DGM

Bad Boy's Changes

Chapter 1

New Life

Allen stared into a mirror with dull eyes. He had a huge headache and Road stared at him. The other Noahs came by every now and then, but Allen did nothing but stare into the mirror. He hadn't eaten or spoken, nor moved an inch, for awhile. Lero sighed as Road swung her feet back and forth. Allen finally moved his hand up to his forehead and felt it. Seven. Seven of them. Seven stigmatas engraved on his skin. Golden eyes. Jet black hair. Dark ashen skin. He had become a Noah. He gritted his teeth and shut his eyes. He always thought of himself as a monster and now he really was one. He wouldn't except this. He couldn't. He refuses to fight his friends. He refuses to kill them. He wasn't a Noah. He shouldn't of become a Nah. He. . . . he wasn't. He had innocence in his left hand to prove it. Though the pain is massive, it's all because of the innocence he hasn't been corrupted by his Noah inside him yet. ANd his will. "Ne, Allen, let's play." Road said.

"He's busy trying to convince himself he isn't a Noah Road." Wisely said.

"The Earl has dinner ready. He wants Allen to come this time." Tyki said, staring at the boy.

"I rather starve." Allen hissed.

"Such a child." Tyki stated.

"Allen, you must eat. Just because you don't want to accept the fact that you are now family does not mean you should deprive yourself of food. You'll need the energy." Road said, grabbing his wrist as she hopped off Lero.

Allen didn't stand up. He just pressed his back against the wall of a building inside the ark. He threw the mirror at the building across from him and it shattered into a million pieces. Lero panicked because Allen had almost hit the umbrella. Road made a pouty face and Allen let a shadow overcast his eyes. "Family? That man put a hole in my heart! I'd never consider you family." Allen sethed.

"That was before we knew you were a Noah." Tyki said, lighting a ciggarrette.

"Put that out." Allen hissed.

"Why?" Tyki asked.

"I can't stand that shit." Allen replied darkly.

Road tried to make him stand, but he wouldn't. Allen was a lot stronger and heavier than he looked. Allen pushed his hand away from her and laid it on his leg. He opened his eyes and stared at his hand. It was no longer it's white self. It now matched the rest of his skin. Gray. Ashen. His left eye was killing him and hisleft hand was in a large amount of pain. He reluctantly stood up, but almost fell because he hadn't walked for a few days. Road stared at him with a smiled, but he looked at her with hatred in his eyes. He didn't really have a choice, but to go. If not a huge fiasco will arouse and he wasn't in the mood for their silly games. He carefully walked for as his legs tingled, almost numb. He kept stumbling, but refused to either Tyki's or Road's help.

When they entered the dining room everyone looked at them. Or specifically, Allen. The Earl's glasses had a glint and Allen's reflection appeared. Jackie eyed him as Lucy and Charlye smiled at him. Jackie didn't trust him. She never would as it stands now. Allen watched Wisely, Tyki, and Road sit down and the door shut behind him. "Allen Walker, welcome. Come sit." Earl said as he signaled his hand to an empty chair between Road and Tyki.

Allen made no eye contact and made no sound. Why did he stay? He could leave, couldn't he? So why didn't he? Allen sat down in the chair, but didn't look up. He closed his eyes when he saw his small reflection on the spoon in front of him. Before he hated his reflection because of the scar on his eye and his hair. Now, he hated himself more than he hated Leverrier. Do you know how much hatred that would be? "How's your head?" Earl asked, folding his hands in front of him.

Allen didn't answer. Road stared at him with her face in her hand, smiling. Tyki blew smoke out of his mouth and it went towards Allen. "I told you to put that out." Allen said.

"It's just a smoke." Tyki responded.

Allen's hand balled into a fist, but did nothing. Said nothing more. His hands trembled. He just seemed so angry, but he didn't know why. He just wanted some guidence from Larae for once. Larae would always help him, but if he appeared in front of her now what would she think? What would his friends think? He never thought he would, but he missed everyone, but at the same time, he only missed Lenalee and Larae. Only them. Was that selfish? Was it after all the things the Order has done for him? Allen sat back in the chair, but his head was downwards still. His right hand went to his left arm. He was an exorcist still, right? You can't be both exorcist and Noah. So why did his hand hurt? Why did he look like a NOah? Why did he have innocencen? "Are you okay Allen?" Road asked.

"Is that arm bothering you?" Earl queried, biting into his food.

