Chapter 1: What They Don't Know
Summary: Emily seems normal on the outside, but on the inside, she's breaking apart. She's slowly dieing inside. No one seems to notice because of the mask on her face. Her eternal smile she uses to hide her pain. Her eyes which mask the tears….it's only a while until it blows up in her face…..right?
Dedicated to all those who hide their pain behind a smile. I know your pain, I really do. Sometimes you just got to open up. I'm slowly learning that now.
Also dedicated to the people I recently met….they know who they are….I think? They are slowly teaching me this lesson indirectly.
Also to a few people who I've talked to on here, who have been hiding behind a smile. I promise, everything's going to be okay.
Emily
I looked in the mirror. This smile on my face….it looked so fake….. How do they believe this smile?
That is something I will never know….
I looked at the clock. 9:52…..
Only two more hours, you can do this….2 more hours and you can let it all go.
I walked back out to the garden. We were all spending the night out there watching the stars. I went inside to grab something from my room. My camera.
"The stars are so beautiful." Mia said. I looked up at them. They really are.
"Yeah, I agree." Everything was just so... peaceful….
I can feel Jayden and Mike's eyes on me. I avoided eye contact with them. I just looked up at the stars and took a few pictures.
We spent the rest of the night out there….
Around 11 we started to head into bed. As I was walking down the hallway two hands grabbed my arm. It was Jayden and Mike.
"Let me go!" I snapped at them.
They released me….
"Emily, are you okay?" Mike asked me.
No, I'm not. I feel like I am dieing. I feel numb and broken. I feel destroyed.
"I'm fine!" I lied.
"Emily, please, the truth." Jayden said seeing through my lie.
You won't understand…. No one will. Ever….
"That is the truth. Just leave me alone…." I said.
I turned and ran for my room.
I slammed the door shut, and fell to the ground.
I broke. I was in tears….
I can hear people knocking at my door.
Keep the door shut. Don't let them in. They won't ever understand. They never will….
"Emily?" They called from the other side of the door.
Keep pushing them away. Don't let them in. They won't be able to understand anything about it.
"Go away!" I snapped.
I cried into my knees.
"Emily….please? Talk to me. Talk to us!" I heard one of them plead.
"No! Just go away! Please!" I begged.
I felt like screaming. I felt like running.
I just wanted them to leave.
I made sure my door was locked and crawled into my bed. I cried myself to sleep. I was never going to let them in, no matter how hard they banged at that door. I know they gave up eventually. They may be stubborn, but they aren't that stubborn….They give in at some point. They probably think I'm dead, but I could care less.
Who really cares? I don't….I want to die…..
I know I should tell them, but, I just can't. They won't understand any of it….
Sorry I haven't been….er….active. I've been on Town Of Salem, awesome game, you should check it out, and if you want you guys can add me on there, I'm on there most of the time so if you really want to talk, message me on there or here. Either way I'll respond….
Anyways, yeah. This is dedicated to those who mask everything. Sometimes it doesn't hurt to take off that mask. I know before I met these guys (I'm not going to give names, not sure if they'd like it or not…) are slowly teaching me that, even though as you can probably guess, I am stubborn as hell. But you know, they put up with me and that. I know if I need to, I can tell them anything. I trust them with my life if it came down to it….
So don't be scared to take that mask off.
Don't be scared to cry sometimes.
Don't be scared of being judged! I thought that the guys I met would, but eh, not everyone is what it seems….
Don't be scared to let you be you.
Don't let yourself go unheard. Be loud! And stop masking!
If you need to talk, I'm here. I know what it's like to mask your feelings. I've done it since I was little. So I do have an understanding of that, and if you really want to talk, I'll try to understand your problem that is causing you to mask as well.
-BaybieBlue (Now I can't even spell my name right….Jeez….)
Also, what do you think is the problem with Emily? Chapter 2 will be coming out soon…..I hope….I'll try, but there is a plan! No fear!
Also, the 17th, as last year, I will be answering any questions you guys have for that week. So if you have any questions, 15-21st I will answer questions you guys have since the 17th is 2 year mark. Just an update. :P I will try to answer, but I am going under surgery at that point so may be delayed...
