When You Come Back Down
Tall, dark and superman… He's got his mother's eyes, his father's ambition I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him.
You know he's a bit like superman. He has one fatal flaw and that is that he is totally oblivious. For a smart boy he doesn't see how much I miss him. But he just smiles and goes on with his good ole' life like everything's perfect. That really ticks me off.
"Hey, how are you?" he says so sweetly that I almost crack, almost. It boils my blood and I just want to scream every single thought that's rushing through my head but instead I dully reply,
"Fine, how are you?" Not showing much interest and never wavering. I can see he's caught off guard a bit by my polite response, but at least he noticed, for once. If I let myself care that's where I know everything will go wrong, because if I unlock the flood gates it will all come pouring out. Besides everyone else in my life has left me so, why wouldn't he?
I hang on every word you say; yay and you smile and say, "How are you?" I say, "Just fine" … And you'll leave, got places to be and I'll be OK I always forget to tell you I love you, I loved you from the very first day.
He says he has to go, probably just doesn't want to talk to me any longer. I've got loads of homework to do but I never cared before so why would I care now? I just watch as he walks away and out of sight before I start to decipher every move, facial expression, and word he uttered. It's pathetic but hoping and searching for something is all I have to keep me sane.
I can only keep wishing. Any ounce of hope I get is another step closer to getting him back. I can't help but want to stare into his deep brown eyes, it can be so hypnotizing, but I have built up so much control that I will never let myself get carried away.
And I watch you fly around the world and I hope you don't save some other girl
Later when I see him walk into the Groovy Smoothie with a girl I don't recognize, I don't even flinch. But when I see her grab his hand and kiss his cheek I know they're together. He doesn't see me, or so I thought but I get out of there so fast I can only hear my feet pounding the pavement. Running away is being scared and weak, I'm not either of those but when my knees buckle just short of Carly's door I realize that running makes me a coward.
I'm love-struck and looking out the window…
I only cry when I'm alone, I burst through Carly's door so fast then into tears before there's a chance to check. This time I couldn't hold it in any longer. I didn't hear the creak of the door or the footsteps coming towards me as I sit here sobbing loudly. I only felt it when he put his hand on my shoulder gently.
"What happened, Sam? Are you ok?" He said with concern trying hard not to flood me with questions. It's Freddie.
"Nothing, I'm fine." I wipe away the tears at lightning speed but I know he already saw. I'm sure that answer won't due for him, he's too stubborn and I know he won't leave without an explanation, but who said I wanted him too? Suddenly he pulled me into a tight embrace and I could hear my walls crashing down as I start to cry harder, and sobbing into his chest. I just could not deal with the misery anymore.
But I hope someday you'll take me away and save the day, yeah… I watch superman fly away I swear I'll be with you someday I'll be right here on the ground forever and ever here…
For now he didn't ask more questions, because letting him hold me was enough. Tomorrow will be a whole different story. I would be flooded with questions, like he was trying so hard not to do before.
Tomorrow he'll go and be superman again and be the best friend he can be because that's who he is and that's why I love him and someday he'll realize that and love me too.
I swear we'll be together someday, I know it.
When you come back down.