I am going to make this a drabble collection! It might be a song-fic, oneshot, a few chapter fic. Some AU, some OOC. I do not know. I will just put them in here when I feel like writing something yeah? :)

Drabble collection #1
SasuSaku.
Pink-chan.
by Charmful Ika

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My name is Sakura Haruno. I am just like my namesake. I am fragile, sensitive & very emotional. I also look like a cherry blossom. Pink hair—yes, it is natural! -- and green/emerald eyes. I tend to be bright and bubbly most of the time.

Ah, there's my adoring team which consists of Naruto Uzumaki, Kakashi Hatake & last but not least... Sasuke Uchiha.

Sasuke Uchiha: A very touchy subject for myself. I mean come on. He left me on a cold hard bench after confessing my feelings for him! He stomped, trampled, squished & blew up my love for him like it was nothing. So, having dealt with that for 4 years I finally gave up my love for him and stopped loving anyone else completely.

Even though I know, deep down in my heart of hearts. I will always love him, for whoever he is, for what he is. Not just because he is from one of the most prominent clans in the Hidden Leave Village. But for him.

Then there was Naruto Uzumaki: My best of all best friends. He promised me that he would bring Sasuke back to me, but now. I told him not to worry about it. I didn't want to be a burden to him so I let it go. Oh, and he has gotten over that little crush on me when he finally realized that he liked Hinata.

Naruto and I have agreed that our relationship is merely brother-sisterly. So we have always been there for each other since then.

Then there's our favourite sensei; Kakashi Hatake: A huge pervert. But of course, not as big a pervert as Jiraiya-sama. But I love him the way he is. Yes, it ticks me off that he is always late when we have missions but hey, I love him all the same.

He reads those reaaaaaaaaaally annoying Icha Icha Paradise books. But I can't blame him. I read them once, and man, they were really pervy and addicting. HAHA, I stopped reading them for my own health and welfare.

My team – a team that shared many memories; good and bad. We had our moments.

But it all broke apart.

'I got tore in half.'

On that dreaded day

'Half of myself sealed itself back into its shell.'

When he left...

'Never to come back again, until the key was found.'

I had told myself that he will come back

'After three years, that key has still hasn't been found.'

Maybe he never will.

I walked down the road to Ichiraku. Thinking about the memories of team Seven. I see Naruto and I greet him. He knows that I am still dark and gloomy ever since that day. Sure, I have grown stronger but that 12 year old fangirl is still locked up somewhere deep, deep in my heart.

Sometimes, I think about what I see in Sasuke that made me love him oh-so-very much. I always believed in the saying:

Even though fate might not be nice, God is.

Sigh. Now, I do not believe in it somehow. If God was nice, wouldn't he have let Sasuke stay? It's the revenge, it's clouding his judgement. Isn't 'revenge' still considered an emotion? An emotion related to anger? It's the same thing!

Shinobi Principle #25: A shinobi, never shows his feelings. No matter what the circumstance is. Feelings are a weakness, that only clouds judgement and weakens the sense of duty.

For me, it's just downright infuriating! He was the one telling me that emotions are for the weak but here he is, he betrayed the village to go to that Michael Jackson wannabe pedophile Orochimaru! I rememeber Sasuke telling me at Chunnin Exams in the Forest Of Death:

'I am an avenger, to follow my path I must have power. At any price, even if it means to be consumed by evil.'

I got scared, so scared. True, you can get power even by being brought to the dark side but, for what price? When you are.. well, where the home is. You won't have a problem getting power! Kakashi-sensei told us that, even though emotions are a weakness. Your goal or the people we love are the ones that motivate us and stride us on!

... This is not what Sasuke is doing. Sasuke is just.. independent. Now, I just don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes, I just wish I hadn't been that fangirlish woman I once was. Sometimes, I just wish that I hadn't fallen in love with him at all. Sometimes...

I wish I could just get stronger.

"Sakura-chan! Hinata-chan is waiting for me! Is it okay if I leave you?" Naruto asked. Sigh. Of course. I nodded back at him saying that it was okay for him to go on that date with Hinata.

