I observe the person that I love knowing that I can never have them because they will never feel the same way. My best friend, Gus, says that I don't know until I try but he says that he hates me. I'm sure that he doesn't love me. My name is Shawn Spencer and I am in love with the burly detective Carlton Lassiter. I have no idea when I realized it, I just know that I caught my self looking at him at him differently. I just wish that I wasn't about to die.