Allen looked up from his hands to Earl then at Road. All the Noahs were quiet, waiting, staring. "You are a Noah Allen. The stigmatas are proof enough. Why don't you just accept that fact?" Earl asked.

"Why would I when you've all tried to kill me on several occasions? Why would I accept myself into the clan that is my enemy?" Allen asked coldly.

"Because the Order won't take you back now." Earl told him.

Allen took that hard and turned his head away, squeezing his eyes shut. "Maybe it's not the Order that you care about that will take you back though." the Earl added.

"Shut up." Allen said quietly.

"Is it that pretty exorcist or that childhood friend of yours?" Earl asked.

Allen's eyes widened. How did the Earl know about Larae? He felt his nails dig into his skin, but stopped himself from cutting himself. "Didn't she abadon you once before? While you two were in the orphanage together?" Earl asked.

"You know nothing." Allen muttered.

"I know we can accept you and help you Allen." Earl told him.

"You killed my father." Allen said.

"He betrayed us and killed most of us. Luckily our Noahs are reborn after so long." Earl said.

"You killed my mother as well." Allen said.

"SHe was a troublesome person." Earl responded.

"Give me one good reason why I should trust any of you." Allen said bitterly.

"Because if we wanted to kill you we would have during the turn." Earl said.

"Allen, lighten up. You can trust us." Road said, hugging him.

Allen stared at her. Many thoughts ran through his mind, but he couldn't process all of them because there was too many at one time. Road let go of him and started eating and the room was filled with talk. Even some arugments. Like a normal family. Allen just stared at them all. A frown came upon his face and he scowled. Larae. Lenalee. Last thing he told them was that he loved the both of them and couldn't decide who he loved most. He needed to get his mind off of them. He had to figure a lot of things out and thinking about them he wouldn't find a single answer. But he missed them. How long had it been? A week? A month? Months? A year maybe? He wasn't sure how much time had passed. He never even knew when it was night or day. It should be night now or soon though. Tyki said dinner afterall. "You should eat Allen." Tyki said, cutting a steak.

"Yes, you should. I heard about your large apetite. Not eating in a few days will make that larger. Please, we have all the food in the world." Earl agreed.

"Not hungry." Allen said softly, kinder than before.

"Heh? Then how come your stomach just growled Allen?" Road asked, poking his stomach.

Allen stared at her. She was just like a child. He sighed and looked at the food on the plate in front of him. He didn't want to eat. "I told you I'm not hungry." Allen said, but Jasdero threw a roll at him.

He twitched and stared at the twins with icy eyes. Debbitto threw a roll at him too and Road laughed. Allen picked up his fork and threw at them. Lucky them, he missed because they ducked. They stucj their tongues out and Allen glared. "Twits." Allen muttered.

Road picked up a roll and stuffed it in Allen's mouth. He swallowed because he couldn't get her to move her hand so he couldn't spit it out. It was tasty. Warm and fluffy. "If you're not going to eat willingly then I'll feed you." Road said.

"I'm not a doll." Allen said.

"No, but you're cute!" Road said, hugging him again.

"You're dumber than a box of rocks." Allen mumbled.

Road grabbed another roll and stuffed it in his mouth and he was forced to swallow again. He pushed her away, but he felt too weak to do it with as much effort as he wanted to. It must've also been because he hadn't slept in a few days either. Which just made him tired now that he thought about it. He held his head and it seemed like the room was spinning. The pain in his left eye got worse and so did his left arm. The headache turned into a migrane, but he kept his eyes open. He didn't want to sleep. If so he didn't know what would happen. "I told you that you needed to eat and that you were going to need the energy. If you starve yourself you'll get symtoms and faint. It can also make your head hurt." Road said, offering him some food.

He blinked, but his body felt so heavy. Road put the plate down and put her hands on him, worried. His body started shaking as if it was too tired and too weak to even sit. He stared at her concerned face and he wondered why she would be concerned. Would they just take him in just because of seven stigmatas and a few changes? Even though he doesn't want to be one of them? Spots blurred his vision and he fell out of the chair. Road kept him from hitting the floor hard and sighed. He continued to sare at her and he lost all senses. Unwillingly he closed his eyes, darkness overwhelming him, fear inside him for some reason, and he lost consciousness. "Allen? Allen?" Road asked and it was the last thing he heard before he passed out.

Tyki looked down at him, blinking. "That was quick."

"He's prbably still exhausted from the change and the lack of food and sleep." Earl said.

"Are we really going to keep him around?" Jasdero asked.

