Always

[ Jean x Mikasa], Eren.

Just for once, Jean wished her eyes were on him. Just for once, he wants to be acknowledged by her. But no, she was always watching him. Her coal black eyes followed Eren constantly, always on the lookout for him, always monitoring him with a longing gaze.

Jean tried to stop thinking of the possibility of dying, but, as he found himself wide awake at night sometimes, in the very recesses of his mind, he knew who Mikasa would save when it came down to it. He knew that between him and Eren, she would find a way to make sure it was Eren who was safe.

Not him. It will never be him.

Mikasa will never look at him that way, the way he wants to be looked at. She will never have feelings for him beyond that of a fellow comrade or friend.

But, Jean knows he will always look at her the way Eren never will. He will always acknowledge the fact that she is a beautiful, independent woman. Even if she never returns his feelings, Jean will always be at her side, maybe not as a lover, but as a comrade working toward the same goal; a better future for mankind.

Even if Jean never gets married, has sex, or has children before he dies, he will always be glad it was Mikasa whom he fell in love with. For him, it will always be her. Nobody else will matter to him as much as she.