Disclaimer: I do not own anything in this story except for the plot. The Title of the story was taken from another book. The characters were created by Namco for the game title Tekken. As for me, the plot was original, the characters maybe OOC because this is an AU fic and in case you are wondering why do this fanfic is familiar, it's because I already posted this at fictionpress.net. The characters in fictionpress.net are different and the story line is slightly different. But I promise you that this story is different when it comes to the outcome of both stories. The one posted in fictionpres.net is based on a true story while the one posted here in ff.net is purely fictional and obscene.
Author's Note: This is my first time to write something like For Always. Please be kind, for I am not that great in Grammar nor story telling, I am just trying to put my ideas on paper. Comment, Criticisms and Suggestions are welcome, while flames will be used as heater here in Tagaytay Highlands. (Peace)
The Pairing in this story is Hwoarang and Xiaoyu…it's an AU!
She's Happy
But not because of me…
She's smiling
But not for me…
She's here
But not mine…
I've never felt this way before because it's the first time I really lost something important.
I saw her entered the restaurant. Her white ensemble was matching the cleanliness and purity of the roses she was carrying. Her hair, soft curls that fell just above her shoulder blades were immaculately done, and beautifully crafted to match her artistic spirit. The lights illuminated the perfectly fair skin of an angel descended from above. Her eyes, those of perfect almonds, were more sparkling than all the diamonds combined in the room. And, her hands, long fingers that lacked the callousness I possessed were intertwined with someone, someone I knew, someone she knew, someone she trust, and someone I can I never be.
***
As the clock strikes to twelve
I'm sitting here wondering how the hell
Did I let you leave…
And baby I know that I did my share
Of things to deceive you..
I'm just trying to get an understanding
of what to do…
Because I'm half way going crazy
Girl they can't fade me…
***
I remembered the first time I met her. I just came home from Sun Yin's cheering competition. The weather was just fine; everything was fine, except me. Then I heard my sister laughing her heart out with a joke she, a stranger shared with my enigmatic sister. I was startled, yes, but relived, she had no idea or whatsoever. Fast forward to the time we went to the park where I really saw her as a person and not just a tutor my mom enlisted for help. She was a warm person, I found out she was into arts, music, literature and humanities. I learned that she was deep, soulful and extemporaneous. And, I learned that she was a breathe of fresh air, apart from everyone, a treasure I found and a friend I desperately need, by myself, by the real me, and not because I am this and that.
***
He can't love you like I love you
Baby you know it too
And you should never wanna be with a man
If he can't be a man
And do the things to you like I can
***
I needed her back then, not because I love her nor she got something I'm in search of. But rather, I wanted her for the reason that she was the life I never had and I can never have. Everything around her was so fresh, different from the people I've gotten accustomed to. She never looked at me like I'm something out of the ordinary. She treated me like everyone else, she treated me nicely because I'm not the super handsome, super cool, super everything guy everyone expected me to be, never the less, she treated me that way because I'm human, a human being and not some near-perfect creature God created for his pleasure. Her friendship, she offered it to me. And, at first I was hesitant, but slowly, I've accepted it, like a moth to a fire, I was drawn to her fiery spirit.
***
I stop, and I wait, and I think
That I never met someone to make me feel
Like I'm ready to love
So I gotta do what I gotta do
Just to keep you
Keep you here with me baby
Now I feel it's time for me to say
That I need you boo
And I can't go a day without your loving
Baby I can't live without you
***
Then I found-out what's the real score, why she moved out of their house. I found-out that she was being beaten by her father. I knew, there was something wrong but I never thought that she was being maltreated. That night, I confronted her, I told her that I knew…and suddenly, tears started coming out of her eyes. The next moment, she was uncontrollable; her sobs rocked her frail body. At that moment, I knew, I just knew that she needed me like I needed her. I felt like I was at the right time and at the place. I finally felt that thing, most men talked about accomplishing something no amount of fame, money, intelligence could replace. And, I knew that I owed it to her. Then, we were healed, she was healed, I was healed.
