A/N: This is a little drabble that popped into my head along with the idea of parentheses. I've got some weird formatting problems... it was hard for me to focus, but maybe I'm just ADD. Enjoy!
Later, she won't tell him how scared she was (because God knows she doesn't need another person hovering).
She won't admit how much it hurt to tell him to go for Abigail (because, after all, it was not her place to come between the two).
She won't say how she really felt when it was only Gus and Lassiter (because, for heaven's sake, they should've been enough).
She won't describe the fear that was coursing through her at the top of that clock tower (because she doesn't know if she could handle talking about it again).
She won't show her discomfort around him (because she knows there shouldn't be anything awkward about it).
She won't break down again (because she needs to think that it was a one-time-only crack, needs to believe that she is strong).
She won't confess her feelings to him (because, after all, she isn't sure how he feels, and she wouldn't be able to handle rejection right now).
She won't find herself in that situation ever again (because, now, after the ordeal, she knows the pain and the fear, and nothing can ever make her do that again).
She won't be able to look at that clock tower again, or any tower, really (because, in all seriousness, no one would be able to, not after what she went through).
She won't like going to work anymore, seeing her coworkers, at least for a while (because, when she does, it all comes rushing back, and that is something she can't deal with).
She will be hardened, different (because she was changed that night).
She will see the world through different eyes (because she has seen what people are capable of now).
But now, in this moment, she is just thankful for her partner, Gus, and of course, Shawn (because she knows she owes them her life).