Losing Myself

DISCLAIMER: I do not own anything relating to Harry Potter in any way, shape or form…except for the 10 books that I bought…and the many DVDS…and posters…and Tshirts…and video games…and…legos…figurines…well I think you get the picture.

CHAPTER ONE: PROLOGUE

I could barely feel my feet pounding against the pavement, I knew it was scratching and tearing into the exposed skin where my heels had been just minutes ago, and they were now most probably discarded on the road. My breath came quickly and my eyes stung and watered from the force of the wind, my voice was distant and I couldn't control the noises that were made as I ran through the alleyways, I was whimpering and an occasional sob would erupt from my parted lips. I felt something sharp dig into my heel and I yelped stopping for a moment before continuing to run, with a limp.

All of a sudden my left wrist burned and I fell, screaming, to the ground clutching at my skull as a slippery voice blossomed in my mind.

"Why must you always disappoint me?" it said.

"You were faithful to me once. It seems that now your allegiance has changed…or not. Make your choice quickly before I take back my offer" I whimpered as I heard the cold biting tone of the last few words. I moaned and pulled on my black hair, making it messier than it was already.

"NO!" I screeched. My voice hoarse from lack of use. I shook my head violently and the burning stopped, my fingers stopped pulling at my hair and I looking down at my left forearm, sure enough the snake that slipped through the jaw of the blackened skull which had been moving wildly only a few moments ago had ceased its movement. I sighed with hysterical relief and wiped my tear stained cheeks with shaking hands.

"You know that's not the end of it Bellatrix" the cold slippery voice spoke again, this time from behind me. I whirled around and gasped.

"My-My Lord…" I whispered weakly. His cold red gaze held mine as he came closer to me and finally grasped my tattooed forearm, I drew in a quick breath at the pain that it caused me but then passed it off as a cough. He looked down at me for a few moments and then let go of my forearm, once released I cradled it against my chest.

"You stupid little girl" he spat before grabbing hold of my hair and slamming me against the brick alley wall. I screamed and a small choked sob escaped from my lips. He leaned forward so his lips were at my ear.

"How dare you disobey me? You poor foolish girl. You were one of my favorites, my favorites don't last long" his whispers in my ear were quiet and sharp, like a knife cutting into my skin. I shuddered and whimpered, he responded by slamming me against the wall, again. He threw me down to the ground and towered above me; I put my back against the wall and curled up into a ball, trying to minimize the pain. He laughed cruelly and kicked me before pulling his wand from beneath his robes.

"Crucio" he snarled. I screamed before passing out and fading into the calm, peaceful darkness. Knowing it was the end, expecting the end, and receiving something entirely different.

Ok so this will only be a short fanfic, I've almost finished the whole thing, so there wont be a huge wait on the chapters :)

This idea sorta kinda just popped into my head, I didn't even know it was about bellatrix until I finished it and thought to myself "hey! That could be Bellatrix!" lol. It is very different to the type of thing i usually write, but change is good :)

The chapters are short I know but, it will be updated within a few days so its ok...I think :)

So! I hope you enjoy it, and don't forget to Review, if your reading it I believe that you should review or something, I think its only fair haha

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Mez x