Title: If I had walked away

Rating: PG

Summary: Eh a little thought process going on.

Endorse: The characters and show belong to FOX, CC, and 1013. The story is mine

Moments, small and big, define our lives. You make one decision and your path is detoured another direction. We never truly know the implications until after a choice is made. Most only realize this on their deathbed. Those who live with regret are the ones who look back and wish they could have made different choices. They are the ones who went astray. I believe that there is a path you're meant to take, but there are obstacles along the way to test you, and strengthen you. But how do you really know the path you've set out on is right, and not destructive?

There were many points where I could have walked away. The very first point was not to go into the FBI at all. Then so many cases, so many reasons. Something always kept me there. Mulder? The job? Something greater than me letting me know every time I asked, that I was where I was meant to be?

I'm sitting here, on a leather couch with my head resting on his shoulder. A basketball game is on but I could care less at the moment. I think if I had walked away, sure I may have lived a safer life. Maybe I wouldn't have gotten the cancer. But I wouldn't of had William. The joy of having him and losing him. And from the cancer been reborn with a new sense of life. We would not be sitting here right now.

I'm a very different person then I was when I first walked into that basement. I've been pushed, my boundaries expanded and my naiveté destroyed. My faith has been tested over and over. I've faltered many times but in the end I still wear the cross around my neck.

So is this my path, the one true path? If I had left, then I would have gone the wrong way. This is a harder path, but sometimes only God knows the reasons, and I have to believe my purpose is for a greater good. The easy path in life is not always the best one to take. To be tested on a hard road and survive all the way down, that is a true accomplishment.