I watch Naruto's retreating figure and see myself. When I was the one in the background. The weak one. The one that needed constant protection. Sure, I was weak before but.. now, I am the apprentice of the Godaime. I am strong. I have super strength. Excellent chakra control. Pretty good at genjutsu. I don't have ninjutsu, that I know about . I'm pretty good at taijutsu.

I am almost as strong as Tsunade-shishou. So, that qualifies as strong right? Yes, I convince myself that I am strong. Strong enough to kill someone. Strong enough to overcome those 'useless' feelings also known as emotions in battle. Strong enough to have the courage to seduce someone in a mission. Strong enough to.. to –

Forget him.

Dammit! Why does he make things so hard for me? I know, I know, I know DAMMIT! I know, I already know.. I already know that.. I just can't forget him.. no matter what.

Maybe it's because I was madly, truly, deeply, really, unconditionally, seriously in love with Sasuke Uchiha.

Yes, I didn't want to admit it but.. I am. Very much. I love him so much it hurts. I love him so much I would take a hit for him. I love Sasuke Uchiha so much because he sends my heart to beat a thousand miles a minute. He was just lovely in every single way. I do not know but, my heart just cannot accept another. No matter what.

And it hurts to know I can't forget him
just because I love him so damn much.

I know, I am starting to talk about Sasuke a lot now. Sasuke is the very core of my existence. If he is still alive, so am I. He is like my heart monitor. He is my heart. Without a heart, you cannot live.

I know I sound corny and romantic but.. this what I feel for him. No. My love for him cannot be described because, it's love. Love cannot be described. I love this man, this avenger, this .. this .. sinner. I have tried to tell him that avenging the death of someone will not help. Sure you would've gotten your revenge but was that really what you wanted?

I don't know anymore. I jump out of the seat and pay for my share of ramen and walk to the bench. The bench where Sasuke and I shared our last moment on grief before I got knocked out and placed on it then Sasuke leaving the village.

As I walk to the bench, I see couples. Happy and hugging. I envy them, very much. Yes, I did have my fare share of fan boys but .. they only like—LIKE me for my looks. Lee also gave up on me. But we still shared that very special bond. The true friendship bond. Just like I had with Naruto, just with a teeny bit less of a connection.

I see more and more couples. One catched my eye. It was Neji and Tenten... making out. I try and stifle a giggle just waiting to burst out of my mouth but I hold it in. Not trying to destroy their little make-out session. I walk faster to get them out of my sight. But then, as I left the two. I saw Shikamaru and Ino. They were sitting on a bench.

Aw Ino. You so have to tell me the details later.

I reach the bench where I got left hard-out cold 3 years ago. I sit down. I remember the when I first got accepted as a genin, that was when Naruto was head-over-heels over me. He went as far to transform into Sasuke and look at me smiling. Then me, being the 12 year old obsessed with Sasuke fan girl I was, blushed and imagined a fairytale with him.

I giggled silently at the memory. I couldn't believe I was like that before. I realised that I was weak and that I cared more about boys than ninja training. Sweat drop. I sat in the bench for a while; around half an hour.

Then I look at my watch. It's 10:20 AM. I have to take my shift at the hospital. I run to the hospital and check in.

I do the usual, do check ups on patients and heal the injured etc. To me, life was just too plain. My life is Red, Blue & Green. The Primary colours. No other spectrums of light were included. Because there was no white light for me to reflect upon. There was one before, but of course. It dissolved. My life used to be a rainbow. Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, blue, Indigo & Violet.

It disappeared because the white light dimmed to black.

Sometimes, I think about Sasuke and what he has done for me. He has protected me, even though it looked like he didn't give a damn, he actually did. Yes, he might seem like a hard-cold-marble-stoic-bastard. But fucking hell, he was a good friend sometimes. It's just hard to miss you know. You can tell he is always there for you. But sometimes he gets too hasty. But that's fine with me. He protected me. That's what made me happy.

Now it seems like you might never come back to us Sasuke. So I finally made my decision.

I, Sakura Haruno, promises that I will never love anyone and try my hardest to forget you Sasuke. I will be a human without a heart. For you have taken it & you do as you shall with it. But, now. I will never forgive you for what you did to me. So, I have finally concluded for me to completely relinquish myself of any memory of you.

Did you like? Did you like? Next one might be a songfic.
Reviews are appreciated.
Love Love Love Charmful Ika.