Chapter 1:

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People said, you will learn to appreciate little things in your hardest time. The sound of the ocean breeze, the various color of the sky and the smile from the one that you love.

He couldn't stop thinking about her. The scavenger girl who stole his heart from the day he met her in the woods. He just didn't realize that. Until the night they fought the praetorian guards together, as one. It was beautiful, at least that's what he thought. The way she leaned on his back and grabbed his thigh to attack those guards, the way they sync in harmony was just like they know how to do this for the rest of their life. It felt like they were meant to be together. Side by side.

This was not what he had in mind. He thought being a Supreme Leader would feel great and superior with all the power that he has now. But it wasn't. He still felt empty inside. It felt like he was slowly dying. This wound would never heal, just like the scar in his face. It would never go away.

He was in pain, for most of his life. Until he found someone who could truly understand him like no one could. She could understand because they shared the same kind of sadness and pain. And for that he loves her. She was the only one he trusts, the only one that he cares about. He wanted her to be free of the pain, just like he always hopes for himself.

He admitted that he was furious when he realized that she left him unconscious in the throne room. But deep down, his heart shattered to pieces. He never wish to felt this way. He never thought that one girl could turn his world upside down. He knew that he had a lot of things to do. He got all these burden on his shoulder. He's a Supreme Leader of The First Order now. Everyone was expecting him to do his best since he's the son of the darkness, heir apparent of the Darth Vader. But sometimes he just wanna locked himself in his quarter, still waiting for the force to connect them one more time. But somehow, it didn't.

"Rey..." Kylo whispered to himself, he was staring at the wall in his quarter. So much sadness in his voice. What a wistful thinking, hoping that the force would connecting them again. It's been 2 months since she closed that door in his face. He has been devastated realize can not knowing about her anymore. How's she doing, how's she feel right now. There was so much thing going on in his head. He just couldn't simply get rid of her from his mind. Everything else was irrelevant and distorted now, clouded by the gravity of the darkness. Because he just realized he never wanted anything more than he wanted her, not even the power. The power had become meaningless. What was the point of being powerful when he didn't have her stand beside him. It's all for nothing now. If he only could tell her how much he care about her, how much she meant to him. The problem was he never got a chance to really show his affection to her because he didn't know how and nobody ever taught him how to do that properly.

Kylo Ren was drowning in despair. Drowning so deep, he didn't know how to reach the surface. He's been screaming at the top of his lung to freed himself from the pain. But somehow he couldn't escape. It was just getting worse and worse every single day. He began to worry about his sanity.

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"BEN!" She gasped as she open her eyes. Oh, it was only just a dream. Sigh. She put both of her palms to her face, as the tears flowing down through. She couldn't help but crying. She couldn't even remember when this thing started. Rey kept dreaming about Ben Solo. Every night, when she closed her eyes to sleep his figure came to her. Sometimes he was mad, sometimes he was just staring at her without any word to say. But the most grueling thing was when he smiles, like everything was fine. In her dream they were happy, there was no war no conflict. It was just Rey and Ben with nothing in their way. These dreams tormented her, because she knew these images only existed in her head. This could never be come true. He had no idea how much she wanted to take his hand that night in the throne room. But she couldn't. She knew it, he knew it.

At that moment they realized that the visions they had for each other in the future can't come true, because they wanted to follow different paths. He couldn't go, and she couldn't stay. Once again, they were at the opposite side of the war. It was painful to remember how much they've come this far, how much her feeling was grew towards him. He's not a monster once she thought he was. She could understand him better now. And he needed help, desperately.

She wiped away her tears from her cheeks. These tears seemed won't stop pouring down her face. She missed him, so much. Sometimes at dinner time she sneak out back to her room, just to sit next to her bed waiting for the force to connecting them again. But it wasn't. She thought maybe he didn't want to talk to her, maybe he hated her for what she was done to him. Maybe just maybe he blocked the force connection so they didn't have to deal with each other again. Her heart-rate accelerated to an almost painful speed when she thought about it, but she couldn't remove his images from her mind.

"Rey, General Organa wants you to…." Finn barged in her room in a rush "Um, sorry I didn't knock first" He's kinda shocked when he found Rey was crying, still covered in her blanket. "Rey, are you okay?" he asked as he walk in her room and closed the door behind him.

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine" she put a smile slightly to her face while wipes all those tears from her face.

"Do you want to talk about that? You know I'm always here for you if you need anything" he seemed worry.

"I'm fine Finn. You don't have to worry about me." She lied, didn't want her best friend to find out what she was going through lately.

"Oh come on Rey, you've been missing at dinner time. You've avoiding technically everyone in this ship, including me."

"I didn't mean to, I'm sorry. I just need some time alone. All of these things was driving me crazy. The dark side, the Jedi, the war. It's so overwhelm." No, It wasn't just that. It was more than just the war. If only I could tell you about him.

"I understand, but you don't have to keep the burden to yourself. You can tell me whenever you want, okay?"

"Okay, thank you Finn." She smiled, relief that he didn't push her to tell him what's going on.

"Oh I almost forgot, General Organa needs you to join the meeting now. She got something to tell you."

"Alright, go ahead. I'll be there in a minute." He nodded as he walked out from her room.

"Argh! You can do this Rey. You can do this!" She talked to herself, hoping that it would help to cheer her up a little bit.

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"Hahaha, yeah right you should tell Chewie about that." Rey talked to Finn and Rose who tried to goofing around her in the corridor on their way to the dinner room.

Suddenly she stopped, she felt something.

"What's wrong Rey?" Rose seemed curious.

"Nothing, I just forget something in my room. You guys go on, I'll catch up soon." Finn and Rose looked at each other with bewildered eyes, but they proceed anyway.

As she slowly twisted around, she saw this familiar figure. He was standing across the room. His head bowed, but when he began to dawn on her that she recognizes his appearance, he lifted his head. And here they are seeing each other again for the first time since The Battle of The Crait.

Her jaw slackened as a torrent of emotions flooded her all at once. She could see his face clearly. She tried to gather her composure so she could witness every inch of him. Unlike her, he seemed pretty calm, just stood there. She wanted to hold him so badly. Little did she knows, he wanted to do the same thing too. But somehow they're end up staring at each other for the past few minutes.

"Be….K..Kylo Ren." She stuttered trying to break the silence.

He gasped when he realized she attempt to call him Ben in the first place. Honestly he didn't think this would hurt his feeling, hearing her called him by that name, because deep down inside he wanted her to call him Ben again, just like she used to.

"Rey…" He bowed his head slightly.

She thought back to the last time she'd seen him, it was quite a while. 2 months to be exact. His presence here ignited all the affection she'd felt towards him. As she kept gazing at him her eyes shed a tear. It seemed like she couldn't hide away her feeling any longer. Kylo was shooketh. His eyebrow was knitted together. He approached her right away. He wanted to caress her face desperately, to mop away those tears so he could see her beautiful face again.

They couldn't keep their eyes off of each other until suddenly they disappeared out of each other sight before they could say another word. It left them with nothing but a giant hole in their heart.

She dropped on her knees, and the tears began to tumble like rain. "Oh God, I miss him…" She whispered to herself as she released a shuddering breath.

On the other side of the galaxy, Kylo was crouching down to kneel beside his bed. He clenched his eyes as he covering his face with his palm. "I lost her…"

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a/n: And so the story begins.. I hope this introduction has been successful to catch your attention! I know this is the first time for me to write a fanfiction but I hope you guys can enjoy this and hopefully I can give you quick updates! Please review and help me to improves, I'd love to know your thought!

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