***
I know you know
No matter if you want it baby
Ain't no ifs, or buts, or maybes
And I know that one day
You'll see that he can't really love you
Like I love you
***
Then, I felt it, the slow tugging of love in the deep recesses of my heart. I knew it was fatal because of the position I am in. I was with someone. I'm with someone I've loved nearly half my life and that someone I've committed my heart to. And, she was with someone, someone who loves her dearly, someone who cherishes her, and someone I'm close with. She was with Jin Kazama, the guy I set her up with. The guy I trusted to take care of her. The guy who eased her loneliness, the guy who devoted his entire being for her cause and the guy who is so unlike me in many ways that I can ever imagine. At first, I thought the idea of me, falling in love with her was pathetic, but somehow, my heart betrayed my mind, little by little, I saw myself needing her more than anyone else. I saw myself wanting to hug her, kiss her, love her, and tell her all the things my heart was screaming when she's with me and I'm with her.
***
He can't love you like I love you
Baby you know it too
And you should never wanna be with a man
If he can't be a man
And do the things to you like I can
***
I kept on loving her secretly. I somehow managed to go on with my every day life before she came around. I'm still with Sun Yin, with the gang, and I'm still with her; talking, traveling, constant companion and most of all a best friend she never had. But it all changed one fateful night. It was my time to get drunk. I was with her in a friend's party. Jin was out of town for a fund raising affair and it left me no choice but to accompany her. Then I saw some old friends. I was contentedly watching her from a distance, when Paul, invited me to drink. I agreed and while we were talking about our lives after we got off to high school I saw her picked a telephone call. I know it was Jin, and it made my heart sank deeper and deeper. Feeling that the alcohol made my life much easier, I devoured on it until I no longer feel the pangs of jealousy. I remembered exactly how it happened: We were on the back seat; I was listening to her while she was talking about Jin then without me knowing it, I held her face in my hands, I was looking in her eyes, and hers were boring onto mine. My drunkard ness was out of the picture. I know I was sober and I know that what was happening and it was not a dream.
"You know what?"
"What?" she answered.
"You're so beautiful," I continued, "I can kiss you right now"
"You're drunk, I think we sho---, "I silenced her, I know I'm not drunk and I know that what I am saying is true. I shook my head, as if to tell her that I'm not drunk. I let go of her face and I held her hand, placed it in my heart whose beating was doubled.
"I love you," I said, I looked into her eyes and I repeated what I've said. Her reaction was a mixed of confusion and disbelief. She didn't know how to react and I didn't what to do next.
"I've loved you ever since I can remember,"
"But what about Sun---"I silenced her yet again, knowing what she's about to ask...
"Please," I pleaded, "If you feel something, even just a little bit, let me know," I breathed, "I'm not asking you to reciprocate my feelings or something, I just want you to know that I truly, really love you." Then I let go of her hands. I looked away and I waited for the rejection that is inevitably next in line.
"I love you," she softly whispered. It was music to my ears. I looked at her and I saw tears brimming in her eyes. "You never knew, right?" she continued, "I've loved you ever since that time you asked me why my step dad beats me."
"Jin? what abo---"now it was my turn to be silenced.
"I do love him, but not as much as I've love you," she said while looking straight into my eyes. "But I was afraid, afraid that I'm the only one," she wiped the tears from my eyes. "And my greatest fear was confirmed when you set me up with Jin, I guess, it left me with no choice but to push through with it," I listened to her while she pour her heart and soul.
I traced her lips with my fingertips. I feel like I was touching something so fragile and beautiful. Everything was new, everything was in place, and suddenly as if magic enveloped as into its arms; we shared our very first kiss, a kiss that will forever be ingrained in my mind. A moment captured and felt with purity that matches that of heavens. And, everything I knew dissolved into that enchanted moment. Everything I've ever wished for and everything I've ever hoped for.
***
He can't love you like I love you
Baby you know it too
And you should never wanna be with a man
If he can't be a man
And do the things to you like I can
***
We became a couple, but only in our world. We knew we shared something special and we also knew that time was not on our side. Lei and some of my friends started noticing the changes I've developed over the time I was with her. The canceled night-outs, the excuses, the kiss marks, everything. And the last string came when Paul saw me walking out of her condominium. I knew that I have no way out and the only thing left to do is to tell Paul the truth, and nothing but the whole unadulterated truth.
I told him and he understood. I knew he did, he always does and what he told me was nothing I ever expected. "I know you love her, fight for her, you know what I mean," those were his words. I went home that day feeling resolute about telling Sun Yin something I've planned to do ever since I started my new life with Xiaoyu. But I didn't expect that she knew what was going on.
She was waiting for me, and from the looks of it she knew. I didn't know where she got it, but she knew. She confronted me about it and I told her the truth. But she didn't let me go. Instead, it was me who let go of something, something I should have never let go.