"Yes. His Father's actions are not his. A noah with innocence may be of great use. He may also give us the necessary knowledge of which we have yet to discovered. Though, he may not. Despite his personality, he couldn't intentionally harm them. They are his friends. . . . . . Were." Earl responded.

"He may be the fourteenth reborn though." Wisely told him.

"Maybe. Maybe not. We'll just have to wait and see. If he does turn on us then we'll have no choice but to kill him, but only if we tried everything. I want to keep him around and besides, he is family now. His stubborness will be a nuisence though." Earl replied.

"Will he accept us and the Noah?" Lulubell asked.

"That has yet to be proven, but all we need is a little time. He can not leave the ark just yet and won't be able to. Tyki and Road will keep an eye on him." Earl answered.

"He easily accepted the Order. Maybe if he believes they don't care about him anymore then he will gladly come to us." Wisely said, smirking, hopeing to mess with Allen's head a little.

"No Wisely. We can't take any chances like that. Not yet. His mind will be very fragile right now. You should've been able to tell." Earl said.

Wisely's smirk disappeared and he went back to eating. Road poked Allen's face and put her ear to his chest. His heartbeat was going at a normal pace and it sounded so good to her ears. His pulse echoed in her head and she closed her eyes. There was something intriguing, something so, so good about him. She squeezed his hand and he moved slightly, catching her off guard. Startled, she jumped up a bit and stared at his face. He looked like he was having a nightmare. "He's having another nightmare." Road said.

"Do you want to give him a pleasant dream Road?" Earl asked.

"I don't think I can. It seems to be his Noah giving him this dream and if I did give him a pleasant dream, it would be about the exorcists." Road responded, but her fingers touched his head gently. What was this feeling she was getting from him? Was it good or was it bad? "We have to redirect his mind from them and giving him a good dream about them will not help Lord Millenium."

"Then take him to his room. It's finished." Earl said.

Road nodded and tok him away to his room. Jackie eyed him the whole time and continued to stare at the door even as he left. Lucy and Charlye looked at their eldest sister and head of the fifteen Noah. They were different from the other Noahs because of several reasons and one of those reasons was the fact that they were sort of like Jasdevi, the Noahs of bonds, but they were each one whole Noah. They represented emotion. Jackie was Trust for the main part. It sometimes made her get all strange, but that was her greatest strength and her biggest weakness. That was why she was the leader of the three sisters. "Is something wrong Jackie?" Earl queried.

Jackie looked at the Millenium Earl and frowned. The Earl's smile just got bigger and Jackie got out of her chiar and started walking out. "I don't trust him. There's something off about him. I could tell from the first moment I laid eyes on him on that train." Jackie said.

"Do you still hate him that much?" Lucy asked, jumping over to Jackie.

"Maybe you're jealous." Charlye said.

"You better hope that's just it." Jackie said and left the room.

Lucy and Charlye tipped their heads and ended up hitting each other. They rubbed their heads and looked at the Earl. "Can we skip dinner Earl?" Lucy asked.

"Yes. Go talk to her." Earl told them and they skipped away. "But don't misjudge Jackie's feelings." the Earl mumbled.

"You feel the same about the kid, don't you Lord?" Sheryl asked.

"Hmmmm. We'll just have to keep an eye on him." Earl responded, ignoring Sheryl's question.

Road placed Allen on his bed and smiled. He looked so cute in his sleep. Even though he was in pain. She love to watch people suffer, but ALlen was now family. She couldn't be happy about that anymore. Her smile turned to a frown and she brushed the hairs away from her head. She stared at the stigmatas and then at his scar. It was suppose to let him see the souls of akuma. She wondered if that was true. ALlen groaned and she was brought out of her thoughts. Should she look into his dreams? No. Not right now. She got on the bed beside him and put his wrist to her nose, smelling his blood, she grinned. She remembered how good his blood had tasted when she poked a candle in his eye. It smelled better. It probably tasted better too. She shook the thoughts out of her head and listened to his heart beating. "Lovely." Road murmured.

Allen's Dream. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Allen sat under the weeping willow tree near the lake. He was too scared to go any closer to the lake. He never had a good expierence in there and he refused to have another one. He wasn't even sure if this was a dream anymore. It felt too real. There were still severals dirt paths around the lake and they broke up into more paths and even more paths. He remembered Neah had told him to never stop. Keep walking. Mana would always say that too. That always meant to walk down a path, right? What path? WHat was this nightmare for? WHy won't it stop? Why was he filled with fear? Like a lost child he looked up from the ground and at the water. He held his head and grounded his teeth together. A small buzzing noise could be heard and he tried to get away from the lake, but couldn't. He was frozen still.

