AN: This is a Two-Shot. The idea kind of popped into my head the one day. This is one of my biggest fears so I hope I made it clear to you all. Ok... read! All Hail Rowling!

James approached the door slowly. He had no idea how to handle something like this. This was a whole different animal that no amount of training or experience could prepare him for. There was not a spell on Earth that could make this right.

James pushed open the door to reveal a dark room. It was high noon but the curtains were drawn so only a little light shown from the edges. The light from the hall cast shadows across the furniture. The bed, centered on the back wall, was perfectly made. On top of the covers was Lily, curled in a ball on her side.

James took a deep breath before entering the room. He then tread lightly on the carpet. He reached the bedside with Lily's back to him. James crawled onto the covers, fitting himself behind her perfectly. He laced his arms around her waist, pulling her closer.

In the proximity, James could hear the weeping. It had been off and on for days. Random moments of depression would overcome her and she would be useless. It would happen randomly: while she was eating breakfast, watching TV, baking cookies, or cleaning the bathrooms. She would stop, her eyes welling with tears, and she would go to their room for hours and just weep. At first, James thought it was just the war finally getting to her, but he quickly figured it out.

She had been like this ever since their meeting with the doctor. James and Lily had decided not to wait on having a baby. They had been fighting this war since they had left Hogwarts and they knew it would be over soon. A baby was their next step in their life together and the war was not going to stop them. After a year and a half of no luck, they visited the doctor. After a number of x-rays and procedures, the doctors told her she was infertile. There was not a large explanation, just that sometimes these things happen and there are a lot of people who aren't fertile. She hadn't failed, but it certainly had hit Lily hard. She wanted a baby so badly.

You see, during her episodes Lily would hold onto a stuffed bear that her mother had given to her as a small wedding present. Her mother had stage three breast cancer and wasn't estimated to live long after the wedding. So she gave Lily the bear as an early baby shower gift. It was going to be the baby's first toy. Lily would hold the bear close, with tears coating the stuffed head.

"Lils?" James asked tentatively. He wasn't sure if she'd respond, it depended on the day.

"Hmmm?" she answered, not moving a muscle.

James started to stroke Lily's hair. It helped calm her down and James was looking for anything. He said, "I know what's wrong, Lily. I know and I understand."

Lily tucked her head farther down. She was shaking her head, clutching the bear tighter. "You can't possibly know what I'm going through, James." She paused before continuing. "It's not your fault. It's just impossible for you to know. For as long as I can remember I've wanted to have children, to be a mother. I wanted to be able to carry a life inside of me. A life that you and I had created. Now with one doctor's visit, I find out it's impossible. I will never have a baby boy growing and kicking inside of me. I will never hold my baby girl in my arms and sing to her. I'm a dead end! I'm useless! It's like I've lost some light inside of me and now all that's left is a dark, aching hole in my chest. My life has no purpose..." and with that her weeping started up again.

James felt powerless. His true love was in shambles and there wasn't a way to comfort her. He felt the pain Lily felt. He felt crushed, but more so, he felt angry. Why was Lily, the light of the world and his life, the kindest, most loving person in the world, not allowed to be a mother? Why were Deatheaters allowed to have children, but not Lily?

It was inconceivably unfair and James was infuriated. But he knew he couldn't show it, it would only upset Lily more to see him angry. So he continued to stroke her hair, calming her. When she was quiet, he started again.

"Lily, you are not useless. Your life has immense purpose. Stop thinking like a Healer and genetics and think about how many lives you've affected. Without you, Marlene McKinnon would have been destroyed by the Carrows. Without you, Lupin would have never had the courage to take on the werewolf missions. Without you, Sirius would have never passed Potions in 7th year and wouldn't have been able to save my life at the Malfoy Manor. Without you, I would be lost. Lily, you are my entire life. Never say that you have no purpose. You make me the happiest man on Earth and the best version of myself.

"I know you want a baby. I do too. It would make me even happier to share the life with you. But you can't blame yourself because it could happen to anyone..."

"Not to you," Lily interjected.

"No, not to me, but to plenty of women out there. There are women just like you that can't get pregnant. That doesn't make them any less of a person or woman. They are still important people. It's the same with you, Lily."

At this he twisted Lily's torso toward him. He spoke directly to her face, "You are wonderful, fertile or not. You are my perfect Lily and I wouldn't change anything about you. Sure, we can't make a baby. We'll adopt if we really want to. Do not blame any of this on you."

Lily turned to completely face James. He laid back down on the covers, still looking into her eyes. Lily sighed and she placed the bear behind her. She laced her arms around her love and pulled him close. James tightened his embrace and pressed his lips to her forehead. Lily tilted her head up to meet his lips.

When they met, Lily wanted nothing more than to be even closer to him. She wanted to feel him against her entire body. "James," she whispered.

"Yes, Love?" he asked still trailing his lips across her neck.

Lily took a deep breath before continuing. "I want you to make love to me, right now."

James stopped his kisses. He looked at Lily's face. His expression was pained. He didn't want Lily fall into this state again. "Lily..."

"No, James. We're not trying to get pregnant. I want you to do it because I want to be as close to you as I can right now. I love you, James. You are my world and have been for a long time. I never want to be without you. You are the love of my life and I want to make love to the love of my life. Is that a crime?"

James gave a small smile before kissing Lily again. They both were overwhelmed by the passion flowing between them. James surfaced only to say, "No it's not, my love," before falling into the deep passion growing within them.

AN: Crushing you, right? Probably not, but that's ok. I just needed to get this on a doc before I completely lost it. But yes, this is one of my biggest fears as a maturing woman. I have never had a regular woman cycle and I'm terrified that something like this will happen to me. Sorry for the personal info, but it has been pretty relevant lately and it was too perfect a story line to give up. The second part of this will hopefully be up soon. I'm also working on my larger story at the same time, so we'll see how it goes. Ok, I'm done now. :) Review if you want. I always appreciate them. :)