***
He can't, he can't love you girl
He's never gonna love you girl
Like I love you girl
***
I didn't know what happen but I know it was my fault. Weeks after that confrontation with Sun Yin, I decided to put things back into normal. I avoided her and I did it with much discreet. But fate has its idea of pain, and it has Hwoarang and Xiaoyu on it. I saw her again, and I found out that she broke-up with Jin in order to be with me. Being the idiot that I was, I told her that I can't leave Sun Yin for the very reason that Sun Yin needed me more than she needed me.
She didn't cry. She never screamed at me. Instead, she just stared me with pain etched on her face. I thought that having her screaming and ripping me apart was harder, but hell, was I so wrong. Looking at her, seeing her pained face, feeling the control she was trying so hard to maintain was harder than any curse she can give me.
Then, she ran away. She ran fast as she could. And that was the last time I saw her.
***
He can't, he can't love you girl
He's never gonna love you girl
Like I love you girl
***
After that incident I never saw her again. She quitted tutoring my sister. She quitted the organization she was a member of. The only time that I ever get to see her was in school and in parties.
And the most recent news I've heard of her is that she got back with Jin Kazama. I was surprised that he took her back, knowing Jin as a womanizer, I was flabbergasted to know that he really loved her that much to take her back in a way I was hoping he would not. I also tried calling her, but all she did was evade my calls and I'm can't help her if she's feeling that way, I left her like a jerk and I crushed her heart like a boulder to a cemented block.
***
He can't love you like I love you
Baby you know it too
And you should never wanna be with a man
If he can't be a man
And do the things to you like I can
***
Now, I sat here, staring at her, I knew that I was missing something. I knew that I let go of something irreplaceable and I also knew that what I once have was just a dream.
I know, and I can feel it in my heart, that she still loves me. But, as fate would like to put it…
***
I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been?
Through every day, into the night
With only love to guide us
I'm ready to go, coz I've got to know
What might have been?
Let the loving' decide, I can't run, I can't hide
I want you to know
My heart will show that I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be, a fool wondering what might have been
I've searched everywhere, and nothing compares
When we've got love to guide us
I'm ready to go, coz I wanna know what might have been
I'm wondering what might have been
We're gonna find what might have been
Oh I wanna know what might have been.
***
Author's Note: This is my first time to write something like For Always. Please be kind, for I am not that great in Grammar nor story telling, I am just trying to put my ideas on paper. Comment, Criticisms and Suggestions are welcome, while flames will be used as heater here in Tagaytay Highlands. (Peace)
Author's Note: This is my first time to write something like For Always. Please be kind, for I am not that great in Grammar nor story telling, I am just trying to put my ideas on paper. Comment, Criticisms and Suggestions are welcome, while flames will be used as heater here in Tagaytay Highlands. (Peace)
The Pairing in this story is Hwoarang and Xiaoyu…it's an AU!
She's Happy
But not because of me…
She's smiling
But not for me…
She's here
But not mine…
I've never felt this way before because it's the first time I really lost something important.
I saw her entered the restaurant. Her white ensemble was matching the cleanliness and purity of the roses she was carrying. Her hair, soft curls that fell just above her shoulder blades were immaculately done, and beautifully crafted to match her artistic spirit. The lights illuminated the perfectly fair skin of an angel descended from above. Her eyes, those of perfect almonds, were more sparkling than all the diamonds combined in the room. And, her hands, long fingers that lacked the callousness I possessed were intertwined with someone, someone I knew, someone she knew, someone she trust, and someone I can I never be.
***
As the clock strikes to twelve
I'm sitting here wondering how the hell
Did I let you leave…
And baby I know that I did my share
Of things to deceive you..
I'm just trying to get an understanding
of what to do…
Because I'm half way going crazy
Girl they can't fade me…
***
I remembered the first time I met her. I just came home from Sun Yin's cheering competition. The weather was just fine; everything was fine, except me. Then I heard my sister laughing her heart out with a joke she, a stranger shared with my enigmatic sister. I was startled, yes, but relived, she had no idea or whatsoever. Fast forward to the time we went to the park where I really saw her as a person and not just a tutor my mom enlisted for help. She was a warm person, I found out she was into arts, music, literature and humanities. I learned that she was deep, soulful and extemporaneous. And, I learned that she was a breathe of fresh air, apart from everyone, a treasure I found and a friend I desperately need, by myself, by the real me, and not because I am this and that.
