Goodbye
Summary: What Angel was thinking when he saw Buffy and Riley together.
Disclaimer: Nothing's mine. If it was do you think Buffy would have slept with Riley, or Spike? Do you think Angel would have become insane and fall in love with Wicked Witch season 2-4 Cordelia??? Would Angel have left at all???? The answer? NO...NOOOO!!! I don't own anything.
The song belongs to the group Hootie and the Blowfish.
A/N: The song lyrics are in // \\. Its written in Angel's POV.
//Tomorrow used to be a day away
Now love is gone and you're into someone far away.
I never thought the day would come
When I would see his hand, not mine,
holding onto yours because I could not find the time.//
I stood there...watching her, feeling my heart break. Kinda ironic, don't you think? A dead heart breaking...HA. I guess everything's possible with her. Maybe I'm selfish, or greedy...but I always thought we were meant to be...I always thought her heart would be mine. Now seeing her smiling, laughing at that freshman, Fish? No that can't be...Fin...yes that's it. Seeing her dance with him, and kiss him...its like my soul...wait bad metaphor...my unlife is slipping away.
//Now I can't deny
nothing lasts forever
I don't want to leave
and I see the tear drops in your eyes
I don't want to live to see the day we say goodbye
Now there comes another part of life that I call alone
sitting at a bar with Chris
and I can't leave 'cause my house ain't no home, no//
I still remember the day I broke up with you. In the sewers...we always were a weird couple. You cried, you said that you wanted my life to be with me, and I said that I didn't want yours to be with me. I thought I was holding you down, maybe I'm right...now you can go on crappy picnics in the sun, and have fat children. I was darkness...and you needed light. This is the way its suppose to be...you with a light filled life, and me sulking in the darkness...watching you.
//I just wanna touch you girl
I wanna feel you close to me
Without your love I would give up now
and walk away so easily.
So maybe while you're young
We'll figure out together
that even with the pain, there's a remedy
and we'll be all right
I don't want to live to see the day we say goodbye.//
I want so badly to walk up to the middle of the floor, and kiss your breath away. But I can't do that...can I? Before Angelus reared up his ugly head...I thought everything would be okay. I thought that I could hold you and that everything would be fine, that our love would conquer all. We were both foolish...I was denying that anything good could happen to me...Angelus, the Scourge of Europe, and Buffy was too innocent. Yet, sometimes I wish we were still back into those days, especially days like this...seeing you with another man.
//When I first met you I couldn't love anyone
but you stole my dreams and you made me see
that I can walk under the sun
and I can still be me
and now I can't deny nothing lasts forever.
But I don't want to leave and see the teardrops in your eyes
So baby while we're young let's figure out together
that even with the pain there's a remedy
and we'll be all right.
I don't want to live to see the day we say goodbye,
we say goodbye, oh goodbye, goodbye.//
You taught me to love, to live, to accept who I was. You showed me my purpose in life, you showed me the way to redemption. You are my salvation, your my prayer. I will always love you...no matter what. The pain will never lessen, and I'm never going to accept this...I won't say goodbye...because goodbye means forever. I don't and never will believe that our love is gone forever. I love you Buffy...I always will.
