a/n: I was feeling angsty a few nights ago and I wrote this and several other chapters. Basically its each character's thoughts/actions right before they die in the series. So that's pretty much the whole thing, each ones going to be fairly short I think, so I hope you enjoy! BETA'ED BY THE LOVELY SKYWARDSHADOW 3

Matt's up first (sorry Mattie T-T)

Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note or any affiliated characters.

I stepped out of my Camaro, gloved hands in the air and a cigarette dangling from between my lips. I rolled my shoulders back, making one pop in a satisfactory way before beginning to speak.

I knew my words were lies; they were going to shoot me the first chance they got. It'd been a fact from the moment I shot that smoke flare out of the car window.

Oh well; I'd let Mello pull me into this and it wasn't his fault, really. What can I say? It sounded like a better time than sitting around not doing shit, and I'm a thrill junkie. Sue me. I didn't really think I'd pay for it with my life but whatever, I'd say it was worth it. If I got to help Mels and have a helluva good time doing it, why not?

Maybe it sounds like I didn't give a fuck about my life or what happened but honestly, up till that point there really hadn't been much for me to live for. And yeah, maybe I was an idiot for agreeing to it, but I didn't regret it. Besides, this was a totally badass way to go, yanno? An epic car chase ending in blood- too bad it was probably gonna be mine. Ah well.

Fuck, bullets hurt! What the fuck! Damn, that fucking hurts!

For a minute I was falling, bullets still ripping right through me, and it wasn't until I hit the pavement that they stopped firing. I lay there, staring down at my chest, which was now riddled with holes. It's kinda weird, watching yourself bleed to death like that. I made that observation halfheartedly, not really caring at that point.

I let my head lean back and hit the cold metal of my car and for a minute I just stared up at the sky, watching the stars as I take my last breaths. Fuck, that sounds sappy.

I'm not an idiot, despite what you might be thinking right now. I wanted- no, needed to do it. Mello had given me something to live for, even if it was just for a few weeks. I wouldn't have had it any other way 'cause if he hadn't roped me into his mess, I'd still be sitting around on my lazy ass doing nothing. At least this way I died for something, something important; even if I didn't play a big part, I helped and was useful. That was a first for me.

So you see? I needed this, and Mello gave it to me. I just hoped he wouldn't freak out too much; it wasn't like I was important. I knew he was watching me right then, but he was somewhere far away, which was good. He was the only one that had ever really bothered to know me, and for that, I would do anything for him. I had done what he needed me to, I'd been at least semi-helpful in his quest. That was all he wanted, and that was all I needed. I could rest easy because I had played my part.

Thanks, Mels.

Heh…I was going now; the stars were dimming and it sure as hell wasn't 'cause it was getting darker. Well, it was getting darker. But only for me. The cigarette fell from between my lips and onto the ground where its small flame was extinguished for good. I was just like that cigarette right then, about to go out forever.

Oh well. I'd had fun, I guess you could say, and that was all I'd ever really wanted.

"S-see you there, M-Mello, and t-thanks for the m-memories…It was w-worth it."

Rest in peace: Mail Jeevas

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