He was so strong.
That is the first thing you think as you stare at the dead body, cold and lifeless. Blue is spilling out everywhere.
Why couldn't it have been you?
You lay down in the puddle of blood and hold onto his hand. You know nothing can fix this. You know it's already too late. You know Gamzee is already gone, off to kill again.
You have never felt so alone.
Your moirail, your lusus, your home.
You are alone.
You can feel the warm, blue blood seeping into your clothes. It's oddly comforting, like one last time you get to tackle hug Equius. This will very likely be the last time you see him.
Unless...
No! Nepeta! Why are you even thinking of this?
But would I? It isn't like I have any other perpous anymore. No one needs me.
You argue with yourself for several moments before making the decision.
You aim your claws and point them at your heart.
You can do this.
You have to.
Nepeta! What do you think your doing?
Equius's voice is in your head, scolding you.
He wouldn't want you to do this.
You begin to make a new plan. Seek out Gamzee, he will kill you. He will let you be with Equius again.
With a deep breath you stand up and begin your search for death.