the fleeting, evanescent one, and she had always been the one following him, even into Death.
I need a minute just to get to you
I feel like I might be getting through
Come over and say nothing
Silence is everything
I will forgive if you forget
All the things we said
Let's accept it
I need you, more than you'll ever know
I still do, willing to let it show
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Author's Note: Okay, so I don't know if that made sense to you. It made sense to me(obviously) cause I wrote it, but if it doesn't make sense at all (if you've read all the way down) to you, leave me a review and I'll try to rewrite this. (: