I'm probably not going to be continuing this story so reviews are HUGLY appreciated. Btw I'm not going to be shipping LapisxJasper in this story.
Lapis wasn't quite sure how long it had been since she had first gotten trapped under the dark, cold, sea fused with Jasper. Or how long it had been since Steven had come and given her a visit. She was still in control but also slowly losing herself to the strength of Jasper and the fusion. She had felt anger and revenge bundling up inside her. She could feel Jasper's rage and hatred towards the gems. She knew that if she had lost control for even a minute, Jasper would have destroyed the gems using their fusion.
She knew that if she de-fused then Jasper would be able to easily make her way back to Beach City, call up Honeworld, and start another war. Lapis didn't want a war, she wanted to get back home.
Sadly, she was positive that the moment she got back to Homeworld they would punish her for defending Earth instead of fighting it thousands of years ago. Lapis struggled to hold onto herself, her personality, her friend, and her trust. "I can only hold on for a little longer, but I'll hold on for years if it means I'm keeping you safe," She told herself every time she struggled to keep herself together.
She knew that she had put on a bit of a scene when Steven had visited. She had actually lost herself to the fusion and didn't get back in control until a few days later.
Jasper had inched the fusion closer and closer to the Temple each time she got control.
"You're weak, pathetic," Jasper's voice echoed in Lapis's head from before they had gotten to Earth.
Lapis shook it off and continued to fight. As the tides rised and lowered, Lapis's strength was tested, and tested. Over and over every day, It had happened so often that it started to become kind of routine.
Lapis could hear voices spinning around her faster than the speed of light, some voices were good but most of them were negative. They were things like...
'I'm not leaving without you!'
'I'll be back,'
'We're not leaving, Lapis! Not until you give us back our ocean!'
'No prob Bob,'
'We're Beach Summer Fun Buddies!'
'The time to take all of that pressure built up and just let it out,'
'Lapis, listen, fuse with me!'
'How long have they kept you on this miserable hunk of rock!'
'These gems, they're traitors to their own kind!'
'Lapis, don't do it!'
She was starting to wish she had listened to Steven, but she didn't and now she never gets a time to rest. She never gets a moment to just sit down and think. The one time she did since being trapped in a mirror was when she was being held hostage by Homeworld, deciding weather to destroy her gem or make her work hard 24/7.
This felt like she was being torchered over at Homeworld. If this wasn't worse then she didn't want to know what Homeworld was going to do to her.
She got so lost in her thoughts she lost herself for a moment and almost lost control. She then found her center of gravity and got herself back up. Slowly, but it happened.
