Hi, so this is my first story or even something I have writhed on my own free will without a teacher screaming in my ear, you get what I mean. English isn't my first language so if there is any mistakes its 110% my fault sorry for that and I from Sweden so I don't know that much about the school system in the states so my friend Wikipedia ;) helped me out a lot. This story will be about 5-7 chapters and I will try to update every weekend. Hope you enjoy!

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Special Glue

Chapter 1

Brittany POV

I don't remember how it happened but one day I was looking at her and this feeling in my stomach came rising up, it felt like if someone had shacked a coke bottle in me and opened it and now everything was just running out of me. I probably where red like a tomato and probably looked like a psycho with a weird smile on my lips but I couldn't stop. Her aviators where up in her hair while she was texting on her phone. ''Hey Britt I was wondering…'' she started to ask but my brain was toning her out I didn't hear what she said but when she put her phone back in her bag and looked at me I smiled again. ''You didn't hear me did you?'' Santana asked and smiled at me, ''what... oh no sorry san what did you say?'' I took her hand in mine and smiled at her again. ''I was wondering if you are free on Friday I'm going out with Jake and thought maybe you wanted to come? Please…'' she asked with a beautiful pout on her lips. I dropped her hand and looked down on the ground and laid '' I can't Santana, sorry'' I could feel my heart break a little but lord tubbs gave me some special glue last week so I probably would stay home on Friday and try to piece my heart back, I was used to it now.

I have been in love with san for a long time now so long that I don't remember when it started. It's sad really but I can't tell her, I just can't and even if I was brave enough it was too late now. Santana and Jake had been dating for 3 months, it started as a fling for her to get back at puck who was a senior last year and broke her heart and left her when he graduated last year. Now Santana was a senior and was dating pucks cousin who also was a junior. What an evil circle. I was going to California and play soccer and dance next year and Santana was going to New York to study at med school and Racheal was following her to follow her dream at Broadway and Kurt was joining her maybe he wasn't sure yet he maybe wanted to stay a year in Lima with Blaine. But me and Santana where separating going different ways and soon we would have to say goodbye. Sure we would call each other and Skype but I would get to give too long hugs or hold her hand or even just be with her for a long while before we would see each other again. I could feel tears starting to come up but I looked away before she could see me and wiped those tears away.

''Why? What are you doing on Friday?'' Santana asked with a sad face.

''I have a lot of homework san you of all know that and I really have to do them or I can flush my dream of the sunny beach and my stipendium in the toilet.''

''Right, sorry if you want I can dump Jake and help you out?'' Santana asked but I know she will regret it on Friday if I said yes now so I laid to her again.

''No, I'll be fine and you should go out and have fun… maybe we can do something on Saturday?''

''Sure Britt I have to go dads friend from the hospital is coming over tonight I think dad just want to show me of because I'm going to study med school but give me a call on Saturday alright?''

''Yeah, sure bye San'' Santana raised and went to her car at the schools parking lot. Leaving me alone at the soccer field where they recently had practice but we always stayed behind after everyone had left even Sue the Couch. Brittany got up after a while just lying on the grass field and went to her car.

Brittany felt out of it on her way home, she was driving around but her mind was elsewhere. She just wanted to hold her and whisper ''I love you'' in her ear and kiss her and call Santana her girlfriend. She just wanted to be able to take her and drag her into her arms and just be one. That's all was it really too much to ask? Brittany hated Puck for breaking her heart and hurting her. Before Puck she used to so warm and give her long hugs back but now everything about her had changed, she was colder and just not the same but Brittany loved her still just as much as she did before when Santana sometimes would hold her hand and give her warm smiles but now…nothing it was like she was a shell and the rare times Britt got her to smile those where the best days.

Today was one of them she got her to smile twice today. First time at math when she poked at Santana's waist until she turned and when San saw Britt handing her some skittles there was a little hint of a smile on her lips and the second time was couple of minutes ago at the field when she didn't hear what she said first. But that thought brought a tear to her eyes. San was going out again this Friday on the day it used to be there ''date night'' which they had since they were kids but Britt had lost hope about their ''date night'' coming back a long time ago.

Britt stopped at the red light and when it turned to green she started to drive again but when she saw a rabbit running over the road in front of her car she turned her steering wheel hard to the left and lost control of the car the last thought on her mind was her.