The Way That I Love You
Summary: What if Lucas had accepted Brooke's request to be a sperm donor but started dating Peyton. Would he want to be part of the baby's life? And if so, would it interfere in his relationship with Peyton?
I've read spoilers and I know that the sperm thing will not happen since she's adopting but I've been have this idea in my head since I watched 5x12. I know that people said that LP would reunite, unfortunately and I don't think that Peyton would like the sperms thing a lot. In my opinion it would be a great way to bring BL back together. Nothing better than a child to bring two people together, right?! I'm not sure yet where this story will go since I just have a few ideas in my head.
Prologue: Revelations
She was on her couch sipping on her wine, think over her talk with Lucas. It was over three months ago. It's been a whole month since his supposed wedding. Two weeks after Lindsey left him at the altar and he pitted himself for a couple days, he and Peyton got back together. She wasn't surprised at all in fact she was expecting it. She's been expecting it since the day of Nathan and Haley's wedding. Peyton and Lucas were meant to be. She realized a long time ago that her relationship with Lucas didn't matter for him, Peyton and everyone else, so pretending that it didn't matter for her too was easy, was safe. If she pretended, she wouldn't have to face the feelings that she buried so deep into her mind and heart that she almost believed that they didn't exist anymore. Almost.
She had asked him to be a sperm donor. She wanted a baby. A baby that she could devote herself to and someone that despise everything and anything would always love her. She wanted to feel loved, to feel like she mattered for someone. Of course that she had Haley that had become as important to her as Peyton and Jamie, her adorable godson that she was crazy about. But Haley was full of problems and had her marriage to fix and her son to take care off. Jamie was just a little kid that was going through a terrible experience with his parents' marriage on the rocks. She was trying to be the best godmother ever to try and help him through all of it. Peyton, well she was always busy whether it was with her record label or with Lucas. And Lucas…well, he loved Peyton what was more there to say?!
He still hadn't given her an answer. Honestly, she wasn't expecting him to give her one, especially now that he and Peyton are together again. She loved Peyton. Despise everything that Peyton did to her in high school she was still her best friend. She was happy for her. If she couldn't be happy, at least her best friend could. To be honest she was kind of avoiding Lucas. She knew that the probability of him agreeing to be the sperm donor now was almost zero and being rejected even if not in a romantic way by him would hurt like hell.
So like always she threw herself at work.
His life has been pretty ethic in the last month. Between being abandoned by Lindsey and getting back together with Peyton he hadn't have a lot of time to think about anything. He knew that he owned an answer to Brooke but he was still really confused if he should or not donate his sperm. He didn't want to do it and then regret it or even worse, having her regret it.
He had talked it over with Lindsey before his "wedding" and had decided that he was going to do it but now he wasn't so sure. Being with Peyton changed everything but it shouldn't interfere in a decision that he made before they get back together, right?!
He remembered when they were in her store three months ago talking, but it felt like it was yesterday…
"It's a lot to process, I know." She said as she tried to decipher the look on his face. "But now you know why I came home." She said with sincerity.
"Brooke, you sure?" Lucas asked as he tried to process everything she had said to him. I mean…are you sure? He asked again to make sure that she wouldn't regret this later.
"I'm sure. My heart is sure." She said while putting a hand over her heart. "This is what I want." Brooke said with conviction as Lucas face went from astonished to a thoughtful one.
Since then he thought a lot about it. He knew that he wanted to be in love before he had kids. He had told that to Brooke years ago during her pregnancy scare right after she found out about his cheating. But the idea of Brooke having his baby made him excited.
"I'm not asking you to be a part of the baby's life, Luke. I just want to have a baby and you were the only person I could think of." She said trying to make him see her point.
"I…I…honestly, I don't know what to say." He was still in shock about everything but as shocked as he was, he was starting to imagine how the baby would look like. Would it have his eyes or her dimples?
"You don't have to say anything right now. I know that you have to think it over and all that so take your time." She interrupted his thoughts.
"I just want you to know Brooke that if I do this I want to be a part of the baby's life. I don't want it to grow up without a dad. Even if you had adopted or something I'd still want to be a part of the baby's life. I know how it is to grow up without a dad, and I wouldn't want it to anyone." He said remembering his childhood but he couldn't complain because he got someone better than Dan could ever be…he got Keith.
He decided that he was going to go and talk to Brooke about it but he felt like he should tell Peyton first.
She was sitting on her desk going over some new band information. Her record label was going great. Between being back together with Lucas and her work, her life couldn't be better. Everything was like it should be. Lucas and she were together, and this time it looked like nothing could come between them.
Hearing footsteps she looked up from her work to see Lucas standing in the doorway. A smile made its way to her face as he walked towards her. She kissed him quickly and he sat in the chair in front of her.
"Not that I don't like to see you here, but aren't you supposed be coaching right now?"
"Actually, no I'm not. I had some things to take care of today so Nathan and Skills are taking over for me. That's why I'm here. I need to talk to you." She saw that he was getting nervous when he started to ran his hands through his blonde hair.
"Okay…" She had no idea what he wanted to talk about but it seemed important so when she realized that he wasn't going to say anything she decided to help him.
"You know you can tell anything, right?!" She asked but she wasn't expecting an answer from him so she continued. "Tell me what's bugging you and I'll help you."
"Hmmm…You probably know that Brooke asked me to be a sperm donor, right?"
