Unimportance

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I Dont own the Buffy the Vampire Slayer... although that would be cool... (It are legally owned by... someone...who isn't me)

Chapter One: Dawnie's Forgotten Birthday

Dawn skipped happily into the kitchen only to se the fang Gang in full force. Dawn was wearing her best cloths and was whistling "Happy Birthday".

"Was with dress-up-ness Dawn?" Asked Xander as he loaded a crossbow with stakes and was whittling more stakes from the tree they had recently cut down. Dawn's eyes widen and her mouth opened.

"It is my BIRTHDAY!" She screamed Buffy and the gang froze. They all turned awkwardly and looked at Dawn's tearful face.

"Oh-no" Buffy said as she placed the crossbow on the table beside her. She was about to go over and comfort Dawn but Dawn would not let her near her.

"YOU FORGOT!" Dawn started to cry and then Spike came crashing in with his black blanket over him.

"Happy birthday Dawn- Oh crap what happened" Dawn's eyes widen more as she looked at Spike in complete disbelief.

"Even Spike remembered!" She went crying up to her room and laid silently on her bed. All you could hear was Dawn's collection of very, very sad songs.

"Oh you didn't... you forgot her birthday?" Even Spike looked to be in shock. He walked nearer to Buffy. "You know that was all she talked about for a long, long time..."

"I know... and I didn't mean to forget..." Buffy looked down sadly at her feet. "How could I forget and Spike remember," she said in her head"

"I'd better..." Buffy started but Spike butted in

"I'd better do some damage control... she I'd going to be completely pissed with you, you know" Buffy nodded and Spike went up to Dawn's room and kept his black blanket on at all time in case of an open window.

"Dawnie... let me in..." Spike begged and she came to the door then as soon as she opened it, she ran to close all the windows and laid back on the bed. "It is ok..." He said patting her back.

"How could she forget... even you remembered...?" She sobbed on her pillow. Spike stroked her hair.

"Well... she and the gang will be out... me and you will order pizza and trash the house... you in?" He joked, "Ok maybe not trash the house... but pizza and movie night and then we sneak to the Bronze." She smiled and nodded.

"Can I stay up here until then?" She asked wiping away a last tear. "Oh please Spike I don't want to move" She begged.

"Weekend I guess I could pretend you aren't here... and I will not let the gang up..." She hugged him and laid back on her bed. He walked down the stairs to Buffy.

"Is she..." Buffy started

"Is she pissed...? yeah... will not let the gang up... oh and she wants me to stay around here... she wants to stay in bed" Spike's hand drifted to his head.

"Fine... just... don't let anything in..." Buffy looked him in the eyes, "And how much does she hate me...?" Buffy looked to her feet.

"Enough that I wouldn't be surprised it she put your head to a punching bag and pretended it was you" He did not help and he knew that.

"Spike..." She looked at him with despise of what she was going to ask him "Take her to the Bronze tonight..." Xander and willow looked at Buffy in disbelief. "Money... top of fridge... no beer for her... agreed...? Also don't let her leave in half a dress." Buffy placed $65 dollars on top of the fridge.

"Ok I will take Dawn..." He noticed something wrong with this sentence. "Wait why me?" He looked very hard at gang as Giles walked in. "Hi Giles" Said everyone including Spike

"You will take her because you are the only one she feels like talking to at the moment... and we have a day demon hunt." Buffy picked her bag and so did the other members. Anya handed Giles a bag they had made for him.

"O-k-a-y... what time must she be home... I am betting she wants to go at night?" Spike asked and Buffy sighed. She was young once and she knew the Bronze was only fun at night but he was hoping Dawn did not know this fact though.

"Around 12 pm... and keep an eye on her... don't have to be there with her... just watch her" Spike agreed and Buffy, Anya, Willow , Xander and Giles walked out with their bags of weapons on their shoulders.

"Ok then..." He whispered as they left. "Dawnie want pizza?" He yelled up the stairs to Dawn's room. She did not answer. "Answer or we don't get any..." He still did not get any answer. "I am coming up..." He got his blanket and walked up the stairs.

"I'm not real, I'm not real, I'm not real" He heard this repeating from Dawn's room. He knocked down the door to find door sitting there with her arm bleeding and tears streaming down her face.

"Dawnie," He whispered and threw the knife to the other side of the room.

"It is why they didn't notice... it is why they don't care...," she sobbed to herself. It was almost as if she did not see Spike, Tears continued to stream down her prefect face.

Spike grabbed Dawn's chin and made her look him straight in his eye. "We do care... I... care" Spike looked at her in a father like way... but more. She smiled... just. She still felt as if she did not belong, she knew she would not outgrow this but she took comfort with Spike... he did not belong with the gang other wise he would be there.

"You do..." She cried/ whispered to him in disbelief. "He doesn't... like anyone cares about me at all..." She thought.

She had not been feeling like this for a while... the cut in her arm took away pain it did not take away tears or bring happiness and that Is what she lived off for a long time. Now she needed the pain to stop... more then anything in the world.

"Calm down..." Spike hugged her. "It will ok Little Bit... I won't tell big sis about this..." He packed up Dawn... set of knives; Dawn did not promise she merely looked at the knives as she thought of death. "Never ever think about... about..." He could not bring himself to say it

"What... about death... about eternal peace..." her tears increased and her want... no need to die increased with it. "I need it Spike... death... loss of life... I don't care I just want to leave!" She sobbed/ near yelled at Spike.

When you cry it makes the world to fade and nothing matters but the tears. But a memory struck her.

In her mind, she stood there at the top of the tower. Below her was Spike wounded and Buffy as fighting Glory. She won and ran to Dawn and embraced her in her arms. However, it had started and the portal had opened. Dawn could not live though this... not again. Dawn held her tears in her palms as Buffy in her memory spoke.

"The hardest thing in this world is too live in it... live Dawn... live for me..." Buffy's last words swirled in her head and she remembered why she held on to this world. She lived for them... Spike, Buffy, even Giles... she lived to be with them. She forced the tears back forced the need to be dead back and whispered...

"I will live for you..."

Ok not a long chapter... but I like it. If you hate it, say so. This is a first draft. I am deciding should there be a Spike/ Dawn couple. The story is not finished yet. (Hopefully)

Amara