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Rating: PG

Summary: He's pretending ... lying ... what's worse she believes him. And so, both of them are living in a lie

A/N: Before anything, I would just want to warn you all that this though I haven't finished this fic yet, it already is the longest thing I've ever written, and I would like to apologize if ever I bore you sometime in the future. Anyways, here is the first chapter ... Song used here is 'In the late of night' sang by Toni Braxton. Cath's POV

Chapter one: In the late of night

Always thought your promise was for life
I did not think that I
would hear you say good-bye

I'm so tired. I need to get some sleep.

I lay here alone in my bed seems a little uncomfortable; I became so used to sleeping with Gil beside me, honestly it has been long since he has been here, I think he's keeping something from me.

I have tried to talk to him a number of times before but it was of no use, he wouldn't talk to me, he wouldn't let me reach him. That's probably why I haven't had good sleep for a week now.

Hmm.... My eyes are starting to fall...

"Cath"

Wow, I'm dreaming already, he's staring at me with his beautiful blue eyes so I smile at him.

"Cath", And now I know that this is not a dream, coz I feel his fingers touching my face.

I sit up straight and I can feel a smile on my face. I give him a hug, a hug that says I miss him, and that I love him.

"Cath" I hear him murmur. He backs away from my embrace; he cups my face and brushed his lips to mine.

And I always heard you led another life
I doubted every time
I guess my love was blind

Just as I was about to deepen our kiss, he stands up holding my hands down.

"Gil?"

"I'm leaving" He's going home already??

"Why don't you just sleep here?" I suggested, ever since we've been together, one year eleven months and thirty days, yep that's right just one more day and it will be our second anniversary! Hmm, that's probably why he's been acting weird, a few months ago I over heard him telling Warrick that he's going to ask me to marry him on our second anniversary.

Well, maybe he was really nervous, and that's why he's been acting weird. Or maybe he's confused. If he is confused then I'll just tell him that I'm not in a hurry, honestly I can wait, no matter how long as long as we're together, I don't care when the hell we're getting married as long as I know he loves me and I love him ... that's enough for me.

"No Cath. I'm leaving"

"Leaving? Leaving, to where?"

"I have no plans of telling you where"

"Okay. Well um. When are you coming back?"

"I don't know"

"What do you mean you don't know?!" What the hell is he talking about? Is this some sick joke!?!

"I don't know when or if I will."

"Gil what are you saying, I don't understand"

Cause in my eyes
Love was always something magical
But the feeling is so tragic for
And all I know is in love
The thing that I want most
I can't possess
There's only emptiness

"I'm leaving you. Good bye Catherine"

"Gil! Wait!" I jump out of bed and try to chase him. I continuously call for him to stop but he wouldn't stop and just saunter out my house.

"Gil!!" I call on the top of my voice; I bang my fist on the window of his car.

Gil lowers down the window car, "I'm sorry Catherine"

"Why?"

"Trust me Cath, this is the for the best."

In the late of night
Just before I closed my eyes
You lied
As you kissed me goodnight

With that I watch his car speed off. He ran off, he ran off and left me standing here alone.

I'm standing here alone bare foot out side my house wearing a night gown as the rain continuously pours over me.

All soaked I walked back inside my house. I close the door behind me and let my tears fall down from my eyes.

Lindsey's asleep upstairs so I try to be as quiet as I can; I took tonight off hoping that tomorrow morning I could whip up something special for Gil. Guess I won't be pursuing with that plan anymore.

In the late of night
Just before I closed my eyes
I cried
as you kissed my lips good-bye

Why did he leave? Was it something I did? Where have I been wrong?

Doesn't he feel anything for me anymore?

Is there some body else?

He said this will be the best. The best for whom? For him?

In my eyes you will always be the lucky one
Cause you know you'll always have my love
For all time until I die
Through the end I give to you my best
You gave, you gave me loneliness

I don't know what's happening. I don't know what I should feel.

Maybe I should be happy, happy coz at least he came by to say goodbye.

Or maybe I should be angry. Angry that he left just like that. He left with one bid of good-bye and that's that, no further explanation.

I could also be hopeful. Hopeful that he'll be back soon.

No, wait. I think I know... I should, I could and I would believe that this is all a dream.

A very bad dream.

Tomorrow morning I'm going to wake up in my bed with a smile on my face, I'll cook breakfast and wait for him to come by. He's going to arrive here at my house, open the door with his spare key, he's going to try to surprise me but end up being the one surprised. – I know for sure that he'll come by, that's how well I know him.

He's going to arrive and we're going to eat the meal I prepared, he's going to AGAIN give me the perfect gift.

What gift is it that I am talking about, you might ask.

Well, it's none other than his love.

And in return, I'm going to give him the one thing I could and want to give him...

My all.

In the late of night
just before I closed my eyes
you lied
as you kissed me goodnight

He is everything to me, and he knows that.

I am everything to him... that's what he told me a few days ago.

He told me he love me.

That he cares for me.

That I'm everything to him.

And a few minutes ago, he just told me that he's leaving me.

What should I believe?

Well what I believe totally depends on me, so in this case I believe what he has told me a few days ago. That he loves me, that he cares for me, that I'm everything to him.

I'm going back to bed now.

Tears are still freely falling from my eyes. I don't know why I'm still crying, I know that this can't be true, but why am I still crying?

I'm going to sleep now. And when I wake up, I'll know that this is just a dream ...

A very bad dream.

In the late of night
Just before I closed my eyes
I cried
As you kissed my lips good-bye

TBC

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