She already didn't like the way this conversation was going. He seemed to get more nervous each second that passed…and for her it seemed like a bad sign. She knew that Brooke had asked Lucas this and she didn't like it but there was nothing she could do so she stayed quiet. "Yeah, of course I do. She told me on your we…wedding." She hated to remember the day that she almost got married.
"Good. So, before my wedding I had decided that I was going to do it." He said gaining a little more confidence. He didn't have a reason to feel like it was wrong, right? Brooke was his friend and she asked him a favor. "And I'm still going to. I haven't talked to Brooke yet, because I wanted you to know first."
What was she supposed to say to this?! She knew that there was no way to change Lucas mind, and why should she?! He was just going to donate his sperm to Brooke. He wasn't going to marry her or start to spend every single minute with her or want to be involved in everything that had to do with the baby. "I appreciate it Luke." She said and took his hand. "It means a lot to me and I'm sure Brooke will be really happy to hear it."
"Thanks Peyt, I'm relived that you're okay with this." He said after realizing a breath that he didn't even know he was holding. "I want you to know that it's not going to change anything between us." He said as he kissed her hand.
"Aunt Brooke!" Jamie yelled as he came running through the door of C/B.
"Jimmy jam." She said as she picked him up.
"James Lucas Scott, what did I tell you about running in the street?" Haley said as she walked inside the store.
"Sorry momma." Jamie's puppy face was irresistible. No one could resist it.
"Its okay sweetie, just don't do it again. Hey Brooke. I'm sorry about coming by without a warning but…"
"Don't worry tutor mom, and I don't mind taking care of him. We'll have a lot of fun today, right Jamie?!"
Jamie just nodded his head excitedly and hold tighter onto Brooke. "See, we'll be fine Hales. Just go do your thing."
"I own you big time Brooke. Thanks a lot." Haley said, then she gave a kiss on Jamie's forehead and Brooke a hug and left.
"So boyfriend, what do you want to do?"
"Can I pick up anything?" He asked as his blue eyes sparked.
"Of course you can sweetie. Today will officially be named as "Bramie day". Just tell me what you want to do and we'll do it." She said smiling by seeing how happy her godson seemed to be. She knew that he was missing his dad. Of course he sees him everyday but it was not the same, and she knew it.
Jamie made a thoughtful face and put his little hand on his chin before answering. "I want to play basketball…and I want to eat lots of ice cream…and I want to go to the beach." He said as a huge smile made its way to his face.
"Okay. I can't assure you about the basketball part since I'm really bad at it, but for you I can try. So let's go."
It was getting late so she decided to take Jamie home. The day was really fun, they went to the beach and she helped Jamie to build a sandcastle. Then they ate lots of ice cream but just after she had made Jamie promise not to tell Haley about it. And last they went to the river court and she tried, she really did but she sucked really badly at basketball and in the end Jamie won by 15-0.
When she pulled up at Haley's house, Jamie was fast asleep in the backset of her car. He carefully picked him up and walked towards the front door. Without knocking she went into the house to find Haley and for her fear Lucas in the kitchen talking.
"Hey Brooke." Haley said as she walked towards Brooke to pick Jamie up and put him on his bed.
"Seeing what Haley was going to do, Brooke quickly stopped her. "It's okay Haley. I'll tuck him in." She said as she turned and walked towards her godson's bedroom.
A couple of minutes later she came back to find Haley and Lucas in the living room. "Hey Luke." She said as took a place beside him in the couch.
"Hey Brooke."
"So, what have you and Jamie done today?" Haley asked.
"We went to the beach and then to the river court to play basketball." She said leaving the ice cream part out.
"You played basketball?!" Lucas and Haley asked together.
"Yes! I mean, I lost but that's not the point. Besides, Jamie asked me to and you know that I'd do anything for my godson Haley."
"Yeah, I know. You guys must have had a lot of fun since he looked so tired."
"Yeah we did. It was our "Bramie day."
"Your what?" A confused Lucas asked. Since he saw Brooke entering the house he was thinking the best way to approach the subject. He still had no idea.
"Bramie, Brooke and Jamie equal Bramie. Just like Nathan and Haley equals Naley."
"Oh!"
"Listen Hales it's getting late and I have a lot of things to do tomorrow. Jamie's birthday is coming up and all, you know. Besides, I'll probably have to go to New York for a few days…"
"Okay. So, I'll se you tomorrow?"
"Sure. How about breakfast? Just me, you and Jamie?"
"It's a deal. Night Brooke."
"Night Hales. Night Luke."
And with that she was gone. Realizing that he had to talk to her now Lucas said bye to Haley and caught up with Brooke just before she got into her car.
"Hey Brooke, I was thinking that maybe we could talk, you know?" He said.
Realizing that he probably wanted to talk about her request she just nodded her head and told him to get into her car.
Fifteen minutes later they were sitting on a bench at the river court in silence. Neither of them knew what to say. Deciding to break the silence Brooke said:
"So…what do you want to talk about?"
"First, I want to apologize for taking so long to give you an answer and second I want to say that I thought a lot about it and..."
"You don't have to apologize. I understand that it's an important decision to make so you had to make sure." She said while playing with her fingers. She was scared that he was going to say no. Actually, she was sure that he was going to say no.
"I'll do it."
Please tell me what you think and review. :)