The lake seemed to of gotten bigger and the ice cracked. Allen stared at the black moon in the water and then a dark shadow that was smiling that twisted and crooked smile. Allen's hand reached out on it's own and it was once again, gripped by the mysterious figure. He fell to his knees and the tree backed away from him. He looked at the water and felt like screaming, but his mouth was glued shut. "Welcome back. . . . . . Allen."

Allen was slowly being dragged in the water and the ice sealed over the water once more. He tried to get free, tried to scream, frightened and losing his mind, he let memories be shown to him. He wanted to close his eyes, but couldn't. His almost death expierences, his worst memories, his whole life flashed in front of him. He only caught glimpses an dthe ones he didn't want to remember, stuck to his mind. The images stopped and his heart raced, ready to jump out of his chest. He felt his eyes get warm and thought he was crying, but couldn't tel lbecause he was in water. He held his head and looked around, staring at the unmoving images. "Go away. . . . . . . go away. . . . . . . . . leave me alone!" Allen shouted.

Allen felt his feet touch the sandy floor and he fell to his knees as the last memory he had always seen came to mind. All his friends laid around him dead. Blood and more blood. His blood, their blood. The Noahs smiled devilishly behind him as he stared in horror at his friends and the darkness overcasted the world. The Earl went on about god's will. How god planned this, wanted this. He said something about the devil. Allen was going to go insane if he kept having this dream. He dug his head in the sand and tried to scream, but he couldn't hear his voice. He just wanted the suffering to end. Why was he being tormented? He felt an immense amount of pain in his chest and looked at it. Blood. A huge hole. Pain. He still couldn't scream. It was like Tyki had put another hole in his heart or made it bigger. His mind was breaking and he started choking, drowning in the water, in memories. He tried to swim back to the top, but couldn't. He was dragged right back down and if he did get to the top he couldn't break the ice.

He coughed up some blood and went numb. He raised his hand to the ice again, but it soon fell as his body slowly floated to the bottom. His heartbeat was slowing down and he was in so much pain. He couldn't breathe. He wished he could just pass out already, but he wouldn't. He listened to his heart beating, pounding in his chest. It was getting faint and he could hear a loud ringing in his ears. His hair got in his was and his visionstarted to fade, but he could not fall into unconsciousness. A shadowy figure appeared above him, smiling that everlasting grin, almost laughing, mocking him. "Pl. . . . please . . . . stop." Allen begged, his now fragile mind taking in all it could. "Stop. . . . . . . . . STOP!"

Reality. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Allen threw Road off of him and onto the floor. He sat up real fast and screamed so loud that it echoed throughout the ark. He panted and sweat ran down his face and he held his head. Road stared at him, shocked. The door slammed open and Allen trembled. He didn't move and his eyes were wide, filled with absolute fear as if he was still living that nightmare. He wanted to shut his eyes, but he was worried that he would fall asleep. His breathing was heavy and uneven. Road hugged him and he didn't say or do anythnig. He stared at the blaknet underneath him and Road looked at her family. "Allen, can you hear me?" Road asked softly.

"S- stop. . . . . . . pl- please st- stop. . . . . . . please." Allen muttered, holding his head tighter.

Road's eye widened. He was begging for mercy. On the verge of crying. Scared out of his mind. What would drive him like this? She felt a knot in her chest and wanted to cry. She was worried about him. She might've been the only Noah to take a liking to him and she didn't likke the way he was acting. "It was just a nightmare ALlen. Calm down. Everything is alright." Road said soothingly.

It didn't help him. His mind was on the verge of a breakdown. Road could tell. Afterall, she had driven many people crazy. She touched his forehead and looked at the Earl for approval. The Earl stared at Allen who was clueless to what was going on. He came over and touched Allen gently. Allen jumped and Road was knocked away. SHe only got right back beside him, holding him tightly. "Allen. . . . . . " Earl whispered.

Allen let his hands drop to his side and felt like curling up in a ball. He just sat there staring at nothing endlessly. Lost in thoughts and in pain, mental pain, and Road gave him some nice thoughts. Allen started to calm down and his eyes got glazy. He stopped shivering and his breathing went back to normal. Only good thoughts filled his head. He actually couldn't think, but he felt good. Really good. He got tired, but he didn't want to go back to sleep, but Road laid him down, smiling and humming a soft lullaby. He felt so comfortable and stared at her, hands twitching. Why was she doing this? Why did she care? She cupped his face and he felt even better. No bad thoughts. Only bliss. The nightmare was long forgotten, but he still didn't want to sleep, but his eyes lids felt heavy and he really needed it. He forced them to stay open. "Sleep Allen. I won't let you have another nightmare." Road said softly and gently.

