Forgive me … this chapter is kind of a recap of the end of the 1st season and an emotional insight into the effects of what happened on Misaki's mind.

This takes place after the 1st season as if the second season didn't exist..

Disclaimer!: I DO NOT OWN Darker Than BLACK

Chapter 1: Aftermath

After the BK201 incident, everything went back to normal. Contractors ran amuck, the government covered it up, and the general public never knew what really happened. There are many out there that wish to try to create a world where the humans and the contractors can live together in peace. One of these people is none other than BK201. This dream world of peace seems close but couldn't be farther away.

On the surface everything seemed fine, but that was far from the truth. The Syndicate tried to end the existence of contractors by means of mass murder using advanced science and technology discovered while playing a guessing game. Luckily for them, a group of contractors found out the truth and plotted to stop them. All the pressure of saving everyone was put onto one man's shoulders and it was he who saved us all. If he recreated what happened at Heaven's Gate then all the humans would die and all of Tokyo would be destroyed. But, if he did nothing then all the contractors in the world would cease to exist. In finding the truth of who he was and and the truth behind his past, he found a middle road. By taking this road he could save the contractors and spare the humans, and that is what he did.

This man was a contractor, a killer, he was not human, but this one time he was more human than the rest of us. He was a hired contractor of the Syndicate, he was an expert of disguise and a master at undercover work. He had a power beyond imagining, and he had the skills to use it. He could sneak up on you and kill you before you even noticed him. He used throwing knives attached to metal wires and swung from building to building. He wore a black coat and a white mask, no one EVER saw his face.

He was Hei,

The Black Reaper,

BK201.

He was a mystery I never could fully solve. He was a contractor, but he paid no payment for using his powers. He should have always thought rationally, but he disobeyed orders and acted irrationally on more than one occasion. He Should of had no such thing as a conscience, but he always seemed guilty.

I can't wrap my head around the fact that BK201 and Li Shenshun are one and the same.

Li was always smiling and happy, the only time I ever saw the darker, sadder side of Li was that night before the incident. He was worried for his sister, he was lonely and sad.

How did this happen?

Why did fate do this to me?

The one who has saved me too many times to count, I have become obsessed with. I dream about him, My Knight in shinning Black armor, BK201. It was safe to obsess because everyone at the station wanted to catch him so no one saw the ulterior motives to my hard work. He was a murderer and he did commit crimes but somehow it seemed like he was only doing what he could to survive. Of course, at the time I only thought he was a cold blooded killer, a contractor too.

But, he saved me, more than once.

I began to dream he would take me away in the middle of the night and we would swing away on his wires until the city was far behind us.

Then I began to run into Li. We met at Alice's party and he was a perfect mix of heroic and scared when Alice went crazy on us. Li never slipped up, not once, his character was flawless. No one would ever know he was The Black Reaper. I started to like Li, and that last night before the incident, I wanted nothing more than for that night to never end. The one and only slip up in character Li ever made was opening up to me that night. I already had my suspicions, but that night I knew.

How? Why?

Why did the man I dreamt of and the guy I came to like have to be the same person? Why would this happen to me? Why me?

Which man is the real Li? the real BK201? Is Li all an act? It must be, contractors don't feel guilt, they don't have deep emotions. But, it seemed so real when he told me about his sister and he seemed in so much pain.

Could it be? Could he actually feel those things? I know contractors are evolving, I saw it. November-11 was proof of that. But could BK201 really have the ability to feel deep emotion? Could he really feel Love? Pain? Guilt?

Is it even possible?

So many questions and so few answers…

The pain I felt that day, the pain… it never goes away.

He saved me and I stopped him…. I called him Li….

"The man named Li is gone."

That is what he said. It still hurts. It's like he wanted me to believe that Li was a lie, that the Li I knew was never coming back. But if Li was a part of him, then how could that be? How could he be gone? He has to be in there somewhere…

I will find him.

I will find BK201, I will find him and I will save him from whatever wretched life he must be living right now. I will find him and awaken the sleeping Li inside. I know he's in there, and I WILL awaken him.

Ever since that day he disappeared, I have felt empty and fragile. In his absence I have come to realize that I have started to fall in love with him. I am not falling for the happy Li, or the dark Hei. I am falling for the happy Li with a dark past, the man who is dark and mysterious and yet eats like the world is going to end. I am falling for the deadly contractor who feels pain and guilt. The man I am falling for has many names and many sides:

Li Shenshun,

Hei, Agent of The Syndicate,

The Dark Contractor,

The Black Reaper,

BK201…..

….. And I love them all…..