***
He can't love you like I love you
Baby you know it too
And you should never wanna be with a man
If he can't be a man
And do the things to you like I can
***
I needed her back then, not because I love her nor she got something I'm in search of. But rather, I wanted her for the reason that she was the life I never had and I can never have. Everything around her was so fresh, different from the people I've gotten accustomed to. She never looked at me like I'm something out of the ordinary. She treated me like everyone else, she treated me nicely because I'm not the super handsome, super cool, super everything guy everyone expected me to be, never the less, she treated me that way because I'm human, a human being and not some near-perfect creature God created for his pleasure. Her friendship, she offered it to me. And, at first I was hesitant, but slowly, I've accepted it, like a moth to a fire, I was drawn to her fiery spirit.
***
I stop, and I wait, and I think
That I never met someone to make me feel
Like I'm ready to love
So I gotta do what I gotta do
Just to keep you
Keep you here with me baby
Now I feel it's time for me to say
That I need you boo
And I can't go a day without your loving
Baby I can't live without you
***
Then I found-out what's the real score, why she moved out of their house. I found-out that she was being beaten by her father. I knew, there was something wrong but I never thought that she was being maltreated. That night, I confronted her, I told her that I knew…and suddenly, tears started coming out of her eyes. The next moment, she was uncontrollable; her sobs rocked her frail body. At that moment, I knew, I just knew that she needed me like I needed her. I felt like I was at the right time and at the place. I finally felt that thing, most men talked about accomplishing something no amount of fame, money, intelligence could replace. And, I knew that I owed it to her. Then, we were healed, she was healed, I was healed.
***
I know you know
No matter if you want it baby
Ain't no ifs, or buts, or maybes
And I know that one day
You'll see that he can't really love you
Like I love you
***
Then, I felt it, the slow tugging of love in the deep recesses of my heart. I knew it was fatal because of the position I am in. I was with someone. I'm with someone I've loved nearly half my life and that someone I've committed my heart to. And, she was with someone, someone who loves her dearly, someone who cherishes her, and someone I'm close with. She was with Jin Kazama, the guy I set her up with. The guy I trusted to take care of her. The guy who eased her loneliness, the guy who devoted his entire being for her cause and the guy who is so unlike me in many ways that I can ever imagine. At first, I thought the idea of me, falling in love with her was pathetic, but somehow, my heart betrayed my mind, little by little, I saw myself needing her more than anyone else. I saw myself wanting to hug her, kiss her, love her, and tell her all the things my heart was screaming when she's with me and I'm with her.
***
He can't love you like I love you
Baby you know it too
And you should never wanna be with a man
If he can't be a man
And do the things to you like I can
***
I kept on loving her secretly. I somehow managed to go on with my every day life before she came around. I'm still with Sun Yin, with the gang, and I'm still with her; talking, traveling, constant companion and most of all a best friend she never had. But it all changed one fateful night. It was my time to get drunk. I was with her in a friend's party. Jin was out of town for a fund raising affair and it left me no choice but to accompany her. Then I saw some old friends. I was contentedly watching her from a distance, when Paul, invited me to drink. I agreed and while we were talking about our lives after we got off to high school I saw her picked a telephone call. I know it was Jin, and it made my heart sank deeper and deeper. Feeling that the alcohol made my life much easier, I devoured on it until I no longer feel the pangs of jealousy. I remembered exactly how it happened: We were on the back seat; I was listening to her while she was talking about Jin then without me knowing it, I held her face in my hands, I was looking in her eyes, and hers were boring onto mine. My drunkard ness was out of the picture. I know I was sober and I know that what was happening and it was not a dream.
"You know what?"
"What?" she answered.
"You're so beautiful," I continued, "I can kiss you right now"
"You're drunk, I think we sho---, "I silenced her, I know I'm not drunk and I know that what I am saying is true. I shook my head, as if to tell her that I'm not drunk. I let go of her face and I held her hand, placed it in my heart whose beating was doubled.
"I love you," I said, I looked into her eyes and I repeated what I've said. Her reaction was a mixed of confusion and disbelief. She didn't know how to react and I didn't what to do next.
"I've loved you ever since I can remember,"
"But what about Sun---"I silenced her yet again, knowing what she's about to ask...
"Please," I pleaded, "If you feel something, even just a little bit, let me know," I breathed, "I'm not asking you to reciprocate my feelings or something, I just want you to know that I truly, really love you." Then I let go of her hands. I looked away and I waited for the rejection that is inevitably next in line.
