Prologue:/ /Chained
"For me, insanity is super sanity. The normal is pshychotic. Normal means lack of imagination, lack of creativity."- Jean Dubuffet
I embrace my insanity
it shackles me to no more
than a fleeting glimpse of myself,
a thought, a speckle of reason
a constant reminder of why I'm here,
mortally bound to a mind that seeks to be free of the self
asking answers of questions not yet born.
-Folasayo Dele-Ogunrinde
Chained. Chained to a chair, darkness permeating the blindfold over my eyes. A balloon tied around my neck. Struggle you say? I could hardly care… I'm messed up they say. One day I'll break out of these blindfolds and chains and laugh in their faces… I'm insanity and insanity itself, Beware the monster in your closet, I might just be fucking him.
My parents say no one loves me. Fuck them, I'll live and live dying. Tick,Tock,Tick,Tock... There goes the clock... Crashes to the carpetted floor of your mothers perfect house. She runs up to you, Tick, and says it's not your fault, Tock, and that it just wasn't bolted to the wall enough. You want to laugh in her face, but refrain because it'll make her take you back to that awful place, where they lock you in a white room and chain you so you won't hurt yourself.
"Axel?" Kai asks as you look up from her little dolls placed around the table. The tables set for a tea party but no one is drinking.
"Yes, little angel?" You ask cocking your head to the side playfully, as you smile and stick your tongue out, a tongue piercing evident.
"Why do Mommy and Daddy yell at you all the time?" She looks at one of the dolls with blonde hair, a blush forming on her cheeks.
"Because Mommy and Daddy don't like me." You say solemnly as you pick up a doll with blue hair and make her drink tea.
"Why don't Mommy and Daddy like you?"
"Because they think I'm crazy, but I'm not." You add as you set down the doll and look at your watch. 2:30 pm.
"Are you going to come back?" She noticed the time and her little face saddens.
"I'll be back always and remember," You tap your heart "I'll always be right here." You stood, smiled to her and walked to her bedroom door.
She was only little back then, hardly knew what went on behind her back...