"No." Allen said, but he felt like hours had passed when only seconds passed. "I. . . . . can't."

"Everything will be alright my child. We will take care of you." Earl said and closed Allen's eyes. It didn't take a minute for him to fall asleep again. The Earl thought about what kind of nightmare would bring Allen on the verge on a mental breakdown. It was like watching Road mess around with an exorcist. "I promise. You are family now afterall."

Road hugged Allen's head and looked at the diispersing Noahs. Only a few stayed behind, already having a sentimental feeling for the new family member. "Will he be alright?" Tyki asked.

"Yes. He might not be awake for some time though." Road answered.

"Let him take all the time he needs. He needs to adjust and it might take some time for his mind to go back to being strong and steady. His mind will be fragile for a bit due to the turn. That can't be helped." Earl told her as a chair appeared and he sat down.

"I think he's been having the same nightmare for a long time. It's just been getting worse and he is finally falling apart from it." Road said, reading his past dreams.

"Hmmmmm. Can you guess how long?" Earl asked, rocking back and forth in his chair.

"Over a year. Maybe two." Road answered, stroking Allen's hair.

"What of?" Earl queried.

"Past events. It's like Wisely and my abilities working together to mess with his mind while he's sleeping. That's the best I can put it." Road said. SHe could easily define it better, but not with words. The Earl understood though. "He's scared of being rejected and unwanted, of death." Road added.

"Considering his past I wouldn't blame him." Tyki said as he sat down at the end of the bed.

"I wonder if. . . . . . . . . he fears himself." Road mumbled, which got everyone to stare at her.

Black Order. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Larae stared at a picture of Allen and wiped away a small tear. Now wasn't the time to cry. He would come back. Allen will come back. He wasn't a Noah, but he has been gone for awhile. She feared the worst, but either way, the Order sees him as a possible threat. Well, some people. She put the picture in her pocket and walked down the halls and stopped in front of Lenalee's bedroom door. Lenalee had locked herself up in her room for some time and finally came out two days ago. She has been putting on a fake smile and making the daily runs for Komui and the science divsion, but it's only to get her mind off of Allen. All the exorcists blamed themselves for Allen being taken. Larae didn't blame them. She couldn't. It was their fault. She just wished Allen was there with them. Why was he always disappearing? Leaving her behind like always? Making her worried? "Allen. . . . . . will come back. I just know it." Lare muttered to herself, but bumped into something.

Lavi stared at Larae as she looked up at him, holding back tears again. She started to tremble though and Lavi patted her shoulder, knowing what was bothering her. He was suppose to go take her to Komui so he could talk to her, but she was in no condition to talk about anything. Komui probably wanted to comfort her, but Larae probably wouldn't listen. "I'm sorry Larae. I should've protected him. I should've been more prepared." Lavi said.

"It's not your fault." Larae said as she hugged him and cried in his shirt. "It's none of your faults. You were tricked and you keep blaming yourselves. Stop it!"

Lavi sighed as he hugged her and looked at the floor. Larae was taking it just as bad as Lenalee, but he couldn't comfort her. He didn't know her that well. All he could do was give his friend a d hug and listen to her. "He will come back though. He always does. Always. He promised to come back. He promised to protect." LArae said and Lavi could hear her confidence.

Lavi smiled. Larae was sad, but she had so much confidence in Allen. She had more confidence in him than anyone else did. She believed in Allen. Maybe it was because she knew him better. Whatever it was, he felt that he could believe her words. She gave him a boost of energy he needed. "Of course he will Larae. We should have more faith in him." Lavi said and Larae tightened her arms around him as if she was imagining he was Allen. "He always comes back and this time is no different."

"Thanks Lavi." LArae said and let him go.

Larae wiped her tears away and smiled. Lavi was surprised by how fast she recovered from that. She must really believe in Allen. She ran off and seemed happier. Or maybe she was hiding her feelings. Lavi sighed as he gave a small smile and walked back to Komui's office. "Don't let her down Allen." Lavi whispered.

Okay! Cut! I finished the first chapter for the sequel. I hope you enjoyed it and I hope it's not too depressing. Sorry it took me so long, but I was busy with my other stories and I had to think about this real hard. I should update soon so please review. I need the movitivation! Thanks for reading. Yan Luna4373