"I love you," she softly whispered. It was music to my ears. I looked at her and I saw tears brimming in her eyes. "You never knew, right?" she continued, "I've loved you ever since that time you asked me why my step dad beats me."
"Jin? what abo---"now it was my turn to be silenced.
"I do love him, but not as much as I've love you," she said while looking straight into my eyes. "But I was afraid, afraid that I'm the only one," she wiped the tears from my eyes. "And my greatest fear was confirmed when you set me up with Jin, I guess, it left me with no choice but to push through with it," I listened to her while she pour her heart and soul.
I traced her lips with my fingertips. I feel like I was touching something so fragile and beautiful. Everything was new, everything was in place, and suddenly as if magic enveloped as into its arms; we shared our very first kiss, a kiss that will forever be ingrained in my mind. A moment captured and felt with purity that matches that of heavens. And, everything I knew dissolved into that enchanted moment. Everything I've ever wished for and everything I've ever hoped for.
***
He can't love you like I love you
Baby you know it too
And you should never wanna be with a man
If he can't be a man
And do the things to you like I can
***
We became a couple, but only in our world. We knew we shared something special and we also knew that time was not on our side. Lei and some of my friends started noticing the changes I've developed over the time I was with her. The canceled night-outs, the excuses, the kiss marks, everything. And the last string came when Paul saw me walking out of her condominium. I knew that I have no way out and the only thing left to do is to tell Paul the truth, and nothing but the whole unadulterated truth.
I told him and he understood. I knew he did, he always does and what he told me was nothing I ever expected. "I know you love her, fight for her, you know what I mean," those were his words. I went home that day feeling resolute about telling Sun Yin something I've planned to do ever since I started my new life with Xiaoyu. But I didn't expect that she knew what was going on.
She was waiting for me, and from the looks of it she knew. I didn't know where she got it, but she knew. She confronted me about it and I told her the truth. But she didn't let me go. Instead, it was me who let go of something, something I should have never let go.
***
He can't, he can't love you girl
He's never gonna love you girl
Like I love you girl
***
I didn't know what happen but I know it was my fault. Weeks after that confrontation with Sun Yin, I decided to put things back into normal. I avoided her and I did it with much discreet. But fate has its idea of pain, and it has Hwoarang and Xiaoyu on it. I saw her again, and I found out that she broke-up with Jin in order to be with me. Being the idiot that I was, I told her that I can't leave Sun Yin for the very reason that Sun Yin needed me more than she needed me.
She didn't cry. She never screamed at me. Instead, she just stared me with pain etched on her face. I thought that having her screaming and ripping me apart was harder, but hell, was I so wrong. Looking at her, seeing her pained face, feeling the control she was trying so hard to maintain was harder than any curse she can give me.
Then, she ran away. She ran fast as she could. And that was the last time I saw her.
***
He can't, he can't love you girl
He's never gonna love you girl
Like I love you girl
***
After that incident I never saw her again. She quitted tutoring my sister. She quitted the organization she was a member of. The only time that I ever get to see her was in school and in parties.
And the most recent news I've heard of her is that she got back with Jin Kazama. I was surprised that he took her back, knowing Jin as a womanizer, I was flabbergasted to know that he really loved her that much to take her back in a way I was hoping he would not. I also tried calling her, but all she did was evade my calls and I'm can't help her if she's feeling that way, I left her like a jerk and I crushed her heart like a boulder to a cemented block.
***
He can't love you like I love you
Baby you know it too
And you should never wanna be with a man
If he can't be a man
And do the things to you like I can
***
Now, I sat here, staring at her, I knew that I was missing something. I knew that I let go of something irreplaceable and I also knew that what I once have was just a dream.
I know, and I can feel it in my heart, that she still loves me. But, as fate would like to put it…
***
I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been?
Through every day, into the night
With only love to guide us
I'm ready to go, coz I've got to know
What might have been?
Let the loving' decide, I can't run, I can't hide
I want you to know
My heart will show that I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be, a fool wondering what might have been
I've searched everywhere, and nothing compares
When we've got love to guide us
I'm ready to go, coz I wanna know what might have been
I'm wondering what might have been
We're gonna find what might have been
Oh I wanna know what might have been.
***
Author's Note: This is my first time to write something like For Always. Please be kind, for I am not that great in Grammar nor story telling, I am just trying to put my ideas on paper. Comment, Criticisms and Suggestions are welcome, while flames will be used as heater here in Tagaytay Highlands. (Peace)